I guess these are my words and feelings on the loss of Lauren (unitedsuck007). We will remember you forever, honey...
I feel honored beyond belief that she mentioned me in her death note, talking about my haikus and how surprised she was that I'm only thirteen. I honestly cried, I was so touched. I thought of her as a friend, and she obviously thought of me as one as well. She was the light in our shadowland, shining so bright that the sun was ashamed to rise and be.
When I started writing this note, I was going to use a quote from Helena, The End., The Ghost Of You, or another inspiring song, but now that I really think about it, I have realized that I should just let her writing speak for itself. Whenever she posted something particularly sad or dark, she would always say how it was just her being depressed. She never really gave herself enough credit though. Everything she wrote was beautiful and honest. Real life isn't always rainbows and butterflies, why the hell should a story be? It was how much effort and how much truth she put in every single piece of her writing that really gave it character, that really seperated it from the other talented pieces of writing on Ficwad, that truly made it Lauren.
I think that I've said enough. If I say much more, I think I'll cry again. If you know my character on Full of Holes, MCR's tour manager, you'll know that I'm not prone to breaking down in tears. This is just one of those times where I feel that tears are necessary to express my sadness. I believe that Lauren wouldn't really want any of us crying over her death too much though. When someone passes, you must remember to focus on the good that they have done during their life and not to dwell on the fact that they will no longer be on this earth. Lauren, you will live through us for as long as my heart continues to beat in this cage of a chest.
"...even if you're dusted, you may be gone, but out here in the desert, your shadow lives on without you."
Rest In Peace