Step 42: Mother
Step 42: Mother
My life had certainly taken a surprising turn; Vincent let me to a cave where my mother, Lucrecia, is encased in a crystal, apparently alive.
Vincent's next revelation put some of the pieces together. "Tseng investigated my past and thought I might have information about Lucrecia. He followed me, I know he did, but he didn't come in here, although he kept finding me and trying to talk me into giving him more information. I think, he must have known what was here, yes, I'm certain he did. Perhaps he wished for me to tell you, maybe in hopes that I would feel better if I could do at least this much, if I could take part in helping ease her torment." He's not angry at Tseng, he's grateful.
"Torment?" I reach out for the crystal encasing mother and her voice flows into me.
"Sephiroth, my son... Sephiroth... I'm so sorry; I can never be forgiven for such a terrible thing... Sephiroth..."
I want to comfort her, "mother, it's alright, I'm here. Don't be sad, I'm not angry at you."
"My guilt is her and her guilt is you," I don't understand what Vincent means.
"Mother... please wake up." The crystal growls brightly and breaks, she falls out and I catch her.
"Lucrecia!" Vincent rushes to her side.
Her eyes are open, she's looking right at me, almost as if she's afraid I'll fade away any second, "Sephiroth?"
"Yes, I'm here, you're safe now, don't worry," I can't believe this, she's alive, she's really alive!
Mother smiles, "I'm sorry, for not protecting you," it seems being unable to protect is the source of guilt of many. "I'm sorry I let you be used, I'm sorry..."
She sounds so weak it worries me, "it's okay, just rest, you're alright now, I don't hold anything against you. I'll take you to a doctor, you'll get better, then you can live with me, we'll be happy."
"Thank you for coming to see me..." It sounds like she's saying goodbye and I don't like it.
She glances at Vincent who looks sad, "I'm sorry for what I told you before, and for not being able to-"
"Thank you Vincent," she cuts him off, letting him know that there's no need to apologize. "Sephiroth..." She lifts her hand weakly and I take it. "I love you, my son, even if I didn't show it like I should have."
I can feel her growing weaker, fading, "hold on, stay strong; don't give up now!"
"My time should have ended long ago," she smiles, as if seeing me is enough, but I don't want her to go. "You are hope..."
Those were her last words to me before her life faded away. "Mother? Mother!" She didn't answer, she didn't move, she disappeared...
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I exit the cave just in time to catch Reno's comment of, "it's so gloomy now."
Vincent had given me some time alone to compose myself; he's standing near the cliffs, looking at the horizon.
"Vincent," he turns to look at me but I say no more.
"Let's go," Vincent finally speaks and joins us to fly back to Edge.
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Vincent goes off on his own when we land on Edge. I'm still curious about what he may know, but I realized he really cared about mother, so her passing must be difficult. It's hard for me as well, even if I didn't know her for long, but she sounded so tormented calling out to me from the crystal as if she was morning my death. At least she's not suffering anymore and faded away with a smile on her face.
I hand Blaze back to Reno, I held him on the way back, finding comfort in the little chicobo. "What are you going to do now? Take a break?" Reno inquires.
I shake my head, "I would rather stay busy," besides, I'm calmer than I thought, it seems that even if troubled pasts are not so rare, it's how you deal with them that makes the difference.
"You could take your driving test now, it's been put off for a while, but I think there's time," Reno suggests.
"I think I will," I might as well, who knows when I'll have time again, plus it will give me something to focus on.
"Do you need a quick reminder lesson?" I do as much as I need a bullet through my head.
"No thanks, I think I can pass."
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Yesterday I did pass my driver's test, just barely but that's not the point. It wasn't out of lack of control of the car, but rather because of the silly things that get points taken off such as altering the order of certain details or looking left and right instead of right and left. Either way, the point is that I passed.
For the sake of increased security and keeping up with the entire Seph identity, a false profile was created for me and my medical history was forged. My real profile is accessible only to Shinra, while the fake identifies me as a citizen of Edge. My old accounts were terminated and the data and balances were transferred to new ones. As the name on my driver's license and Shinra credit card says, I am now Seph Crescent.
I know I live in walking distance of Shinra HQ, but I just got my license so I want to use it, thus I decided to drive to work. I drove around Shinra's large parking lot until I found the Turk section and recognized the cars there. I found my parking number and left my car in the proper space, then walked towards the main building, just a few steps away.
A butterfly flew by and I couldn't help it but to look at it, flapping its orange and black wings slower until in landed on the pavement. I made sure not to step on it and continued on my way.
I turned and faced the being that was now standing behind me. The platinum hair, the pink skin, the glowing eyes, "Jenova!" Where did she come from? There was no one there before, unless... of course, the butterfly, I wish I had stepped on it. "You're not Jenova, you're that shape shifter!" I swung my sword at her.
"Have you forgotten me, my son?"
My head hurts all of a sudden and it feels like I'm losing control, but I manage to hold a firm grip on reality. "You were behind this; you were trying to take over my mind. It won't work now, I have no more doubts!"
The being attacks, but this time I'm ready and put up a fight, slashing her horizontally in the middle, but the two halves put themselves back together. "Lowly creatures, you'll never win, this planet is mine!"
Regardless of her words, she retreated, jumping behind the line of cars and disappearing. I searched for her all over the parking lot and killed all the suspicious bugs I found, but I'm sure none of them were the shape shifter. To be able to put herself together that way, was it a reunion? The way she could speak to me as if the Jenova cells left in me reacted to her, is this shape shifter a being of Jenova's kind, another calamity?
To be Continued
Disclaimer, I don't own Final Fantasy VII.