This is like a knife in the chest, but like a good knife in the chest. It hurts but it's good.
That analogy sucked but whatever. This is fantastic writing.
The feeling of not being able to escape something because it's an intrinsic part of you is familiar to me. This made me feel a lot of things.
You deserve lots of good things, az.
Author's response
a good knife, huh? i could dig it. it's alright to hurt but i dunno if it's good. i don't like to hurt.
it's impulsive and emotional and i guess i like it. i glad you think so too.
it's funny it made you feel things when i'm trying to not feel so much anymore. i mean, no, i'm trying to feel less, is what i'm saying.
i'm not too sure i agree with you on the last part...but i like the sound of it. sounds nice to hear.
thank you, m. thank you.
-az