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I heard that your life is supposed to flash before your eyes at this point. But nothing... I guess cause I wasn't dead!
All I heard was terrifying screaming from the backseat, the squealing of the tires and the shattering of the glass in the moment of impact. Gerard must've thought Lia was gonna run the light... So he didn't slow down. He slammed into the back of my car forcing us into the middle of the busy intersection. I covered my head with my arms as the glass from the windshield poured down on to me as we were tossed about the inside of the car... And then nothing...everything got silent. And then the strangest sensation came over me...

I tried to take a breath but I couldn't. Something was crushing me...I must've passed out sometime during the crash... Slowly everything started coming back into focus. First all I could hear was my own shallow breaths. Then I started hearing whimpers from behind me. I strained to open my eyes. When I did it was dark, shadowy like. I could see the bottom of a wheel and the underside of a car that was on top of us. The wheel was on the dashboard of my car... I couldn't quite understand it at first. Then everything came back to me...Lia's sudden stop at the light. Our car barreling into the busy intersection. The truck headed directly towards us from the left...Bracing myself and squeezing my eyes shut as it slammed into us.

I look down at myself. I was covered in blood and broken glass. I wasn't wearing my arm brace and the stitches on my forearm tore open some how. I was bleeding profusely from it. I almost passed out from the sight of all the blood. I was starting to shake and my eyes were welling up with tears... I look over and saw Lia's air bag had went off. She was hunched over it not moving. I tried to reach over to touch her but my arm felt like it was tearing in two when I moved it... The cut was full of broken glass. It was most intense pain I'd ever felt. I tried to scream out in pain, but I still couldn't breath, I was so close to the dashboard. Too close. It had smashed up against me... That's when the sounds of the sirens started to come in to focus. And then I could hear all the commotion outside. I felt someone reaching for me. Trying to pull me out.

It was some man in a uniform. I didn't recognize him. He was saying something to me like hold on or grab on or I don't know. He was trying to unbuckle my seat belt. It was stuck. He pulled out some kinda knife and was trying to free me... Someone else was leaning in now. They were pulling Lia out.

"There's two more in the other car that are heading down to the ER now." I heard some gruffy voice say to the man kneeling in front of me.

"It don't look like the other drivers gonna make it." I hear him say as he gets my seat belt loose. The other driver? The other driver is Gerard! Oh god no!

I started to freak out. It couldn't be Gerard. It just couldn't. I think I'd die with out him. The man managed to pull me out. I was struggling against him. Screaming for Gerard. I had to know what happened. No one would answer me. They put some oxygen mask on me and that freaked me out even more. Another guy came over and was trying to hold me down a little. I felt a pinching in my arm like they poked me with something and everything went dark again...
The next thing I heard was Ray's voice. He and Bob were arguing softly. Something about whose gonna tell her... I open my eyes and I'm lying on a cot in the hallway of the ER. Ray and Bob are standing next to me. My arm is all wrapped up again back in a larger metal brace and in a sling. They see me open my eyes and Ray nudges Bob.

"Go head." He whispers.

Bob sighs and takes a step forward. He looked like he wanted to reach over and touch me. Hold my hand maybe but he was afraid. "Um Elle I don't know how to tell you this..." He says looking over at Ray. Ray nods reassuringly.

"I already know." I say as tears start falling from my eyes.

"Its really not a big deal if you think about it Elle." Bob says giving me a weak smile.

"Gerard is dead. He's gone. I've lost him forever." I started to sob uncontrollably." And you say it's not a big deal!" I scream at him trying to get off the cot.

"No that's not what I meant." Bob says pushing me back down.

"They should've just left me there to die too... I cant live with out him." I was hysterical now. I didn't care. With out Gerard nothing else mattered...

Bob reached over and grabbed my arms. "Gerard's not dead Elle." He said shaking me trying to calm me down. I just looked back at him in total disbelief. He nodded. I looked over at Ray.

"He's like two curtains down." Ray said reassuringly.

