Pairings: Danteasers and Phan (amazingphil and danisnotonfire off youtube) Dan tries to seduce his malteasers but they reject him and he self-harms. Phil comes home and finds him messed up. Some u...
They were just lying on the breakfast bar. Dan walked into the room and just couldn't take his eyes off them.
he started to lick his lips, they looked so sexy just lying there on the table
He walked over to the table and tried to seduce the bright red object of his desire
but they werent impressed they want someone new and exciting.
Dan tried to touch them, he reached his hand out towards them
but they jump away, he doesnt know why they are acting so stranginly this isnt like them
"What's wrong darling? You usually love our little encounters." Dan says, a pout coming to his lips
"I'm not in the mood!" This is said with attitude.
Dan storms off into his room and slams the door. once he is in his room he searches in his draw and finds his familiar escape tool
Dan places the cold metal to his golden skin and drags it across. He hears the front door open and close and hurries himself to clean up. Phil can't see what he's done to himself. Dan clears up the blood while crying to himself.
Phil walks in, he's all cheery and Dan knows something good has happened but he's to upset to care. "HEY DAN!!!" Phil yells with excitment.
Phil is a bit concerned when Dan doesn't answer. He knows that Dan stays at home all day and would've let him know if he was going out. He walked into the kitchen; no Dan. He knocked on Dan's door; no answer. He opens the door and walks in to find Dan.
Dan is trying to clean up the blood and hide the razors but he hasn't had enough time. Phil stands there in shock. "Whats, Whats wrong" he stutters. Dan can hear the concern in his voice.
"I can't tell you. I'm such an idiot." Dan says as he sobs even harder. Dan knows deep inside him that he is sick of the rejection. From everyone. He just couldn't stand the pain anymore.
Phil sits beside him and starts to hug him. "You know I love you" he whispers so sweetly, but Dan doesn't believe it. He thinks he's lying to him.
"You're just trying to make me feel better. Just dont even bother. I'm not worth it." Dan leans into Phil's chest and soaks his t-shirt.
Phil's arms are completely around Dan. "You are worth it. You mean everything to me. If I ever lost you I wouldn't know what to do with myself, I would be completely lost and hopeless. You're amazing and I love you." Dan starts to smile but only a little bit.
Dan snuggles into Phil's chest and wraps his arms around Phil.
They fall asleep like this for a while. So peaceful and comforting.
Dan stirs a little and looks at Phil. He watches Phil sleep until the older boy wakes up.
They stare into each others eyes for a while. "Would you like something to eat?" Phil asks.
"Malteasers? or will they reject you too?" Dan says. They disentangle and Dan goes and sits himself on their couch.
Phil sits with Dan "What happened?" he's really concerned.
"I'm just sick of all the rejection" Dan finally admits. "Thats why you found me like you did." Dan curls up into himself again. Not wanting to talk to anyone.
"I would never reject you, baby. I love you" Phil's confusion is obvious now.
"If you loved me you wouldn't bring girls home every night. I can hear you through the wall you know." Dan keeps his head buried into his legs. His eyes mist up thinking of the past. Phil's eyes water over as he looks over at the poor broken boy.
Phil doesn't know what to do, He's so ashamed about what he's done he runs out of the room crying just after whispering the words "I'm sorry"
Dan feels Phil leap up and runs after him. "PHIL!!! Phil! please come back and talk to me." Dan runs out of the apartment to find Phil in the fetal position in the hallway and picks him up. He takes Phil inside and lays him on his bed.
They lay there in silence for a while. Neither of them know how to break the silence.
Dan wraps his arms around Phil. "Whats wrong Phil?" Dan cared about Phil more than anything else in the world.
"I'm a horrible person, Dan. I don't know what to do"
"Why are you a horrible person Phil? Is it because of me? Don't worry about me, I'm just a selfish monster." Dan looks deep into Phil's eyes, he meant every single word he had just said.
"You're not a selfish monster! You're the most caring person I know." Phil and Dan are both really upset.
"All I wanted was for someone to care about me, someone to know that I existed, to be in love with somebody and have those feelings returned. But since that won't happen I'll just have to end all of my suffering." Dan finally admits to Phil what he has wanted to say for the three years they had known each other. He gets up and leaves Phil's rooms. He walks into his own room and shuts the door, sliding down against the back of it and cries.
Phil runs after him and starts knocking on the door. "Go away I don't want to talk" Dan sobs. "Please Dan! We need to talk."
