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So this is something I wrote a couple months back, to try and see my feelings from another perspective. As with going nowhere it's very personal and not really to do with MCR but I thought you guys would get it, and I guess I could say it was written by one of the guys, but I didn't. Oh well! So yeh here ya go! Criticisms welcomed :)

Rates and reviews much appreciated, in regards to writing style etc.

Love to you all

xoxo

MCR_ROCK_RHCP


I'm done.

It's too much. Waking up, living, smiling.

The worst thing is, it makes no sense. I don't have any reason to want to stop. I should be happy, shouldn't I?

She's been gone for almost a year, and I don't miss her too much, and I find myself blaming the feeling on her being gone, but its all bullshit. I know its not about her, but the real question is; If not that then what is it?

Life's great. I'm happy at school, I enjoy my classes. If I have all the elements for happiness then why am I not happy? What's wrong with me?

I need help, but I'm too strong for that. I'm the one who helps my mum through her depression, I can't give up on her now. I can't be the weak one. I have to help my brother through the bullying and the hospital visits. My dad can't do it alone.

So that's it isn't it? I have no option.


But to keep on going, until they no longer need me, however long that may be.