Look, you were one of those people that tried talking me out of doing something stupid, and I didn't listen to you, and got into hell for it. So now I'm going to do the same for you, and I'll try talking you out of anything stupid.
I don't know you too well, But I care about you. You're one of those humans with a big heart, who at least ask if someone's ok, if they need a shoulder to cry on. There's not enough people in the world like you, and I'll be damned if I just sit here on my ass and let another one die off. YOu're like a rare species, seriously endangered. But not going to go extinct.
There's too much to live for. YOu shouldn't give up any time soon. YOu know for a fact that Gerard Way himself struggled with the same depression and suicidalness. And yet he rose above it to go on and save people's lives, and make people want to live. But do you think that at the time that he was suffering through that, he had any indication that he would go on to be such a huge lifesaver? No! He didn't! And neither do you.
You don't know what lies around the corner, you don't know what's going to happen in the next 2 days, the next 2 weeks. I promise you that if you just hold on, things can and will get better for you. Look, when I tried to kill myself, I thought that there was nobody there for me. Some ficwad reviews were starting to get posted saying not to do it, but there were only a few of them, so I thought hey, to hell with it, it's just ONE MOTHERFUCKING REVIEWER!
So I went ahead and swallowed all those pills anyways. I almost died (heart stopped at least once in the hospital), had a fucking near-death experience, and got confined to a psychward for over a week and a half. I now live with the possibility of having permanent organ damage and seeing all these drs who treat me like radioactive scum, and having a huge record and stigma following me around, possibly for the rest of my teenage life, and maybe beyond. This might hamper me getting into a good school, a drivers license, and into a college, and getting a proper job.
So please think twice before you do anything that might affect you badly. I care about you, as do many others. Email me if you ever need anything.
Ho-ly fuck....when I read this I fucking cried...like "wow people do care about my shitty little life".....I never thought of anything that way....Thank you....that was inspiring