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I woke up with a start; my body was trembling. I felt clammy. My eyes struggled to focus in the semi-dark room – the sun was rising. Breathing staggered and a horrible churning feeling rising up in the pit of my stomach I let out a groan and freed myself from Mikey's grip. I sat up and pushed myself off the sofa quickly. Fuck – head rush. My ears started to ring, and I staggered about as quickly as I could to reach the stairs. My hands were shaky as I climbed up the stairs grabbing hold of the banister for support. My vision felt a little fuzzy and my head began to spin. Fuck. I hated this so fucking much. I could feel myself panicking. I stumbled towards the bathroom, desperate not to wake anyone up but knew it would be useless when I do reach the bathroom. I held back my gagging reflex and panicked more. Hot salty tears began to slide down my cheeks. I crashed into the bathroom only for my stomach lurch. I gasped for breath and steadied myself a little. I could feel myself swaying. I fought hard to stay upright as another wave took over my body, stomach clenching as my stomach contents emptied into the toilet. I felt weak and was sobbing quietly. The vile smell lingered in my nose and my stomach clenched again; but I could feel myself fading a little, the ringing getting louder in my ears and stars started to form in front of my eyes. I could feel myself falling back a little, but only to be stopped by someone's arms wrapping themselves around me and holding me upright as I retched again. Mikey's gentle words and shushing sound calming me a little. I gasped for air as I waited, to see if another wave of sickness hit me. I trembled in Mikey's arms before he reached over and flushed the contents away
"Better?" his tone was soft, gentle and caring
"I feel a little dizzy." The ringing remained in my ears; like a fire alarm that wouldn't cease. My vision was still hazy and hard to focus. I let my eyes slip shut only for them to open again as I was moved. Mikey pulled me up, holding me bride-style and carried me out of the bathroom. My mind fell blank and everything seemed dark, but I could hear sounds; sounds that I knew well. A gentle humming noise and bare feet walking across the ground. My eyes flickered open. I peered around a little, not moving. I was back on the sofa and Mikey was walking away. I glanced quickly to see Ray and Bob still fast asleep. I smiled a little as my vision became clearer. I swear if those two weren't straight, they'd make an adorable couple. Bob was cuddled up into Ray's side and Ray had his arms wrapped around him loosely as they slept. The ringing in my ears started to sub-side, I felt a little cold and my breathing relaxed, but a horrible taste coated the inside of my mouth. I became aware of Mikey walking back, carrying a glass of water. I pushed myself up a little so I could take sips of water. I envy men most times. They don't have to carry a child around for nine months. They don't have to endure the almighty mood swings mixed with hormones. And they don't have to bleed once a month. They get off so lightly. But I look at Mikey and smile slightly. I could envy all men as much as I want, but they do a good job of picking up the pieces when you're broken and hurt. Caring when you need it the most. He smiled back and took the glass and placed it on the table. I sat up so he could sit down. Wrapping his arms around me, he pulled me into his lap and cuddled me. I loved cuddling him like this. I felt safe and secure the whole time. I sighed happily and let my eyes slip closed again. I listened to Mikey's breathing and his gentle humming; a familiar tune that I couldn't quite put my finger on, but all the same, I felt myself drift back off to sleep once more.
I was warm, comfy and happy. But something kept tickling my face. I brushed my hand across my face and opened my eyes sleepily. I smiled and realised it was Gee's hair that had been tickling my nose. I smoothed his hair back out of his face. His facial features were calm and content as he slept, his mouth open a little as he slept. He'd obviously moved a little during the night but still remained on top of me, keeping me warm. Our legs were entwined, likes vines. I couldn't help but notice something poking into the top of my thigh and smirked a little. I smoothed his hair a little more and watched him sleep. He looked so beautiful when he slept. Peaceful and calm. I smiled even more as he began to stir a little in his sleep. He shifted and my eyes widened a little and bit my lip to stop myself from making any noise. His eyes fluttered open and I was greeted by his hazel eyes, slightly glazed with sleep. He smiled a little as he blinked a few times
"Morning," he mumbled
"I didn't wake you did I?"
