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Okay something very bad has happened... my laptop is fucked. :(... yeah,but... s'all gooood! its getting fixed this week. Unfortuneatley til then i'll have to use the freakin computer downstairs, and god knows how i'm meant to write in the mayhem of our living room. lol. i shall manage... hopefully :D here's the next one :)
Charlotte's POV
"So give me all your poison,
And give me all your pills,
And give me all your hopeless hearts and make me ill.
You’re running after something that you'll never kill,
If this is what you want then fire at will!"
I heard Gerard scream those lyrics into the microphone. The concert so far had been amazing. The crowd cheered the guys on all night, and all the little fan girls screeched whenever Gerard shot them a glance. The whole atmosphere of the night was electrifying; I never thought it would be as good as this. I know I’d totally underestimated Emily when she kept going on about how amazing they were, but now I can see why she did it. Their sound was just so unique. Gerard's voice was the equivalent to an angle's, with the odd scream thrown in as well. I never once thought he would have a voice like that, and the guitars and drums just concluded it all. They were amazing.
I listened to each lyrics Gerard sang, and I could feel everyone he put into it. But the same thought kept coming up in my head. Why did Gerard seem upset when he was leaving the dressing room earlier? He seemed ecstatic when he'd found out it was me, but then all of a sudden his mood changed completely. I'd reached out to hug him, but he'd pushed me away and left without taking another look at me. I hoped I hadn't said or done anything to upset him, because I didn't want to. I didn't want to go back home and forget all about him like before, I wanted to keep in touch with him.
I raised my hands up in the air in time with the music and I noticed something glittering on my finger. I sighed heavily as I studied the gold band that seemed to be locked around my finger for eternity. Suddenly all thoughts and feelings for Gee were lost, my mind was now filled with images of Jason's lustful eyes bearing into me. Flashbacks flooded my memory of when he hit me and used me. I certainly didn't want to go back to that life. I couldn't and I wouldn't. I refused to go and live in the hell that was supposed to be my home, because if I spent any longer living there... I would definitely give up on living.
When Gerard announced that unfortunately the next song was going to be their last of the night, I felt a huge wave of sadness rush over me. My heart dropped as I realised I’d have to go home soon, away from Emily, away from Gerard... And back to Jason. As the riff of the guitars started up, fresh tears sprung to my eyes. I couldn't help but let them escape. The song was called 'Demolition Lovers'.
Gerard's eyes searched the crowd until they found mine. He looked straight at me, and when he began to sing the stare didn't break. It was as if he was singing this song to me, like he was referring each word to me. As the song went one he never once looked away, the only time the connection was broken was when he blinked. I felt the cold tears trailing down my cheeks, staining them. Emily must have noticed, she turned to face me questioningly; but I didn't take my eyes from Gerard's.
When the song ended the last notes echoed through each wall. The lights flickered on and people started to move out of the venue, but I stood staring at the empty stage with teary eyes.
"Hey, earth to Charlotte?" Emily said waving her hand in front of my eyes. I blinked a few times and smiled as my thoughts disappeared. "You ready to go?" She asked linking her arm with mine. I hesitated but nodded anyway and we walked out of the hall together.
"So... What happened to you in there?" Emily asked when we'd got outside of the venue. I shivered slightly, the gentle night breeze made Goosebumps on my arms.
"What?" I said pretending to not know what she meant. She rolled her eyes at me, "At the end, you were crying."
I didn't really know what to say, because I wasn't exactly sure why I was crying. I think it was just the realisation of the fact that the night was over, and I’d have to face reality again. Plus... It was a pretty emotional song. I just shrugged at her.
“Well, is there something wrong Char?” I could hear the concern in her voice. I glanced up at her and smiled to assure her I was fine.
“I’m just having strange mood swings Emz. Anyway, you wanna go wait for the guys to come out? After all, you never did get an autograph.” I suggested. An excited smiled spread on her lips and she nodded quickly.
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We waited for three freakin’ hours ‘til they eventually headed out to their bus. The fans swarmed in on them and the guys immediately started signing autographs. There were only about twenty fans there, so we didn’t have to wait too long for our turn. As Gerard was getting a photo taken with a girl, he noticed Emily and me standing waiting. I smiled warmly at him, but in return I only received a nod from him. What the fuck was his problem? Seriously it whatever it was, it was starting to piss me off. I crossed my arms over my chest to refrain from shoving through the fans and demanding hi to give me an explanation.
