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After ten minutes of me trying to hit this tiny-feathered ball with a racket three times it size I gave up. Bob tried to help but then he gave up too. It was hopeless. I was never going to hit it. Even Joey what's his name came over and tried to help me. Jessica just stood back watching. Smirking at me a little when she thought I wasn't looking. And when she saw me looking she'd smile widely. What a bitch.

The bell finally rang and I made my way into the locker room slowly. It was the last class of the day- thank god! So I didn't have to rush to get changed. Lisa had tossed on her cheerleading uniform in like 2 seconds and told me to remember to lock the locker when I'm done. I guess she didn't want to be late for practice. I slowly started changing and looked over my shoulder. Jessica was gone. Halleluiah! I don't think I could stand her watching me anymore. What the hell is her problem anyway?

I lace back up my boots and slam Lisa's locker shut as I walk out. Gerard usually waits by my locker for me. It took me longer than usual today to get dressed. Damn boots come up to my knee with laces up the front. I don't know why I undid all the laces before. But it took me forever to re-lace them... Fuck... I hope he's still there... Oh don't be silly Elle. Of course he's gonna be there. He wouldn't just ditch you...

I come around the corner and see Gerard pulling some books from his locker. Aw he's still there! I smile a little to myself. And then I see her... Standing less then a foot away. Leaning against Carol Wangs locker. It's Jessica. She's saying something to him and he's shrugging. As I walk up to my locker she smiles at me. I give her the same weak smile back as I start twisting the dial on my locker.

"You want me to-" Gerard says looking over.

"No I got it." I tell him twisting the dial around slightly. Jessica looked over at me and smirked a little as I jiggled the handle and nothing happened.

"Elle let me." Gerard said leaning over a little. Jessica was still standing in between us still leaning against Carol's locker.

"I can do it Gerard." I say shaking my head a little. Jessica smiled. Gerard took a step back and shut his locker and watched me tapping his foot a little.

I spun the dial around a few times to clear it. Okay 13... I start to spin it to the left towards number 13.

"Right." I hear Gerard say. He's standing behind me. Looking over my shoulder. Breathing on my neck a little.

"What?" I say.

"You gotta go right." He tells me. Damn his breath is so warm. I can feel it on my neck. Its distracting me.

"Is this right?" I ask twisting the dial to the right now towards 26.

"No." He laughs a little.

"But this is right." I tell him twisting the dial to the right. I mean I know my left from right.

"Yeah but you gotta go left first." He says wrapping his arm around me and putting his hand on top of mine on the dial.

He twists it to the left. I'm so fucking confused.

"Give her a break Gerard!" I hear Jessica laugh. "I mean locks can be hard." I hear her say a little sarcastically. "There's just so many numbers to choose from!" She laughs.

Is she making fun of me?

"Jess." Gerard says roughly glaring over at her. Oh my god! She is making fun of me! Before I can say anything she steps away from Carols locker tossing her hair a little.

"I'll see you guys tomorrow." She says looking right at Gerard and totally ignoring me. What the fuck? Does she think she's gonna sit with us again tomorrow? And I really think that she was making fun of me.

I'm totally speechless. Gerard reaches over and opens my locker quickly as I watch her walk away still trying to figure out what went on.

"What was that all about?" I ask him as Bob comes up and leans against Carol Wangs locker now.

"You guys ready yet?" He says a little impatiently too. I shake my head no and look at Gerard waiting for an answer.

"What was what about Elle?" Gerard asks me as I put my books away.

"Jessica." I say biting my lip a little.

"What about her?" Bob says trying to follow the conversation. Gerard shrugs.

"Well what did she want?" I say slamming my locker shut.

"Huh?" Gerard replies. Oh hell no!

"She was talking to you when I came up Gerard." I say getting a little annoyed as we walked outside. "What did she want?" I ask him.

He chuckles a little. "Oh yeah." He looks over at Bob as we go through the gate. "She said uh, you were all over some good looking guy in gym class." He laughs.

"Who?" I say outraged. I was not! I mean is she just gonna start making up lies now I swear-

"Thanks a lot Elle." Bob says pretending to be hurt.

"Who Bob?!" I laugh. "She was talking about Bob!" I cry out. Bob is making a face. "Oh baby I'm sorry." I tell him wrapping my arms around him.

"Should I be worried about this." He says motioning to me and Bob as he pulls out his cigarettes. I roll my eyes a little and let go of Bob.

"I don't see why the fuck would she would even tell you that Gerard!" I say a little loudly.

"She was just worried." Gerard shrugs. I look over at Bob. He looks away. He doesn't want to get involved.

"Worried about what?" I snap.

"Well she said you were sitting on his lap." He says handing me the cigarette.

"I was not!" I protest. Gerard raised his eyebrows a little. "I was sitting between his legs Gerard." I clarify and he smiles.

"Well then that's much better Elle." He teases me.

"Gerard if it bothers you then-" I start to say and he shakes his head no.

"Elle, its no big deal she was just..." Gerard took a drag from his smoke and his voice trailed off.

"trying to make trouble?" I say softly.

Gerard laughed. "No why would you say that!" He tells me. I look over at Bob. Bob wont look up at me.

"So what happened with you and her?" I say walking a little slower. We were almost at my house.

"Nothing." Gerard replies.

"Well I mean you dated her right?" I prompt him.

"uh huh." He tries to blow it off.

"Well did you love her?" I say biting my lip a little.

"What?" He laughs a little squeezing my hand in his.

"I mean when you were with her... Did you tell her you loved her." I say softly,

"I guess so." Gerard shrugs.