"Of course not," he smiled sleepily. I smiled back. Gee shuffled a little to meet my face and capture my lips with his. He pulled back a smirk playing on his face
"I trust someone had a good dream." He continued smirking as I felt a blush creep up onto my cheeks. He giggled more
"I'm not the only one," and poked my tongue out childishly only to have Gee chuckle more
"You're so childish at times Frankie!" I giggled but was cut off by my own moan as Gee grinded his hips into mine. I blushed more as Gee moved around, putting his weight into his arms and hands as he held himself up and gazed down at me, a mischievous smile appearing
"Tease," I mumbled before pouting a little trying to keep a straight face. Gee held back a giggle, before leaning down, his warm breath brushing up against my ear. My fingers found their way up to his hair as he began to suck and kiss a spot just under my ear. I groaned as Gee hummed, while he began to rock his hips back and forth, creating friction. I felt more blood rush south and gasped. I wriggled a little and traced my fingertips across his skin. I paused just above his member and smirked. I ghosted my fingers over the tip, before smoothing it a little. Gee gasped and bucked forwards causing me to giggle. Gee pulled back and looked me in the eyes. He was up to something. He pulled back further, pulling the cover back, letting the cool air rush in
"What are you doing?" I squeak as he ducked down and threw the covers back over. I chuckled and felt his hands ghost over my thighs. I lifted up the covers to peer at Gerard who poked his tongue out and crawled up
"No peeking," he said in a childish tone
"But what are you doing?" I chuckled – he sounded funny when he put on a childish voice
"Well, it ain't gonna suck itself." He grinned, before pulling the covers down
"Also," he lifted up the cover for a second to look at me, "Pull up the covers and I stop." He smiled and pulled them back down again. I laughed as he moved about under the cover
My laughter ceased. I felt circles being traced up my thighs, leaving a tingling sensation upon the skin that made me shudder a little. Soft warm lips pressed gentle kisses up my thighs. I remembered what I had done to him the previous day when I attempted to get him out of bed and chuckled to myself, but again stopped and let out a low moan. I felt his tongue run slowly from base to tip. I gripped the bed sheets and shut my eyes, imagining what it would look like; Gee running his tongue slowly up my length, teasing me, trying to make me beg. The smirk and the glint of mischief would be in his eyes, as well as love and care. I bite my lip as he swirled his tongue around at the tip. Fuck – I bit my lip hard. His soft lips gently brushed over the tip. My hand itched to lift the covers but I didn't. I released the breath I was holding, closely followed by a low moan as a warm, moist environment wrapped its way around my head. I sighed in content as Gee worked his tongue around
"Fuck . . . . Gee." I heard a muffled giggle that made me groan as the vibrations of his giggles flared my senses. He took me in further. My back arched as I bucked up a little, only to have my hips pushed firmly down into the bed. Gee spoke but I didn't understand what he said. I moaned as he began to suck. I couldn't help but let a hand slip down and strokes Gee's hair as he began to hollow his cheeks and hum around my length. I could feel the build-up start in my stomach. I gasped and moaned more, trying not to be too loud. So close I could feel it
I smiled as I heard him groan. I could feel my own stomach start to clench and tighten. I ran a hand down to my own length and gasped feeling my own hard length. I heard Frankie moan again. He must be close. I imagined what his face would look like and moaned around his length. His eyes half lidded, mouth open slightly, his heavenly moans escaping – SHIT! I yelped as a jabbing pain spread across my stomach. Frankie's hands appeared and pulled me up and guessing he had kneed me by accident
"Frankie what are you-" but was cut off by the loud knocking at the door. Frankie had flushed bright red
"Uh, come in." I gathered the covers and made sure me and Frankie were both covered up. I felt myself blush as Holly's face poked around the door. She smirked and Frankie let out a low groan and buried his face in his hands
"Uh, we have to clean up the lounge after we've had breakfast. And your mum says breakfast will be ready in about five minutes."
"Ok, uh thanks Holly," I half smiled as she giggled a little
"I'll leave you two to it." She closed the door again and I breathed a sigh of relief
"Fuck," Frankie groaned. I giggled
"Come off it Frankie, not like it hasn't happened before." Frank pulled his hands away from his face and I smiled warmly at him
"Just as I was getting close too," he pouted
"You're too cute Frankie sometimes," I chuckled and pecked his lips. I slid out from under the covers and walked over to my wardrobe and pulled out a clean pair of boxers and pulled them on
"N'aww I was enjoying that view!" I turned around to see Frankie had propped himself up on an elbow, with a cheeky grin on his face
"Sorry, shows over," I teased. I chuckled and turned back to face my wardrobe to try and fine a pair of pyjama bottoms to wear upstairs. I heard shuffling behind and guessed that Frankie was now in search of clothes. I pulled more clothes out of my wardrobe, until I found a pair of baggy black pyjama bottoms and smiled to myself before putting them on. I pulled out a random grey t-shirt and pulled it over my head
"Race you upstairs!" I nearly fell over as Frankie jumped on my back. I giggled as he clambered to his feet and ran over to the bedroom door
"You're on!" I chased Frankie up the stairs and made a grab for his ankle, but only ended up with us both toppling over at the top of the stairs. I chuckled as Frankie tried to pull away. I pulled Frankie up to his feet, realising he had pulled on only his boxers and a hoody. He pulled away and made for the kitchen, me following closely behind
"Ha I still beat you," Frankie giggled. I stuck my tongue out and wrapped my arms around his waist. Holly smirked a little as she sat down at the table
"What's up with Bob and Ray?" Frankie asked. Bob and Ray were quiet. Mikey and Holly both chuckled. I bit my lip and watched as Bob went a little red and dipped his head down and sulked over to the table and sat down. Ray kept his gaze averted and sat away from Bob
"I'll tell you later," Mikey mumbled before chuckling to himself. Frankie looked around at me, confused. I shrugged and sat down as mum came through with breakfast – waffles
"When you've finished you can clean up the lounge and then you can set yourself up in the garage if that is what you wish to do."