Finally the last fan got their photo and autograph, and it was our turn. I watched as Emily flirted insanely with Frank, and luckily for her he seemed interested. I also seen Bob holding a girl in a tight embrace. When they pulled apart he gazed into her brown eyes lovingly and planted a gentle kiss on her lips. I couldn’t help but feel envious of that little gesture; Jason had never done anything like that with me.
Since Gerard was obviously avoiding me, I decided to go and talk to Mikey.
“Hey lil Mikey.” I said ruffling his hair. He smirked and flattened his hair back to it’s original state, “Don’t call me lil… I aint that younger than you.” He said trying to keep a serious expression, but failing miserably.
“I know, but I still can’t believe I ran into you guys like this.” I said honestly, I still wasn’t quite over the shock.
“Yeah, Gee and I were shocked too. But I did have a slight feeling we’d meet you here.” He grinned.
“You did?” I asked raising my eyebrows. He nodded and pursed his lips, “And Gerard was secretly praying you’d show up.” He winked at me and I blushed.
“Oh really? That’s kind of hard to believe since he’s completely avoiding me.” I stated. Mikey looked confused, “Avoiding you?”
“Yeah… In the dressing room he-” I was about to explain to him when the man himself cut me off.
“Mikey we gotta get going now.” Gerard said, still refusing to look at me.
“Aw shit, really?” Mikey groaned. Gerard nodded in reply and stood facing me as Mikey left for the bus.
He glanced at me for a second then turned to leave when I quickly took his hand. He turned back to face me again with a confused expression.
“Why are you being an asshole?” I blurted out when he finally looked at me.
“What?”
“Gerard, ever since you left for the show you’ve just been acting… weird.” I said, hoping those were the right words to have said. He tugged his hand out of mine and looked down at the ground.
“I’m not being weird. I just didn’t expect you’d be married.” He said before walking away to the bus, again leaving me with a confused expression.
Okay kinda short again, sorry. But i promise promise promise the next chapter will be up tomorrow :) R&R? x
Charlotte's POV
"So give me all your poison,
And give me all your pills,
And give me all your hopeless hearts and make me ill.
You’re running after something that you'll never kill,
If this is what you want then fire at will!"
I heard Gerard scream those lyrics into the microphone. The concert so far had been amazing. The crowd cheered the guys on all night, and all the little fan girls screeched whenever Gerard shot them a glance. The whole atmosphere of the night was electrifying; I never thought it would be as good as this. I know I’d totally underestimated Emily when she kept going on about how amazing they were, but now I can see why she did it. Their sound was just so unique. Gerard's voice was the equivalent to an angle's, with the odd scream thrown in as well. I never once thought he would have a voice like that, and the guitars and drums just concluded it all. They were amazing.
I listened to each lyrics Gerard sang, and I could feel everyone he put into it. But the same thought kept coming up in my head. Why did Gerard seem upset when he was leaving the dressing room earlier? He seemed ecstatic when he'd found out it was me, but then all of a sudden his mood changed completely. I'd reached out to hug him, but he'd pushed me away and left without taking another look at me. I hoped I hadn't said or done anything to upset him, because I didn't want to. I didn't want to go back home and forget all about him like before, I wanted to keep in touch with him.
I raised my hands up in the air in time with the music and I noticed something glittering on my finger. I sighed heavily as I studied the gold band that seemed to be locked around my finger for eternity. Suddenly all thoughts and feelings for Gee were lost, my mind was now filled with images of Jason's lustful eyes bearing into me. Flashbacks flooded my memory of when he hit me and used me. I certainly didn't want to go back to that life. I couldn't and I wouldn't. I refused to go and live in the hell that was supposed to be my home, because if I spent any longer living there... I would definitely give up on living.
When Gerard announced that unfortunately the next song was going to be their last of the night, I felt a huge wave of sadness rush over me. My heart dropped as I realised I’d have to go home soon, away from Emily, away from Gerard... And back to Jason. As the riff of the guitars started up, fresh tears sprung to my eyes. I couldn't help but let them escape. The song was called 'Demolition Lovers'.