"But I heard the EMT guy say the driver wasn't gonna make it." I say as Bob wiped the tears in my eyes.

"Uh that was the um truck driver." Bob says softly pushing the hair from my face.

"Oh my God the truck driver DIED!!" I screamed getting hysterical again.

"Fucking... what the hell Bob." Ray says pushing him out of the way.

Ray lifts my face up and looks into my eyes. "No one died Elle." He says nodding a little. "Just calm down...take a deep breath." He said and I did. Ray gave Bob a nasty look.

"I was gonna say that she just started freaking out again." Bob laughed a little taking a step back.

"Everyone's okay?" I said to Ray and he shrugged a little.

"Yeah uh.. Bob was just trying to tell you.. Your car is totaled." He says and I make a face.

"I could give a fuck about my car right now Ray!" I yell at him. "Is Gerard okay or not?"

"It could've been a lot worse." He says frowning. "The air bag went off and knocked him out." Ray said matter-of-factly. "He's uh down there-" Ray gestured to the right a little. "Uh with his mom and Mikey."

"Mikey's all right too? He's not hurt or anything" I interrupted. Ray shook his head no. I jumped up off the cot and pushed past Ray. I had to see Gerard. Make sure he was okay...

He was. His mom and Mikey weren't in there with him though. I guess they went I don't know where. I didn't care. Gerard was lying on the bed. His eyes were shut but he was alive... I reached over and touched his face. He didn't
move.

"They um gave him something to knock him out so they could do a MRI or something." Ray says to me.

"But he's okay?" I say looking down at him.

Ray nodded. "Yeah just a few cuts and bruises." He says. I look him and Bob over. They had a few minor scrapes too.

"Marie called her mom she already picked her and the girls up and took them home. They were more shaken up than anything." Ray tells me.

"And Frankie?" I exclaim.

"Ray told you- Marie's mom took the girls home, that included Frankie!" Bob laughs. I reached over and slapped Bobs arm lightly.

"That's not funny." I said smiling a little. "And Lia?" I say remembering her hunched over not moving...

"She's umm down there." Ray said pointing to the left.

"Is her mom here yet?" I say and Ray frowns and looks at Bob. Bob looks away.

"Uh no." Ray says.

"I guess she's still on her way then." I say and he shakes his head no.

"Umm they called her mom Elle." Bob says still not looking me in the eyes.

"And??" I encourage him.

"And she's not coming." Ray says finishing Bobs sentence off.

I just stared at him. 'What do you mean?" I ask them and they both look down.

"They're just not coming Elle." Bob tells me.

"Cause of what happened with her dad?" I ask shaking my head a little.

"No cause she told them she was..." Bob started to say. His voice just trailed off.

"No they.. I mean.. They wouldn't.. fuck.. " I mumble trying to understand. "Her parents wouldn't do that" I say and Ray nods.

"That's why they threw her out Elle." Bob says shrugging.

"Why didn't she tell me Bob?" I said starting to cry again. He pulled me into his arms. "So she's all alone?" I said
pulling back from him.

"I called Crystal." He tells me. "She in there with her now... At least I think she is" He says shrugging a little.

"Ray!" I exclaim.

"I'll go check." He tells me. "Just stay here okay." He says walking out and leaving me and Bob alone next to Gerard's bed.

I reached over and touched Gerard's face again. "He's gonna be all right Elle." I hear Bobs voice say behind me.

I turn and face him. "If anything ever happened to him Bob I would just die." I say and Bob smiled a little. "No I'm serious Bob. He's all I have." I say and Bob looked at me like he didn't know what to say.

"Elle...I" He stuttered.

"No its true." I said and I started to cry again. "Everyone I ever loved is gone. He's all I have left. I swear to God I'll kill myself if I lose him."

Bob pulled me into his arms. "Naw Elle. Don't say things like that." He said squeezing me a little. "There are a lot of people that care about you." He tells me as I cry. Pushing my face into his chest. "I mean Lia-" He starts to say and I shake my head no.