"Me and your mum are going to go out and see your grandfather for the day," dad said
"But you saw him yesterday," Mikey questioned
"We promised we'd help him out with a few things. When you do set up in the garage, try not to annoy the neighbourhood too much."
"Be a bit hard considering you'll be playing music through amps and speakers," Holly mumbled as my parents left the room. I turned my attention to Ray and Bob; they both were still quiet. We had breakfast quickly and dumped out plates in the sink and walked into the lounge. It was a mess alright
"I'll go get the bin bags," Mikey muttered walking back out again as Frankie dived over the sofa and began to pick up the rubbish. I chuckled and began to help tidy up the living room. It didn't take long for all of us to pick up the rubbish and move things back around again
"I call the shower!" Holly shouted. She giggled and ran out of the room
"I'll give you a hand with those Mikes," I said grabbing one of the bin bags
"Thanks." Frankie stood between Ray and Bob, who seemed to have brightened up a little bit but were still quiet. I followed Mikey out and dumped the bags into the trash can outside
"So?" Mikey stopped and turned around
"Ray and Bob?" I crossed my arms and leant against the door frame. Mikey giggled
"Well, they more or less fell asleep next to one another; you know how they managed to wake us before we went to the concert?"
"Yeah, they were cuddled up to one another or something and Bob flipped out." Mikes nodded his head smirking
"Go on," I pushed him wanting to know what happened
"Well it kinda happened again, only . . . . . ." Mikey trailed off and began to laugh more
"Mikey!" I pleaded
"Well, Holly kinda stirred again after waking up early to you know," Mikey looked at me and I nodded my head
"Yeah, go on, just tell me what happened!"
"Well I hadn't really fallen back to sleep, so she kind of stirred when I think it was Ray who stirred first and tried to pull away from Bob. But Bob was still asleep and only tightened his grip around Ray and shuffled closer."
Mikey was giggling constantly now and I have to admit I was too
"I don't think Ray or Bob realised both me and Holly were awake. I had to keep Holly quiet to stop giving us away. Ray managed to wake Bob up. I think Bob was a little startled. They just seem to look at one another for a moment. Me and Holly were both slightly shocked when they both seemed to chuckle light heartedly. They actually seemed to cuddle up to one another. Holly couldn't hold herself any longer and began to giggle. You know how she gets. Both jumped and pushed away from one another again, both blushing." Mikey was laughing even more. I laughed. Bob always seemed to be grumpy and scary at times, not the cuddly type. Ray was always the kind one I guess and the smartest of course. But for Bob to actually cuddle up to Ray and not freak out surprised me. I giggled more with Mikey, both of us leaning on one another for support. We calmed down before going back inside
"Get lost trying to find your own garbage can?" Frankie chuckled. I bit my lip and held back a giggle as Ray and Bob stood near one another but didn't make eye contact. Mikey nudged me
"SHOWER IS FREE FOR WHOEVER WANTS IT!" Frankie shot past us and I giggled
"I'll just go and get changed, I'll be back and then I'll start to help move things into the garage," I said smiling at Ray and Bob and walked past them, while Mikey talked to Ray and Bob.
