bipolar moment sweep over scar and gerard seems worried......
As we walked back home I had stopped
"Let me give you my number so we can keep in touch"
I blushed an I took his arm and pulled a sharpie out of my pocket and I wrote my number on his arm then he started to blush
He said as he looked at my number on his wrist
We see the place were the party is and he stopped
he kissed me again, but this time with more passion ad I kissed him back after I was able to see what was going on
We stopped and blushed and we were silent the rest of the way towards the party site
As we got there my dad was sitting in the car I waved at Gerard as I left and smiled.
I finally feel alive after all these years
I don't remember getting out of the car but I woke up in my room to my phone vibrating In my pocket
hey it's Gerard
oh best thing to wake up to wait what time is it I glance at my clock it's about 9:00A.M. man he's up early
Oh hey I like just woke up any ways what's up
nothing just thinking about yesterday and how about you
Oh my god was he thinking about me yesterday! I melted
oh I'm just laying in my Bed
cool so do you want to go to the park later
ya I'm not doing anything
cool so what time is good for you
uhm give me an hour Ill meet you at the park by the high school
K see you there ;)
I darted out of bed and got ready as fast as I could it was sprinkling out side /great looks like i'm going to walk in the rain/
I'm here :)
K I'm across the street
Gerard sits next to me on the swings and just starts smiling for no reason
" hey sooo..."
I bet sound stupid great I don't even
know what to say next thing I knew he had taken my hand a lead me towards an alley I didn't seem to be scared was I comfortable with him ?
We stopped by a tree and he just laid one on me. /he kissed me again./
" I don't know about this" I choked out
"what's wrong did I do something wrong?"
" no your fine it's just we have only known each other for two days maybe we should take it-"
/God I couldn't help myself he looked so sad I leaned on him with our fingers intwined and kissed him I felt so sad I needed someone I tore away from his soft lips and rested my head on his chest and began to cry i guess he noticed because he seemed startled when he felt my tears drop on his black t-shirt
"What's wrong and don't lie to me I know your sad but I can't help you unless I know"
"this....this is wrong no one wants to be with me" I sob " your...your using me arent you who told you to do this to me I...I... I can't do this!" I tore myself away from him and collapsed on the ground crying with my hands covering my face
" No one told me to do this" he sat on the floor by me " I did this myself I chose to be with you I- "
I cut him off " your not really with me your my friend kissing me were not together!"
"Well umm...........will you be mine?"