"...I wasn't just about to allow that, I was waiting here, for him..."
I fucked up this time didn't I? it’s not even a question it was a statement, no, I had brought on a deathwish on me, i had hurt my best friend more than ever, and if I didn't fix it I would lose him and me without him would cause me to go nuts, he kept me sane, even though he can seem like the craziest person, he can also be the sweetest not even Lyn-Z could do that, truly she could never take that place though it seemed she was, given I was spending too much time with her according to everyone, but she was my girlfriend, what did they expect? but then again now that I think about it maybe I was I can’t remember the last time I had a night at home watching horror movies with Frank, and the guys, to be honest I can’t even remember watching a horror movie in a while, Lyn-Z never wants to.
Why was I here sitting on Frank’s couch, comparing my best friend to my girlfriend I should’ve gone with Mikey, he left a bit ago to look for Frank, Mrs.and Mr. Iero left as well but told me I was free to stay, well Mr. Iero didn't really say anything but didn't say anything against me staying either. I have no idea what to do or what to say if I see Frank later, I've messed up before but not like this, why had I blurted those words, I wasn't thinking, well I was but only of telling Frank to stop hanging with that loser, who did he think he was? Frank was MY best friend not his, but that again brought me to the fact that I hadn't been acting like it. I was pushing him away, and i finally did it now , today I have just pushed him all the way to Pluto. I couldn't help but think it wasn't just to Pluto it was closer and closer to Ashley.
With that thought in mind I wasn't just about to allow that, I was waiting here, for him, he had to come home at some point, and I couldn't talk to him at school, too many people and places for him to hide.
I was sitting crossed legged across from Ashley, blurting everything out, from Gerard’s shall we say jealousy? No, he wasn't jealous he was simply um well I don’t know how to put it, but from that to his words this morning, and that’’s when I lost it i felt the tears begin to trickle down my cheeks. But as they did I felt, Ash put his arm around me and somehow that helped, it gave me comfort, you know I had thought Gerard was the only one who could do that, every time something was up, when something got me upset he’d hug me and say “It’ll be alright,” and every time I believed him, though this time he was the one who caused the pain, and I had no idea if we’d be “alright” ever again.
You, know this school has really bad security, just saying, we’ve been out here for at least two hours now it was probably the end 2nd period by now, and as if on queue the bell rang and the school was flooded by kids, signalling nutrition.
“Um, you want to get out of here?” asked Ash.
“Yeah i think that be for the best,” I said.
“Kay, lets go,” he said pushing himself up from the floor, dusting himself off and offering me his hand.
I took it, though he didn’t let go,and it felt right, he turned to look at me, looking down just slightly, god why was i this short, and gave me a small smile, i tried to smile back, yet it wasn’t a full one given i was still hurt and thinking of this morning.
We walked towards the building, which had a back door leading out, We were still holding hands but he slowly began to shift his hand and interlace his fingers in between mine, and whispered in my ear, “I know you’ve had a terrible morning, but i’m glad you’re here now,”
I smiled up at him. “Yeah, me too,” I said.
He was still close to me, i could feel his warm breath tickle my ear and cheek , he let out a sigh and pulled back, and as he did I began to miss his breath prickling my neck slightly. “Any idea on where to go?” he asked,
I mulled over the thought, just for a bit, “My place, I guess, well if you want?” I said, starting to feel a bit shy, and expecting him to reject my offer.
“Um, yeah, sound cool, but uh, what about your parents?” he asked, was he agreeing to come over, wow, I couldn't help but feel slightly relieved.
“Work.” I said simply. and with that I led the way, to my house.
A/N: I apologize for the shortness and long wait, and for probably making you wait again for the next chapter, mostly because midterms are coming in about two weeks for me, and i actually plan on doing good, well i can only hope i do. But ANYWHO, tell me what you think, i feel like no one likes this and i should just stop, sorry, i’m really REALLY self conscious about everything even my writing. but oh well. hope you enjoyed this.