“I can’t, I just can’t do this”
“I can’t, I just can’t do this” she sniffed and pulled away “It’s like; it’s like you’ve just stopped caring”
“No, Perla it’s not like that, I love you and the boys you know that, I’m just… I just feel confused, with all this stuff about Axl and…”
“What stuff about Axl? You haven’t had anything to do with Axl for years. Or is this your way of saying you two have slept together recently?” Perla interrupted tearfully, hiccupping slightly as she tried to calm herself, Slash looked at her, a frown twisting his lips, sadness and guilt were written all over his features
“No, no I haven’t even spoken to Axl since ’96, you know that”
“Stop telling me what I know, or what I should know! What stuff about Axl?” She asked, wiping her cheeks.
“All this stuff about him and that DJ kid, it dragged up memories. I’m just sorting my head back out that’s all, that’s doesn’t mean I don’t care about you, I chose you didn’t I?”
“And do you regret it?” the question hung in the air, Slash adverted his eyes from her now, dry ones, a squeak left her and her eyes refilled rapidly and over spilled as Slash looked back at her
“No, I don’t regret it Pearl, I wouldn’t have the boys, and I wouldn’t have you if I’d chose Axl but I can’t help missing him. I loved him so much, he was such… he was a big part of my life and I do love him still” A sob left his wife then prompting him to pull her back into his arms “But not as much as I love you, and London and Cash. I just got caught up in thoughts of what could’ve been if I’d stayed, I feel conflicted. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t love you, I do; I love you so very, very much”
“Well maybe you need to talk to him then”
“Yeh, maybe I do” he agreed, stroking her hair again, tightening his grip when she shifted around like she was going to pull away.
“Until you’ve talked to him and sorted yourself out, me and the boys are staying at Sue’s. Duff’ll stay here with you” She told him, steeling herself as she loosened his grip and walked towards their bedroom
“Perla you don’t have to do that” Slash said, hurt in his voice as he followed her
“Yes, yes I do, that way you can forget about me and the kids for the time being and weigh up the pros and cons of being with Axl” She said, avoiding his gaze as she pulled an already packed suitcase out of the wardrobe
“Were you planning this?”
“No, not today anyway, but Sue offered me a place to stay two months ago when I first told her about this, I believed it would get better but it hasn’t, if anything, it’s got worse. So when you’ve decided come and tell me” She told him quietly, putting her suitcase by the door and going to Cash and London’s rooms to fetch ones for them.
“Perla please” she glanced back at him sadly and shook her head.
“Sorry” she whispered as she shut the door after herself leaving Slash standing in an empty house.