Gerard's eyes searched the crowd until they found mine. He looked straight at me, and when he began to sing the stare didn't break. It was as if he was singing this song to me, like he was referring each word to me. As the song went one he never once looked away, the only time the connection was broken was when he blinked. I felt the cold tears trailing down my cheeks, staining them. Emily must have noticed, she turned to face me questioningly; but I didn't take my eyes from Gerard's.
When the song ended the last notes echoed through each wall. The lights flickered on and people started to move out of the venue, but I stood staring at the empty stage with teary eyes.
"Hey, earth to Charlotte?" Emily said waving her hand in front of my eyes. I blinked a few times and smiled as my thoughts disappeared. "You ready to go?" She asked linking her arm with mine. I hesitated but nodded anyway and we walked out of the hall together.
"So... What happened to you in there?" Emily asked when we'd got outside of the venue. I shivered slightly, the gentle night breeze made Goosebumps on my arms.
"What?" I said pretending to not know what she meant. She rolled her eyes at me, "At the end, you were crying."
I didn't really know what to say, because I wasn't exactly sure why I was crying. I think it was just the realisation of the fact that the night was over, and I’d have to face reality again. Plus... It was a pretty emotional song. I just shrugged at her.
“Well, is there something wrong Char?” I could hear the concern in her voice. I glanced up at her and smiled to assure her I was fine.
“I’m just having strange mood swings Emz. Anyway, you wanna go wait for the guys to come out? After all, you never did get an autograph.” I suggested. An excited smiled spread on her lips and she nodded quickly.
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We waited for three freakin’ hours ‘til they eventually headed out to their bus. The fans swarmed in on them and the guys immediately started signing autographs. There were only about twenty fans there, so we didn’t have to wait too long for our turn. As Gerard was getting a photo taken with a girl, he noticed Emily and me standing waiting. I smiled warmly at him, but in return I only received a nod from him. What the fuck was his problem? Seriously it whatever it was, it was starting to piss me off. I crossed my arms over my chest to refrain from shoving through the fans and demanding hi to give me an explanation.
Finally the last fan got their photo and autograph, and it was our turn. I watched as Emily flirted insanely with Frank, and luckily for her he seemed interested. I also seen Bob holding a girl in a tight embrace. When they pulled apart he gazed into her brown eyes lovingly and planted a gentle kiss on her lips. I couldn’t help but feel envious of that little gesture; Jason had never done anything like that with me.
Since Gerard was obviously avoiding me, I decided to go and talk to Mikey.
“Hey lil Mikey.” I said ruffling his hair. He smirked and flattened his hair back to it’s original state, “Don’t call me lil… I aint that younger than you.” He said trying to keep a serious expression, but failing miserably.
“I know, but I still can’t believe I ran into you guys like this.” I said honestly, I still wasn’t quite over the shock.
“Yeah, Gee and I were shocked too. But I did have a slight feeling we’d meet you here.” He grinned.
“You did?” I asked raising my eyebrows. He nodded and pursed his lips, “And Gerard was secretly praying you’d show up.” He winked at me and I blushed.
“Oh really? That’s kind of hard to believe since he’s completely avoiding me.” I stated. Mikey looked confused, “Avoiding you?”
“Yeah… In the dressing room he-” I was about to explain to him when the man himself cut me off.
“Mikey we gotta get going now.” Gerard said, still refusing to look at me.
“Aw shit, really?” Mikey groaned. Gerard nodded in reply and stood facing me as Mikey left for the bus.
He glanced at me for a second then turned to leave when I quickly took his hand. He turned back to face me again with a confused expression.
“Why are you being an asshole?” I blurted out when he finally looked at me.
“What?”
“Gerard, ever since you left for the show you’ve just been acting… weird.” I said, hoping those were the right words to have said. He tugged his hand out of mine and looked down at the ground.
“I’m not being weird. I just didn’t expect you’d be married.” He said before walking away to the bus, again leaving me with a confused expression.
Okay kinda short again, sorry. But i promise promise promise the next chapter will be up tomorrow :) R&R? x
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