"No, just leave me alone." Dan shouts then followed by a whisper "I need to think for a couple of minutes." "Please promise me you won't hurt yourself." Phil pleads. "I promise I won't hurt myself while I'm thinking. Dan has a million things running through his head.
He's just told Phil how he feels and doesn't how how he's going to react when they come face to face again, which will be soon. "I'll be in my room when you want to talk, Dan." he then whispers "I love you" but Dan doesn't hear it.
Dan just shuts his eyes and goes through the scenarios that could come out of this... Either Dan or Phil will move out and Dan couldn't imagine living without Phil. He opens his door and sneaks into Phil's room. Phil is on his computer, back to the door with his headphones in. Dan lays on Phils bed and cuddles himself, tears in his eyes.
Phil turns to go to the kitchen and notices Dan on his bed. He walks over and lays with him. "I love you, too" he says. "No, you don't understand, Phil" Dan says.
"I love you more than anything in the world Dan." He kisses Dan's forehead and just cuddles him. Dan's sobs rack his body and the two boys are shaking.
They lay there for a few minutes before Phil puts the blanket over both of them.
Dan falls asleep exhausted from all of his crying. Phil strokes his hair and breathes in his scent.
Dan awakes after an hour of sleeping, and notices Phil was watching him while he was sleeping. "You creeper" he giggles.
"Do I look green to you? and I'm not hissing."(random minecraft reference :D)Phil gets up out of the bed "Would you like some tea Dan?" Phil makes his way towards the kitchen and makes Dan some tea. He walks back to his room with the two cups of tea and Dan's maltesers.
"I hate those malteasers" Dan mutters but Phil doesn't quiet hear. "What was that?" he asked. "Oh, nothing" Dan doesn't want Phil to know.
Phil hands Dan the tea and the bag of malteasers. Dan drinks the tea but doesnt touch the malteasers. Phil notices. "Whats wrong Dan? I know malteasers are your favourite and you haven't even touched them."
"I just don't want them right now!" Dan snaps. Phil knows there is something wrong but thinks it may be the wrong time to talk about it.
The two boys drink their tea in silence. Phil really needs to know what's wrong with Dan. In order to get Dan to understand his pain he tells Dan a story of his own. "How about I tell you a story Dan?" A nod comes from Dan. Phil continues "I shall tell you one of the stories that causes me the most pain, it is the story of a young chap who hid his affections for his very attractive best friends. Night after night he brought girls home in order to fool himself and everyone else that he was into girls. He managed to fool everyone else, just not himself. He comes home one day to find his best friends all cut up and his heart breaks. He knows he can't hide his feelings anymore and puts them out into the open. But his friend thinks that these feelings are lies. The young chap's heart shatters. He runs away but his friend finds him and brings him back home. They are still unsure of where they stand but the young chap left it and decided to think over a cup of tea. Thats the story so far."
"What happens next?" Dan knows exactly what Phils trying to say. "Well, I guess that parts up to you..." He says.
"Phil, you know, I love you. Always have, Always will. I just can't believe that someone as perfect as you would love someone as horrid as me."
"You're not horrid at all Dan! You're amazing, You're the one I want to be with, forever."
Dan holds Phil's hand. "Can I ask you a serious question?"
"Of course you can" He's starting to get worried but he knows he's probably over reacting again.
"What are you so worried for?" Phil looks at Dan and says "Its nothing, whats your question?" "Would you be mine?" There was still something off about Phil.
"I've been waiting for this forever, Of course I'll be yours, I have always been yours, but.. what will our friends and family think?" Phils concerned that everyone will reject him.
"I'm not sure. how about we get used to it first? then worry about that."
"Well all of our fans will be happy" He smiles and starts to realise what just happened.
"Well they certainly write enough fanfiction about us." Dan says. He kisses Phil innocently on the lips.
Phil giggles a little and starts to kiss Dan back.
Phil straddles Dan and deepens their kiss. Dan seems a little uncomfortable so Phil stops.
"Maybe we should just get used to this first.." Dan suggests. "Sure" Phil replies with a smile.
All the while Phil is still sitting on top of Dan and doesn't make any move to get off. Instead he just kisses Dan again and thats as far as he is willing to go. Unless Dan moves first that is. "It's up to you what we do you know..." Phil says.
Dan kisses Phil back deeply, he pushes Phil down so now he is hovering over him.
Phil places his hands on Dan's chest and Dan breaks the kiss. "It's ok you know." and takes Phil's shirt off.
Hello long time no story. I'm sorry. Uni is hectic, starting a new semester and all. anyways, hope you enjoyed the story.