I shut myself in my room and set about to find clothes to wear. I found a brush and ran it through my hair, cursing every time I caught a knot in my hair. I pulled out a pair of dark blue skinnies and found a band t-shirt. I changed and sat in front of the mirror. I smirked at the hickies – purpley yellow that I found in random places on my body as I changed. Only Frankie could mark me like that. I sat and tried to adjust my eye liner, clear it up a little so it looked a little tidier. I stood up and turned to leave my room when I could hear footsteps. I chuckled and hid behind the door as it opened, as Frankie walked in, towel around his waist. The door swung closed as made to pull the towel away
"FRANKIE!" he screamed and stumbled over one of the piles of rubbish in my room. I fell about laughing as he scowled and pulled himself back up
"Couldn't help it," I choked out between laughs. He flushed a red colour
"Wanna know why Bob and Ray are quiet," I said, my laughing fit calming down. His face changed and he smiled
"Hell yeah! What happened?"
"Well you know how they were cuddled up to one another and Bob woke up the whole place last time by screaming?" Frankie chuckled and nodded his head
"Well, apparently the same happened again. Holly and Mikey were awake so they saw it with their own eyes. Apparently Ray woke up and tried to move away from Bob to prevent what had happened last time, except Bob only cuddled up further. Think Mikey said Bob woke up, but he didn't freak, they only laughed or something and then cuddled back up to one another. Holly being Holly chuckled and they both sprang apart minus the screaming." Frankie chuckled
"Didn't think Bob was the cuddly type," he chuckled. I giggled more at his childish laugh
"What I thought." Frankie laughed more
"I better go and give the others a hand; I'll see you in a minute." I pecked him on the lips before leaving my room and heading back upstairs and out into the garage to give a hand setting things up. Holly glanced up from a book she was reading. I noted that Mikey was missing so I guessed that he was showering. I wondered over and began to help Ray and Bob set up. Mikey appeared with his bass and sat down and began to tune up. Ray and Bob had already changed into clean clothes. Bob sat at his drum kit and began to fiddle around. I watched as he glanced over at Ray a few times and smirked a little. Did make me wonder if those two were hiding something, but I know both would say that they had girlfriends, but it's a possibility, considering I hardly see them. I could ask but I just want a spend a day making music, rather than have a drummer have a hissy fit and a guitarist get highly embarrassed and end up being quiet for the whole day. Frankie appeared dressed in clean clothes and carrying Pansy. He bounced over and sat down setting himself up. I smiled at him and looked back over at Bob who had his head down playing with his drum sticks. I smiled to myself and knew that today was going to be a good day and knew that the two weeks away from school were going to be good fun
"Ready?" Ray asked standing up as Mikey nodded his head
"I'm ready," Bob said sitting up a little and Frank stood up happy that Pansy was in tune
"I guess so," I said picking up the sheets of paper with lyrics written on it, while Frankie, Ray, Mikey and Bob had sheets with chords and rifts on
I fell to the ground, my sides hurting from laughing and gasping for air. Holly's laughter filled the air as well as Mikey's and Ray's. Bob sat chuckling as Frankie laughed. We had been playing for a good few hours. I'm not sure of the reason as to why we had started laughing in the first place. Whether it was Frankie jumping around, Ray smiling every now and then and concentrating hard, Bob going all out on the drums, Mikey being his usual self, wondering around and chuckling every now and then or me just being myself, walking around each person while singing. Whatever it was, it had gotten the best of us and we had stopped playing
"Well," Holly gasped, being the first to speak, "I'd say you guys could cut it in a music carer if all else fails."
"Really?" Bob perked up looking at her. She nodded her head
"I think you could do it, you've got the talent for it." She smiled brightly. I glanced over at Frankie, whose guy linger had smudged from tears of laughter. I giggled a little and sat up
"You're not just saying that are you," Mikey said smiling
"Would I lie to you?" she teased
"Good point, so you really mean it." Holly nodded her head more
"Maybe you guys could make demos or something and then see what happens."
"Maybe, but we'd need to find somewhere to record better than a garage and somewhere that has like a recoding facility of some sort," Ray pointed out. Way to crush the dream
"That's not a problem, my dad has a recording facility we could use, he uses it to record me when I play the drums sometimes, it's worth a try." I nodded my head and smiled
"Well," I said standing back up, "I think I can safely say music is something we all love." Everyone nodded their head in agreement. I smiled even more
"Come on, maybe we should have a break for a while," Mikey said placing his beloved bass down and walking over to Holly. Holly smiled and jumped up and walked out of the garage
"Come on, I want to know how you can play and be that energetic at the same time," I said grabbing Frankie's hand as he giggled. I turned my head a little and watched as Ray and Bob patted one another of the back and smiled at each other and followed us back through from the garage. Whatever it is that Ray and Bob are hiding, they can tell us in their own time. I smiled and pulled Frankie closer to me and kissed the top of his head, to have him stretch up and kiss me on the cheek. I smiled even more. I had my good friends. I had my supportive family, Mikey being the most supportive. I had Frankie, the love of my life. I had my art and I had my music, both of which I enjoyed and made me feel happy and crushed down the depression into nothing. I smiled to myself more as I sat with Frankie on my lap and cuddled him close to me, never letting go.
