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Thinkin' To Myself

You're there
For me?
Maybe
But I'm not sure
Should I test you?
Is that wrong?
I'll just write it in my diary
I want to say
Aloud
To you all
Tell you
Make you understand
But you won't
I know you
Too well
Just...
Never mind

I'm crying
Again
On my bed
Into my pillow
For an hour
Is that long?
Should I seek help?
Say something?
I'll get over it

Harsh words
A stranger's words
Do I know you?
Does it matter?
You said it
I believe it
Do you have proof?
I look in the mirror
I see it

You're right
I'm wrong
You don't know me
But you know my truth
You can see my pain
You show it up
You laugh at it

I look at you
I say no words
It passes by
But still I remember
I hate forever
The pain still stays
Your laughter
My hatred for it
I can hear it
In every step I take
Every situation the same
I wait for the words
That stops my heart
Chill my blood
Kill a piece of my soul
Take my goodness
My confidence
Me

I shall wish you dead
Or in an accident
To feel some pain
I'm sorry
So sorry...