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Joe wraps his arms around my sobbing body. I cry so much, he has to change his shirt. He pats by back until I calm enough to talk. He rocks my back and forth, telling me sweet things. He wipes my eyes and kisses my cheek. I steady my breath and bite my lip.
“J-Joe… I’ve been making myself throw up again.” I sob.
“How long?”
“Since the night we went to see Pete in the hospital. He kissed me and… I don’t know it just made me feel a little better.”
“Kissing him made you feel better?” he says in shock.
“No, baby, the… throwing up and such…”
He nods “Alright… is there anything else you wanna tell me?”
I bite my lip. Should I tell him? What if Pete only makes it worse? What do I do?
He frowns “Is there?”
My lips quiver Yes “No…”
He sighs, “Ok… well let’s go see a doctor about the rape. You can get a morning after thing to keep you from getting HIV or any other STDs.”
I nod and follow him to the bus. Andy and Mark go with us while Pete sleeps. Andy hugs me tightly. Mark does also. We get to the emergency and they tell me that it has to be a shot. Naturally with my fear of needles, I’m a bit difficult. Suck it up Patrick! It could be this, or a STD I bite my lip as they stick the needle in. And watches with interest. He finds them amusing. I have a panic attack thinking about a needle. Joe holds my hand, rubbing the back with his thumb. The doctor says I should be fine, and then tells me possible side effects, which freak me out. Now I’m worried about my arm swelling badly or not being able to breathe. Joy. Joe holds me on the way back to the hotel, and when we get there he lays me on his bed. He helps me get off my shoes since I’m sore. He also hands me a Hydro.
“I thought you flushed these…”
“I kept those incase one of us needed them. They’re good for pain honey…”
“I’m glad you didn’t flush them. I hurt so much.” My eyes water again.
He kisses my cheek “I know baby… What do you want to drink?”
“I don’t care.”
“Chocolate milk then?” he smiles, naming my favorite drink.
I smile weakly and nod “Ya know, I can still walk.”
“Yes but honey you need to rest some. Rape is very physically and emotionally tiring.” He frowns “I know myself…”
My eyes widen “What? You’ve never told any of us that…”
“It’s embarrassing” he shrugs “And you never asked.”
“I’m so sorry! What happened?”
“You sure you wanna know?”
I nod “Yes, please.”
“Back before I met you in High School, there was this guy who I really liked. One day I mustered up the courage to tell him. We ended up dating. He had always been sexually active and I was not… And one night he wanted sex. I told him I wasn’t ready. He didn’t care. He threw me on the bed and… had his way with me. I ended up struggling too much so he shoved like six sleeping pills down my throat. I woke up two days later in the back of a delivery truck.”
My eyes widen “Oh my god, really?” I hug him “That’s so terrible!”
”Yeah. At the time he was also my ‘best friend’. Then he swore it was his new medication he was taking. I like an idiot believed him. He changed the prescription and swore he’d never rape anyone again.” He looks into my eyes “And he lied to me. He did it again, tonight.” Tears stream down his face.
“Wh-what are you talking about?”
“I know what Pete did to you, because he did it to me before!” he says heatedly “And I swear to God, I’m going to kill him!”
“How did you know?”
“Because the idiot did the say thing to me. Covering up threats and the look he had on his face… it was the same.”
“J-Joe… I’ve been making myself throw up again.” I sob.
“How long?”
“Since the night we went to see Pete in the hospital. He kissed me and… I don’t know it just made me feel a little better.”
“Kissing him made you feel better?” he says in shock.
“No, baby, the… throwing up and such…”
He nods “Alright… is there anything else you wanna tell me?”
I bite my lip. Should I tell him? What if Pete only makes it worse? What do I do?
He frowns “Is there?”
My lips quiver Yes “No…”
He sighs, “Ok… well let’s go see a doctor about the rape. You can get a morning after thing to keep you from getting HIV or any other STDs.”
I nod and follow him to the bus. Andy and Mark go with us while Pete sleeps. Andy hugs me tightly. Mark does also. We get to the emergency and they tell me that it has to be a shot. Naturally with my fear of needles, I’m a bit difficult. Suck it up Patrick! It could be this, or a STD I bite my lip as they stick the needle in. And watches with interest. He finds them amusing. I have a panic attack thinking about a needle. Joe holds my hand, rubbing the back with his thumb. The doctor says I should be fine, and then tells me possible side effects, which freak me out. Now I’m worried about my arm swelling badly or not being able to breathe. Joy. Joe holds me on the way back to the hotel, and when we get there he lays me on his bed. He helps me get off my shoes since I’m sore. He also hands me a Hydro.
“I thought you flushed these…”
“I kept those incase one of us needed them. They’re good for pain honey…”
“I’m glad you didn’t flush them. I hurt so much.” My eyes water again.
He kisses my cheek “I know baby… What do you want to drink?”
“I don’t care.”
“Chocolate milk then?” he smiles, naming my favorite drink.
I smile weakly and nod “Ya know, I can still walk.”
“Yes but honey you need to rest some. Rape is very physically and emotionally tiring.” He frowns “I know myself…”
My eyes widen “What? You’ve never told any of us that…”
“It’s embarrassing” he shrugs “And you never asked.”
“I’m so sorry! What happened?”
“You sure you wanna know?”
I nod “Yes, please.”
“Back before I met you in High School, there was this guy who I really liked. One day I mustered up the courage to tell him. We ended up dating. He had always been sexually active and I was not… And one night he wanted sex. I told him I wasn’t ready. He didn’t care. He threw me on the bed and… had his way with me. I ended up struggling too much so he shoved like six sleeping pills down my throat. I woke up two days later in the back of a delivery truck.”
My eyes widen “Oh my god, really?” I hug him “That’s so terrible!”
”Yeah. At the time he was also my ‘best friend’. Then he swore it was his new medication he was taking. I like an idiot believed him. He changed the prescription and swore he’d never rape anyone again.” He looks into my eyes “And he lied to me. He did it again, tonight.” Tears stream down his face.
“Wh-what are you talking about?”
“I know what Pete did to you, because he did it to me before!” he says heatedly “And I swear to God, I’m going to kill him!”
“How did you know?”
“Because the idiot did the say thing to me. Covering up threats and the look he had on his face… it was the same.”
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