I am really really sad about you leaving Ficwad, but I understand your reasons. If I could convince you to stay, I would, but I think you know better than anyone where your limits are and I just hope you can gain back whatever confidence you lost here and use it to continue on with your stories on another site. Mostly, though, I want you to be better. Maybe sleep more. Maybe take up yoga. Just get in the best mindset you can be in and focus on yourself foremost. If you never write another word in your life, just know that your real life is what is important.
Also, I would love to be on your email list. My email address is : email@example.com