Spring break was filled with warm weather, sunshine and showers. Flowers were in full bloom with bumble bees and honey bees making their appearance to collect the sweet nectar from flowers. The six over the two week period meet up many times, with their instruments and played together, laughing with one another, their skills put to the test, producing meaningful music that touched one another's souls and hearts. But with every break, comes the end. School started back. Everyone's happiness dropped. Everyone knows that after spring break, the exams start, heavy and hard. You have the jocks, who won't bother revising and the nerds who will revised of every minute of every day. Lessons were dropped and revision classes put into place. The school became more bleak, dull and lifeless with exams and revisions. The pink signs up and down the corridors, in their black writing, reading, "SILENCE – EXAMS IN PROGRESS" the gymnasium was transformed into an exam hall, old rickety desks, covered in graffiti and look as if they would collapses under the weight of the exam paper. The old, wooden chairs, uncomfortable to sit on and bound to make your backside go numb after sitting in it for a few minutes. Students would file in, one by one, Frank and Gerard always near to one another, never far apart. Take their seats. The eagle eyed teachers stare at the students as they work, unnerving to some, to others didn't bother them. They wonder up and down the rows of desks, examining each student. The room is filled with an uneasy atmosphere, as it is silent apart from the sound of pens scratching against papers, a student shifting to get comfy in their chair, a cough or a sneeze or the sound of a pen dropping to the floor. The minutes pass by painfully slow, the clock taunting each student. Many eyes focus on the clock, in hope that time will go by faster, but everyone knows time only goes slower when you watch it.
In the room you know the students who have revised and who haven't. You have those, heads down, focused on the paper, taking in each word of each question, letting it echo around your mind until the answer comes to you and writing it down. Then you have those, looking up, looking around, pretending to think of an answer, when really, their mind is blank, as if someone had wiped the hard drive on a computer clean of all data. Panic fills them a little as they stretch and hope to catch a glimpse of what the person behind them has written, only to be shot down to find they're miles ahead of you, or they spot you and cover their paper protectively with their arms and scowl at you. You have the jocks and cheerleaders, some who will care and revise, and then those who don't care and will wing it, guess the answers, make it look like they know what they're talking about, then sit and doddle on the desks, stare up at the clock and glare at someone they hate. Gerard and Frank hadn't revised much over the spring break or in the revision classes they had, but both had their heads down, focusing on the paper, staring at the words in hope that the answer will jump out at them.
But with exams, they too come to an end, a relief for most, knowing they won't have to ever look at the subject of geography or science ever again, and being able to burn all books and not have the need for them ever again. Some come out feeling worried, the daunting thought of failing all exams and then not getting anywhere in life because you've labelled yourself as a failure. Frank and Gerard walk hand in hand down the corridor. Relief washed over them, knowing they could relax and spend more time with one another, knowing that they don't have to come back to the hell-hole known as school ever again. Frank worried himself a little, thinking he hadn't done good enough in his exams, the thought that he might let down his mum if he did fail at everything, but only had Gerard reassure him that everything would be fine and that he was talented and would get somewhere in life. Frank smiled brightly as they walked out into the dazzling summer sun, hand in hand, ready to enjoy their well-deserved summer break. It wasn't much longer before the rest of the school broke up for summer vacation, but Holly and Mikey knew full well that they weren't going to be going back to the school when September finally arrived. As they walked down the side walk, Mikey pulled Holly close to his side and snaked his arm around her waist where he rested his hand over her stomach, where the smallest of bumps was starting to form. Holly smiled up at him as she too wrapped an arm around him. They had a far more exciting adventure to look forward to, rather than having to endure school life, which would be full of misery. The thought of being a parent, scared Mikey a little from time to time, but he only had to look at Holly and then her family and his own, to know that they both were well cared and supported.
