Categories > Original > Drama0 Reviews
Why are we trying to destroy the feeling we've worked so hard to get?
Then we caught ourself. Why were we thinking like this?
Why were we deliberately trying to bring ourselves down again? We tried nearly everything in our power to be rid of these problems. Yet they were here until yesterday.
We finally crawled into bed at 4, knowing we needed rest, but our body was too energized to sleep, even though we had just spent over an hour pacing around our house.
We actually ate more than a granola bar that day, and we didn't throw it up. In fact, we ate as much as we normally would in several days. While normally we would have been furious about it, we were actually proud of it. And when those thoughts of developing an eating disorder, and crawling back to our old vice decided to slip into our mind, it seemed like something In our head, yet not us, said with confidence and reassurance, almost like the mother figure that we never had, "You're stronger than this."
The only problem is, the person this voice belonged to had promised to be there for us, yet had abandoned us.
Either way, this feeling of euphoria couldn't last forever. And it didn't.