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Im ashamed of all my somethings Part One

by olinda_13 0 reviews

gee goes to a party

Category: My Chemical Romance - Rating: PG-13 - Genres: Drama - Characters: Gerard Way - Warnings: [R] - Published: 2009-04-13 - Updated: 2009-04-13 - 1526 words

bleh review if u want i dont care anymore sorry if bad spelling tell me if sumfins wrong

Telling Layla's story spoken
'Bout how all her bones are broken
Hammers fall on all the pieces
Two months in the cover creases

Fully alive
More than most
Ready to smile and love life
Fully alive and she knows
How to believe in futures

All my complaints shrink to nothing
I'm ashamed of all my somethings
She's glad for one day of comfort
Only because she has suffered


Gerard’s P.O.V

Tapping the steering wheel I glance through the car window to see Bellville passing by tonight was all hallows eve and me and my best friend
Sarah were going to a party at Tony's place’s don’t know why I was so excited it was either the booze or that Michelle was going to be there anti-flag fuck police brutality
Was blaring through my car stereo causing old ladies to stare as a I drove past "fuck em" I thought I’m 16 it’s my right to tell everyone to go fuck themselves
pulling up to Sarah’s house I honked the horn and waited for her to come out a few minutes later Sarah came out dressed in a mini skirt and boob tube
"What are you supposed to be? A cocktail napkin?" I asked noting her clothes or what little of there was.
"What are you supposed to be my dad?" she retorted pulling her seatbelt on.
"Hey your ad count rock red and black like I do" I smirked brushing my sleeves off
"True I must admit you do look dashing mars way black suit and red tie very nice" she smiled as we began zig zagging through the streets of Bellville.
Pulling out my new mix tape I placed it into the stereo soon The Who-Boris and the spider started blasting through

Look, he's crawling up my wall
Black and hairy, very small
Now he's up above my head
Hanging by a little thread

We started singing looking at Sarah she was smiling and happy if only I knew what was going to happen that night I remember when I and Sarah first met it was in kindergarden
two boys were picking on her and I threw my favorite hulk action figure at one of their heads which missed completely since I can’t throw for shit which caused the two little shits to shove my head into the sandpit and make me eat some sad.

Boris the spider
Boris the spider

Now he's dropped on to the floor
Heading for the bedroom door
Maybe he's as scared as me
Where's he gone now, I can't see

Boris the spider
Boris the spider

"Fuck I love this song" I stated as we stopped at some red lights
"I know right The Who is the shits" she agreed fixing her lipstick in my rearview mirror.
"Whets the time?" I asked as I glanced over on my right to see a blood red sunset
"Bout 6:45 why?"
"Just wondering “pulling into Tony's driveway there was already 30 different people outside
"Hey Sarah take my hoodie you might get cold" I offered pulling my black hoodie from the backseat rolling her eyes she snatched from me and headed inside.

Before I could even get inside I was stopped by ten different people after an hour of standing outside talking to people about things such as cereal, various comics and girls I was cold and dying for a drink
Making my way inside I found the drinks pulling out a corona I quickly chugged it down I saw tony making some shots I walked over and took three I just wanted to get drunk before I saw Michelle or at least a little intoxicated. Talking to tony for awhile I glanced around the room to se Michelle sitting next to her best friend Becky
I caught her staring at me I smiled and nodded as she glanced down at the floor and at Becky excusing myself I walked over to them sitting on the couch and sat myself right next to Becky
"Hi" I greeted as Michelle turned bright red I think Becky got the drift of what I wanted and she yelled something about finding tony which we could barely hear over the music. “Want me to get you a drink?" I asked as I had already finished off my second beer of the night "sure" she nodded grabbing her hand I pulled her into the kitchen handing her a beer she smiled gratefully "thanks" "no problem" I replied grabbing some jack Daniels and pouring it into a clean cup. Sitting back on the couch we talked for awhile Michelle was a little quiet but I didn’t mind I was shy too after I few more drinks though we started getting a little closer, I couldn’t tell when we started kissing but we were full on making out on the couch things were getting very heated till I heard tony parents grandfather clock strike twelve "shit!" I gently pulled Michelle away and told her I had to go handing her my number I left her on the couch in search of Sarah. Looking through the house I couldn’t find her at all I asked tony I asked Becky I even went back and asked Michelle if she’s seen her at all.
"That strange maybe she’s upstairs" I thought climbing up the stairs I went in search for her
"Sarah" I called out walking through each bedroom it wasn’t until I got to Tony's parents bedroom that I heard someone crying walking in the place looked trashed it reeked of sex and there was allot of blood on the bed "looks like some bastard got a girls first in here and very roughly as well glancing in the corner I saw something that made my stomach drop my black hoodie "SARAH!!" I yelled banging on the adjoining bathroom door.
"It-it’s open gee--e" she choked out
Opening the door I never thought I would ever be so ashamed of the world till then
"holy fuck Sarah" I cried pulling her into my arms all over her body were bruises her skirt was pulled up and her panties were nowhere to be seen there was blood dripping down her legs her face was red an she had blood pouring out of her nose onto her bare chest.
"It hurts" she whimpered
"Aw sweetie where does it hurt " shit Gerard don’t cry holy fuck don’t you cry you got to be strong for her
'Everywhere" she sobbed into my chest
"Who did this that did this to you!!?” I growled looking into her bloodshot eyes
“I not know" she sobbed god she looks so lost
"Wait here" I said running into the room
Grabbing my black hoodie I raced back in locking the door I made Sarah lay down and rest her head against the hoodie and my black blazer while I made a bath for her.
"Do you mind?" I asked pointing at her skirt
"no I don’t "she whispered breaking out into more tears kissing her forehead I gently slid her skirt off trying not to hurt her too much even though she winced a little when I lifted her legs to bull the skirt of completely
"Sorry apologized as I lifted her and set her gently in the bath.
"S-not your fault" she choked out
"You want me to wash you?"I asked shaking slightly
"Yeah" I knew she was embarrassed I could tell I washed away the blood I washed away all of it. Pulling the plug on the drain I lifted her out a let her dry herself.
handing her, her skirt and my foodie she clung to me as we walked down the stairs nobody seemed to notice us everyone seemed completely drunk opening my car door she stiffly got inside shutting it gently I walked over to the other side an side and quietly got in starting the car I drove to Sarah’s house who seemed to have turned into a shell a empty shell her old vibrant self seemed to be locked away I missed her.
"Can we go to your house? My parents aren’t home and I don’t want to be there alone “she rasped out
"Yeah anything you want Sarah" I said trying to smile
when we got to my house I quietly snuck her downstairs thankfully my parents had gone to bed handing her my spare pajamas I walked into the bathroom and proceeded to have a shower throwing up an crying in the shower wasn’t my idea of staying strong and being a "man" but remembering the images and the smell was too much I don’t think I’ll ever forget that smell it was disgusting after a few more minutes I climbed out and got into my pjs. Sarah was already asleep in my bed she looked so peaceful sitting myself on my beanbag I began drifting off to sleep.
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