"Bob I don't know what to do about her." I say sniffling a little. He still had his arms wrapped around me. He tried to pull away but I wouldn't let him. "We never even got to talk about anything." I say and he doesn't answer me. "I thought she was my best friend Bob... but now..."

"Now what?" He says stroking my hair a little.

"Now I don't know." I say pulling back from him. "I don't know what she is to me. She wont talk to me about it."

"I think she's just afraid you're gonna turn your back on her like her parents did." Bob says softly.

I just shook my head at him. "I would never do that." I tell him and he nods.

"I know I told her that Elle.. she's just..." He says sighing a little.

I sat down on the edge of Gerard's bed. "But you wanna know something... I mean honestly Bob. " I say softly and he comes a little closer to me. "I never told anyone this." I sigh and he sits next to me. "I'm scared things aren't gonna be the same between us." I say and he bits his lip a little. "I mean it doesn't bother me... I love Lia for who she is, but now I feel this weird kinda tension with her." I say and he nods a little.

"Well that's normal." He says and I make a face.

"No I mean I never felt like that before... I'm kinda worried to be alone with her." I say and he doesn't answer. " I mean like before when we were in my room she came and laid on the bed next to me. Is that wrong? Should I have gotten up. I don't want to give her the wrong idea." I say and Bob smiles.

"Elle I laid in bed with you." He laughs. "And there's nothing between us." He says and I sigh.

"That's cause you're Bob... You're my friend." I say and he nods.

"And she's Lia. She's your friend too." He says and I think about it.

"There's always gonna be sexual tension between two people of the opposite sex Elle, and sometimes even of the same sex...just don't worry about it so much." He says getting up.

"Well there's none between us." I say and he smiles.

"That's cause I don't like you." He laughs.

"You don't like me!" I tease.

"Honestly Elle." He smiles. "No. No I don't."

"Well what's wrong with me?" I protest getting up off the bed too. "Everyone says I'm cute!" I tell him and he smiles and doesn't answer. "Come on Bob... tell me.." I insist.

"Okay I don't like your nose." He says very seriously to me.

"My nose!" I laugh.

He smiles again. "Yeah I don't like how it turns up at the end like that." He says putting his finger on it.

"Gerard says my nose is cute!" I protest.

"He would!" Bob shrieks. "His does the same thing!" He says and we both laugh.

"So that's it... My nose!" I say folding my arms and looking at Bob.

"Naw.. It's just everything Elle... You're not my type." He says looking me over.

"What kinda type is your type Bob?" I say and he shrugs.

"I kinda like my girls built less....umm." He was trying to find the right word.

"Less what?" I demand.

"Less curvy." He says taking a step back.

"Are you saying I'm fat?" I laugh.

"Naw you're just curvy Elle. I kinda like girls like Lia..." He says taking another step back. I think he thought I was gonna hit him again or something.

"No I get it...you like girls that look like boys.." I say and he makes a face.

"I don't like boys Elle." He says and I smile." Sometimes I think you're gonna tip over your so top heavy." He laughs and I couldn't help but smile at him.

"I'm sorry you find me so repulsive Bob!" I laugh.

I hear Gerard groan a little behind us. I turn and he's starting to wake up. "Who the fuck are you people?" He mumbles and I feel my heart sink. He didn't know who we were?? I took a step back and almost collapsed. Bob was behind me. He kinda held me up. "Aw baby I'm sorry I was just teasing ya." Gerard says smiling at me holding out his hand to me.

"Oh fuck." I sighed in relief and jumped on top of him in the bed. Smothering him with kisses. He groaned a little shifting under my weight.

"Easy Elle." He groaned. "I think I broke my ribs." He says wincing a little.

"There just bruised." I hear Mikey say. He's standing in the doorway now.

"Hey where'dya go before?" Bob asks him.

"I went to show Lia this." He says holding his broken glasses up. "You know she almost broke her arm." He tells us laughing. "But she said seeing my glasses broken in a thousand pieces made it all worth it!"