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I'm plagued with nightmares,
Plagued with thoughts,
Wasting my time wasting away,
Stuttering out broken promises,
Failed to keep them,
I never break a promise,
I promise I won't take a knife to my throat,
Nor shall I down pills with pouring alcohol,
Can't find a gun, could tie a noose,
But I won't.
I don't promise I'm okay,
For fuck's sake, I won't lie,
It's obvious that I'm struggling,
To breath, to sleep, to eat,
To live,
Merely existing,
Holding on and hoping,
I want to know why I'm so screwed up...
But I know,
And I can't bring myself to care.