It is traditional of a school, with its students that have finished their exams, to attend a summer ball or prom. An evening where the girls could dress up in the most beautiful and colourful dress they could find, and the boys would dress smartly in suits and have a girl glued to their side. For a few hours the students would mingle with teachers, though half the teachers wish they weren't with the students they so longed to see the back of. But for Frank and Gerard, a summer ball was not their scene. Instead, a night of movies, popcorn, sweets, pizza and drinks suited them more and better enjoyed with one another's company, the exchange of affectionate kisses, long cuddles and the jokes between on another. They'd have the whole of summer vacation to do this, as they wouldn't be able to do it much, once September comes. Every day was spent with one another, the nights being long, and unforgettable, feeling one another's gentle touch; the feeling of skin against skin; the closeness and tingles, waves of pleasure and love; so full of care and protection for one another. Limbs entwined with one another, as beads of sweat sat on their skin, shining in the light there was, eyes big and bright, full of warmth and happiness. But with all good feelings, must come to an end also
September loomed closer and the feeling of sadness writhed up inside of Frank's chest as he cuddled into Gerard closer and closer. The other detecting the feeling would hold him in a tight embrace, kissing the top of his head, breathing in his scent as he would sit and watch Ray or Bob beat his brother at a game they would play, while Holly would sit and giggle away. Gerard knew he would miss the moment's like this, where he could just hold Frank and feel like he was the luckiest guy on earth to have such a loving person like Frank hold him and love him the way he did. And he wanted to show Frank how much he loved him and show that he would never ever let him go or let another into his life. Gerard's last night came before he would go for a while. And he wanted it to be a night for Frank to remember; a night that he didn't want to end or ever forget. The night soon faded and the light became visible as the two boys woke up in one another's tight embrace, skin against skin. The room, dimly lit, bags stood by the door, waiting to be picked up. Frank sighed with sadness and tightened his grip, not ever wanting to let go of Gerard, but knew he didn't have long as he would soon have to let Gerard go
Why do I always leave things to the last minute?? One day I'll actually listen to my mum and pack my bags a few days before I'm due to leave! I sighed to myself bundling the last of my clothes into my bag and zipped it up and dumped it by the door. I stood back and looked around my room. I had packed all the essentials, clothes, sketchpads, pencils, and pens. Just one thing I haven't packed but can't take with me. I sighed more as I looked around my room. It looked relatively tidy considering half of my stuff was packed into bags. I looked at the walls, a few gaps from where I had taken down pictures and posters and packed them neatly away into a separate bag. I could hear the sounds of sobbing. I turned and faced my bed. Frankie sat, crossed legged on my bed, his head hung down so his hair covered his face. His shoulders shook gently as he sobbed. He is the one thing I wish I could take me with, but can't. It broke my heart to see him crying, but I feel I have to do this; I feel I have to go to New York to the school of visual arts and try and do something with the talent I have. I walked over and sat next to him, taking hold one of his hands
"Frankie." I kept my tone low but soft and calm
"Please don't go," he choked out between sobs. I pulled him close into a tight embrace only for him to climb into my lap and cling onto me for dear life. I could feel the tears start to form in my eyes. I felt heartless and mean leaving Frankie. I felt horrible for leaving Mikey when I know he is panicking about fatherhood but I know he will do well
"I have to Frankie, I have to go, I can't turn back now." He sobbed more, his warm salty tears made my t-shirt damp and my neck moist. I held him tightly and rocked him a little to soothe and calm him
"I don't know what to do without you Gee." He lifted his face. His big bright eyes sparkled with tears, red and sore from crying, cheeks flushed too. I felt a single tear of my own roll down my cheek
"You will carry on, as normal, just for me." He gazed at me steady, tears slipping down his face
"You'll always be my one and only Frankie. I'll never ever forget you, I'll never let you go, I'll think of you every day. You just have to carry on with things."
"But I have nothing to do! No job, nothing!" His voice raised a pitch as fresh tears spilled down his face
"Yes you do, you have a talent; a musical one. I know you can do something like that. And heck I'm sure you'd make a great baby sitter or nanny when Holly's baby is born." I smiled at Frankie as he nodded his head
"Promise me, you won't stop loving me?" I asked
"I'll never stop loving you Gee, I think I'd stop living if I ever lost you," he whispered. I kissed the top of his head, wiping his tears away
"My heart will always belong to you Frankie, even when I'm in New York. I promise to text you every day, I promise to call you when I can. I'll come home as often as I can to see you and if anything happens, if you're sick or get hurt, I promise I'll do whatever I can to be by your side." He smiled at me through his blood shot eyes before capturing my lips softly in a kiss. I would miss his kisses, his cuddles, his laughter, his jokes; I'll miss everything about my Frankie. I lifted Frankie off my lap and got up and walked over to one of my bags and opened up the pocket and pulled out my keys. I unhooked the front door key and held it tightly before walking back to Frankie and sitting down next to him
"Your front door key?" Frankie questioned as I handed him the key
"For whenever you feel lonely at home, or at a loss, my mum and dad won't mind one bit, come round and come here, you can sleep in my room if you ever need to." He smiled brightly. I pulled his favourite hoody over his head and held it tightly before draping it around my shoulders. I smiled back at him
"I love you Gerard."