"Hey where's Mikey?" Bob asks trying to shift the conversation.

"Detention." Gerard shrugs. "Frankie too." He laughs taking a drag from his smoke.

"So did you fuck her." I blurt out. Gerard chokes a little on his smoke.

"What?" He coughs a little.

"Jessica." I say plainly. "Did you-"

"I heard you." Gerard interrupts me and looks over at Bob. Bob looks like he's about to take off running. We're only a few feet from my house now.

"So." I say waiting.

"Elle... I..." Gerard stutters.

"Yes or no Gerard." I sigh. "Its not a big deal I was just wondering." I tell him as we go up the steps.

"All right- yeah." He shrugs as I put the key in the door. I pause and look over my shoulder at him. I have the key in halfway turned.

"Was she good?" I blurt out.

"Elle!" Gerard exclaims looking at me like he can't believe I just said that. I stood there with the key halfway turned not moving waiting for his answer.

"Just tell me or I'm not opening the door." I say staring at him.

"Elle... it was... fuck..." Gerard's mumbling looking up at me.

"Holy shit." Bob grumbles pushing me out of the way. He turns the key and pushes the door open shaking his head a little at me.

What? He's the one that said I should ask him about her. Was I too direct? ... Fuck...

We go walking in and Lia's coming from the kitchen; soaking wet in her bikini. She's got water dripping all over my living room floor.

"Holy shit Lia." I yell. "Where's your fucking towel!" I yell at her. She rolls her eyes.

"Its right here." She says showing me it. She had it folded on her arm.

"Well put it the fuck on!" I yell at her.

"Wait. where the hell were you?" Bob says looking at Lia. He was totally confused. "It's the fucking middle of winter Li!" he yells a little. "Were you in the pool?" He says to her and she makes a face.

"No. What the fuck is wrong with you!" she laughs wrapping her towel around her waist. "I was in the hot tub." She tells him plainly.

I sigh and toss my bag on to the couch. I don't fucking believe her. I'm kinda glad she's going to move in with Crystal. I don't know how much more of this I could take.

"You have a hot tub?" Gerard says making a face at me.

"Uh yeah its on the deck." I say looking at him funny. He didn't say anything. "I swear to God Gerard if you say 'you have a fucking deck' I'm gonna-!"

"I've never really went outside." He shrugs and goes over and looks out the glass doors a little. I go over next to him and look out too. It was sunk into the deck and it had a big brown lid on it so I guess it wasn't very noticeable.

"My papa got it for therapy after his stroke." I say sighing a little remembering. Gerard squeezed my hand a little. "You turned it off right Lia?" I yell.

"Huh?" She yells back from the living room.

I go into the doorway. "I said did you turn it off." I repeat.

"Oh yeah." She laughs a little. "I mean, I think." She says wrinkling her face a little. "You should really use it more often Elle, Its really nice." She says twisting her wet hair up into a ponytail.

"So you did turn it off or not?" I repeat a little frustrated with her.

"You want me to check?" She says innocently.

"no I'll do it." I snap at her a little.

"I'll go. Where is it?" Gerard says rubbing my back a little. He could tell I had had enough of her.

"On the wall by the basement door." I sigh. He doesn't move. "Tell me you don't know where the basement is!" I laugh.

"Have you ever been here before!" Lia laughs at him.

"I'm sorry I never got the official tour!" He smiles at me. I couldn't help but smile back. "I do know some rooms pretty well." He says winking at me.

"Yeah I bet you know her bedroom ceiling like the back of your hand huh!" Lia laughs.

"yeah and the uh bathroom ceiling...." He paused and leans over and kisses me. "and um the living room ceiling... and the uh-"

"nooooo!" Lia cries out covering her ears. "I so do not want to hear this!!" She says shaking her head.

"Come on I'll show you the basement." I laugh pulling him into the kitchen. I showed him the circuit breaker box for the hot tub.

"Come on you better hurry up and get changed." He says looking over at the clock in the kitchen.

"mmm for what?" I say confused.

"Its Thursday." He tells me like that's suppose to mean something.

"and?" I say making a face. "Am I supposed to have a special Thursday outfit?" I laugh.

"My grandma make lasagna on Thursday Elle." He tells me.

"Well that's um nice?" I say unsteadily.

"I told you she wanted you to come over." He says running his hand through his hair a little.

"Oh no!" I say a little loudly. "You never said tonight!" I panic a little.

"Well I'm saying it now." He smiles at me.

"Gerard, no I cant... I mean you didn't say anything before I... I. " I start to freak out.

"Cause I didn't want you to get upset. Like you are." He tells me wrapping his arm around me.

"I'm not ready." I tell him sighing a little.

"I know so go get changed." He tells me pushing me down the hall to my room.

"No I don't mean like that." I say softly as we walk in. "I mean I don't want to..." I say shutting my eyes a little...He shuts the door.

"Elle don't be worried. Your perfect just the way you are." He says and I roll my eyes looking back up at him.. "She's gonna love you just like I do." He says lifting my chin up a little. "I promise." He says kissing my nose. I frown a little.

"You really think so." I sigh. "Just how I am is fine." I say softly.

"You don't have to change a thing baby." He whispers kissing my lips lightly.

"Then why are you making me change my clothes?" I tease him.

"You can wear that then if you want." he says shrugging a little.

"are you crazy!' I yell at him opening up my closet.

"What's the matter Elle?" He says watching me tear through my closet..

"What's the matter?" I tell him. Is that what he just said? "Fuck...I can't wear this to dinner" I tell him as I start to undress..." Don't you know -I HAVE to change my clothes damn it!!"