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Can't tell if i've been breathing or sleeping or screaming

When he cuts he loses touch and when he loses touch it's like he dissappears... just what he wants to not exist; to not be.

Category: My Chemical Romance - Rating: G - Genres: Angst - Characters: Gerard Way - Warnings: [V] - Published: 2008/12/26 - Updated: 2008/12/26 - 653 words - Complete

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• Can't tell if i've been breathing or sleeping or screaming

  (#) disturbedangel6 2008-12-26 07:58:30 PM

  This is good yay xD
  And veryy detailed
  Update soon...?xx

• Can't tell if i've been breathing or sleeping or screaming

  (#) Leah270193 2008-12-27 11:15:21 AM

  This is a very personal story believe it or not even tho it's sad to say yet do not hesitate to critisize it (constructively) of course!

• Can't tell if i've been breathing or sleeping or screaming

  (#) canustakemyheart 2008-12-27 01:53:59 PM

  This was really fucking insightful (in fact, I rated it). I've been through some dark ass shit in my time and although I didn't cut myself, I did hurt myself. I chose to do it with booze and, to a lesser extent, drugs (I've been down Xanax road so to speak and it led me to a dead fucking end - almost literally). It's escapism at it's finest really. You fuck with your own mind - convince it that certain actions (or certain substances) can lead you to a small amount of redemption ... or at least to an "alternate" reality for a short time. For that short time you can either really feel, or become really numb - it's up to you, which one you like better.
  
  The way you explained what "self harm" REALLY accomplished was exquisitely all-too-familiar to me. Like I said, I never did the cutting thing, but all the same types of emotions were in play for what I was doing.
  
  You're very good at really digging down inside and ripping out emotions, thoughts and feelings, then laying them all out on the "table" for anyone to see. I respect that.
  
  I know how addictive something like this can get. For me, I reached a point where the "catch-22" (you do whatever it is that's "bad", but it makes you feel "good") got too lopsided. I was feeling worse and worse ... sinking down into a pit that I myself had dug. I almost checked right the fuck off this rock in fact before I realized that I needed to ... well, I needed to find something else to cling to. That's really what it was. I was trying to cling to something that would make me feel more alive, only I'd fucked that up and was feeling more and more dead inside eventually.
  
  Gah. Sorry I just ran away with that. Didn't mean to dump all that here in your review. But really, your "story" brought all that crashing back into my mind. And I love shit that can provoke any kind of response like that in me ... stuff that really makes you think.
  
  xD

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