"I love you too Frankie." He climbed back into my lap, kissed me softly before cuddling into me. I'd cherish this moment, for the time for me to leave was getting closer and closer
I know Holly was watching me as I paced around the lounge, glancing up at the window and then to the clock. Both my parents were busy fussing around in the kitchen
"You know, you'll make a hole in the carpet if you keep pacing," Holly said quietly. I looked over at her. She smiled brightly, her eyes lighting up. She sat up a little, placing the book she was holding down, revealing the very small bump that was starting to form. I smiled at her, but soon felt my heart drop as realisation that my brother was in fact leaving home to go to New York. We had done everything together, sure we annoy one another at times and fight, but I can't stand the thought of him being so far away
"He's not going forever you know, he's only going to be at the other end of the phone." Holly was right about the phone. I sighed and went and stood at the window and looked out onto the street. I felt a pair of arms wrap around my middle
"I know you're going to miss him Mikey, he'll miss you too, and we're all going to miss him." Holly had a calm tone to her voice
"I know, it's just, we've done so much together."
"Just because he's going away doesn't mean that everything you do together stops. Just think, Frank will be in tears and will be just as hurt. You two will need to support one another and I'll be here too." I nodded my head before turning around and cuddling Holly
"GERARD! IT'S TIME!" my mum's voice echoed through the house and I felt my heart drop even more
"Come on." I followed Holly to the front door, where my dad now stood waiting by the car for Gerard. It wasn't long before Gerard appeared, carrying his bags, closely followed by Frank and mum. He placed his bags down by the car and hugged Frank tightly to him, while dad piled his bags into the car. Frank sobbed against Gerard's chest. I bit my lip and tried to hold back my own tears
"Goodbye Gerard, good luck," Holly said calmly and with a smile
"Look after him," Gerard said, indicating Frank, who now had my mum's arm wrapped around his shoulders
"I will," Holly chuckled hugging Gerard
"And take it easy; know you can kick my brother around if he doesn't pull his own weight." Holly chuckled, glancing at me before walking over to Frank and pulling him into a very tight embrace. I faced my brother
"Well, I guess this is goodbye," I said quietly. Gerard nodded his head before pulling me into a tight hug
"Look after yourself Mikes, I'm only a text or a phone call away." I nodded as I felt the first few tears slip down my cheeks
"I know, and be careful, keep yourself safe."
"I will, you know me, I'll lock myself in my dorm and only go out for lessons," he chuckled, causing me to laugh
"I'll be home for holidays, and I'll try and come home over the weekends if I can, so we can have a movie night." He pulled back from the hug with his hands on my shoulders
"And please, I don't care what hour it is, just let me know when Holly's in labour or given birth, I'd quite like to know when my own brother becomes a dad." I smiled and nodded my head
"Love you Mikey."
"Love you too Gerard." I hugged my brother tightly one last times as I felt more tears build and fall. When I pulled away, Gerard was now too crying as mum pulled him into a tight bone crushing hug, making a fuss over him and sobbing. I chuckled as he tried to pull himself free. He walked back over to Frank, where he kissed him one last time, before climbing into the car with dad. We watched as dad reversed out, Gerard waving at us as dad drove away, down the street, around the corner and out of sight. I stood, with Frank, Holly and mum, all staring down the road to where Gerard and my dad had just disappeared. He was gone, but he would be back
10 months later - July
FUCK! I really need to move that amp away from the door, that's the fourth time I've stubbed my toe on it. I trudged down the hall way and into the bathroom. I knew my mum would still be asleep after being up late last night with a few friends from work. Just glad my music drowned out the high pitched laughter and bad jokes that got exchanged. Luckily I had company of my own. I stared into the mirror in the bathroom and smiled at the purple like mark coming up on my collar bone. I splashed cold water over my face before making my way downstairs as quietly as I could and made my way into the kitchen to make myself a coffee to wake up. I stood and waited for the kettle to boil and stared out the kitchen window at the sun that was still rising in the sky. I walked over to the window and opened it a little, so that the sound of the birds morning call could be heard a little accompanied by a cool breeze. I smiled as I heard someone moving around behind me and smiled more as I felt a pair of lips kiss my neck
"Morning sleepy head," I cooed
"Morning Frankie," came Gee's sweet voice. I turned around to be greeted by a gentle kiss, our lips working together in unison. I smiled as I pulled away
"Like a baby," he smiled. I beamed back at him
