Not like the others.
There’s more than ever.
Thrice what I’ve had before?
Those were slow.
These are fast.
It’s not what I'm used to.
They sting more.
It’s all I can feel now.
These shallow wounds caress my hips and stomach like a warm embrace. It’s familiar, but not the same. I didn’t have time or patience today. I used to go much deeper. Take my time. Feel the pain.
Today I just wanted the pain to go away. I wanted to numb it. To stop feeling the only thing I can still feel. Just for a little while. Just so I can sleep. Just to get some rest.
All so I can do it again tomorrow. So I can paint that smile on, laugh on que and go through the motions.
I'm Sorry, i just needed an outlet and i didnt mean to clog up the catergory :/