"I say coffee, then over to yours, so you can see your family and beautiful niece?" Gee smiled brightly when I mentioned his niece. I remember the frantic calls and running around 8 months ago when Holly had gone into labour, only for Gee to crashed through the doors at three o'clock in the morning, while Mikey cuddled his little baby girl and Holly slept after a long labour. Helena they named her, Helena Ruby Way. A beautiful name for a perfect girl in my eyes, named Helena after Gerard and Mikey's grandmother. Helena was beautiful, I got to see her often and spend time with her. She found it funny when I laughed and would giggle. She had Mikey's eyes and nose, while she seemed to have Holly's smile and elegant shaped face. I smiled at the thought of seeing her later and the thought of Gee getting a chance to play with her, and cuddle her
"That sounds like the perfect idea," Gee replied smiling still and kissing me again. I smiled back and slipped past him to finish making coffee for both of us
We left the house just as my mum dragged herself out of bed. Me and Gee walked quickly down the street to his house, where as soon as we opened the front door, we heard the familiar sounds of baby laughter, drift through the house. I chuckled as Gee walked ahead, bags filled with laundry. I shut the door and kicked my shoes off as Gee disappeared only to her a cry of joy from his mother. I laughed and followed the sound of the laughter. I stood in the door way to the lounge, to see Holly sat crossed legged, giggling, while Mikey lay on his back, holding Helena up and making funny noises and pulling funny faces at Helena, which made her giggle and laugh loudly. I chuckled. I felt an arm around my waist and turned my head to see Gee stood by my side and smiling
"You know, if I didn't know any better, I'd say you were the baby Mikey." Holly and Mikey both jumped and Helena gurgled happily
"My God Gerard! Don't do that I nearly dropped her!" Mikey whined as Gee walked over and scooped Helena up and cuddled her. I walked over and sat down laughing as Gee began to tickle Helena and she giggled away loudly
"Aww, she's grown so much since I last saw her!" Gee exclaimed handing Helena back to Holly. Mikey pulled Gee into a tight hug and smiled brightly, before cuddling up next to Holly and watched Helena pick up a toy and start to play with it. I moved closer to Gee and received a kiss to the top of my head as I watched Mikey play with Helena
"Ow," Mikey said pulling his hand after Helena hit his hand with the toy. I chuckled as Mikey held his hand defensively. Helena looked up, gurgled and started to giggle, which set Holly off laughing. I laughed even more, and Helena laughed dropping the toy and started to clap her hands
"Now that is cute," Gee chuckled as Helena laughed even more, her eyes lighting up as she slipped off Holly's lap and crawled around a little, placing her tiny hands on my knees and hauling herself up a little, before collapsing onto my lap. I picked her up and cuddled her
"Do you think we should ask?" Mikey asked. Holly nodded her head as I bounced Helena on my knee
"Ask what?" I asked curiously
"If you'll be Helena's God father," Holly smiled at me. I beamed brightly and cuddled Helena tightly to me
"I'd love to be her god father," I smiled. Gee smiled at me before kissing my cheek
"How about that Helena," I said turning her around so I could see her face, "Me for your god father." Helena babbled away, smiling and laughing
"I think she approves," Gee chuckled as I put Helena down on the carpet and watched as she grabbed a different toy and put it to her mouth
"Well, with me god father, this has to be the most craziest family there is in New Jersey," I smiled as Holly, Mikey and Gee laughed. At this moment in time, I had the most wonderful boyfriend in the world, the world's two best friends that anyone could ever ask for and a perfect god daughter. I sighed happily and cuddled up next to Gee and watched as Mikey and Holly both began to play with Helena
"I love you Frankie," Gee whispered
"I love you too Gee," I smiled, turning my head and kissing him on the lips
"And you kept your promise," Gee smiled pulling away
"Of course I did, I said I would never stop loving you!" Gee beamed at me, before cupping my face and bringing his lips to mine once more, making the kiss long and deep. Yep, I definitely was the happiest I have ever been in a very long time!
In the time I wrote this, I was going through my last year of college, which I found stressful. Writing this helped me to get all emotions and feelings out that I kept bottled up. You come to learn through life, with each passing day that growing up isn't easy and in fact, it is pretty scary, when you've qualified and got to go out into the big wide world. But know this; although you may feel alone in the world, with no one there by your side to support you, you are not alone. If I could tell anyone anything, it would be not to give up on anything otherwise you'll regret it. Don't stress too much on the little things on life and help is always out there when you need it the most
Just so you guys know, if you are at all confused, Holly got pregnant in February and would have given birth in November
I hope you guys have enjoyed this story. I will try to write a new story if I can!