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“You...you..." my voice was shaking, fuck my whole body was shaking. I took a step back. I opened my mouth like I was going to scream but nothing came out.

“Hello Elle.” He says plain as day. Like he didn’t know why the blood was draining from my face as he spoke.

“Will Cutter.” I heard his name pass through my lips but I still didn’t believe it was him…“Have you been following me?” I gasped the pieces slowly forming together.

Will Cutter...

The guy I use to date before Paul.

Will Cutter...

The guy who who gave Bob the oil to stop Gus's wheel from squeaking and keeping me up at night.

Will Cutter...

The guy who made Gerard four copies of my key...One for me, one for Gerard, one for Bob, one for Ray... and then he kept the original...

Will Cutter...

It was Will Cutter... It all made sense... The familiar taste of an old lover...Fuck Mr. Samuel was right...

“Following no…” He says with a creepy smile. “Watching yes.” He tells me and as I look out the window at Gerard. Gerard is looking back at me now with him. I guess he figured I was having trouble trying to pick out a candy bar again... And it wasn't like I was alone... He knew who I was with and didn't think anything of it...

Why would he think anything of it... I was just standing. Talking to Will.

“Why?” I find myself asking. Looking for logic where there wasn’t any…

“Cause youre my girl.” A small smile formed on his lips.

"Im your girl?" I repeat back softly glancing around. "Will, there hasn't been an us now for years." I say taking a small step back from him. I trembled a little looking up into his eyes trying to find the boy I once knew... The nice, sweet guy I dated all those years ago... But it just wasn't there...

"And that's my fault." He says his voice softening a little. He rubs his head a little with the back of his hand... "I'm sorry Elle...I...fucking queen of hearts man" He stammered a little. I just looked at him a little confused.

"Queen of hearts?" I repeat nervously...

"When I told Paul he could 'have' you if he won that last hand of cards, I never said for how long." He tells me stepping towards me, and I glanced out at Gerard again. He wasn’t looking back at me this time. Had his head under the hood with Brian…. "The he gets the fucking queen of hearts..." He grumbles. "I figured he'd keep you a night or two... I never thought it would be two fucking years...Two years Elle...I waited, I watched...I waited for him to be done with you." He says his eyes flashing with anger.

"Will." I sigh a little biting down on my lip...I didn't know what to say...I mean fuck... He's fucking lost it...

“You know that was the only thing that kept me sane.” He added and I tried not to smile.

“Kept you sane?? You killed my hamster." I blurt out with out thinking.

"He bit you Elle." He says like that justifies it.

"You slashed my guidance consular’s tires." I tell him and he frowns.

"What?" He says making a face.

"Mr Samuel." I say and he shakes his head no. “With the jelly.” I added trying to remind him.

"I dont know what youre talking about." Will tells me and once more I look over at Gerard, he still wasn’t looking at me.

"You put broken glass in Lias milk!" I say biting my lip a little. “You could’ve killed her.” I added and Will seemed to smirk at the notion.

"I heard what she said to you." He says rubbing his head like there was so much going on in his mind. "She called you a whore and a druggie." He says and I bite my lip a little harder. Fuck he heard that? That was so long ago...How long has he been following me around for?

"You could've hurt her." I say softly.

"She was encouraging you to sin." He says his eyes filling with anger. "Homosexuality is a sin Elle." He hisses at me and I just look at him. "She can burn in hell for that, maybe next time she'll think twice before opening her mouth and spreading her lies." He snaps stepping towards me. I gasp a little and jump back.
All of a sudden it was like he switched back. His face softened. He reached up and playfully swatted the ribbon hanging on my dress.

“You broke into my house Will!” I cried out louder then I meant to and he just shook his head at me.

“I just wanted to be close to you.” He went to reach for me and I flinched. I caught another glimpse of Gerard out the window... He was lighting up another cigarette now as he spoke to Brian... Suddenly his eyes locked with mine, he kinda half smiled at me as he tried to light the cigarette in the wind.. “But hes always around.“ Wills voice was getting more and more agitated again as he spoke, gesturing towards Gerard outside. "But he's always following you… always keeping you with in reach...That's why last night was so special, I know you felt it too, our connection... we feel the same way.." He added and I pressed my lips together as I looked at him. He let out this creepy laugh. “I was starting to think it was never gonna happen- us alone- That I was gonna have to get rid of him first.” He continued to chuckle and then he lifted his t-shirt slightly and flashed me what looked like gun tucked into his waistband. I started to feel faint…

Oh God if anything ever happened to Gerard... I shut my eyes for a second to steady myself, when I opened them Gerard's half smile had faded and he was shifting his eyes between me and Will. He knew the only time I shut my eyes like that is when something is wrong… really wrong… He saying something to Brian and then he takes a step forward like he was gonna come in. Oh god no..

Will sees it too.

“Mmm wave to him Elle and smile huh" He says and I just stood there frozen. "Im not done talking to you yet and you know I'd hate to have to fucking splatter his blood all over your pretty white dress there." He says smiling at me. I look back out the window. "I don't want to hurt him Elle, but I will." He continues as he slowly ran his finger down the front of my baby doll dress, just out of Gerard's view...

"Will don't- please...please don't hurt him" I hold up my hand like I'll be out in a minute and I force a smile to Gerard. He gave me a weak one back before turning back to Brian... ...

"Uh-huh." Will says as I just stood there frozen in fear... my mouth was still slightly open. "Shhh, quiet now." He says putting his finger to my lips and I pressed them back shut. "I don't want to have to start piling bodies up but I will." He says running his finger slowly along my lips. "I'll do what ever it takes." He says lowering his voice as he ran his finger down my neck and along my collarbone. I trembled a little. "Ah I've been waiting to get you alone, you know." He says lightly running his finger along the lace trim on the collar of my dress and I glance out the window. We were kinda behind the candy rack. I could see Gerard and I know he could see us talking. But he couldn't see him touching me. The rack was blocking his view.

“For what?” I found myself asking even though the thought of his answer was terrifying.

“I want you to come with me… to New Mexico.”

“New Mexico!” I laughed. “I am never going back to New Mexico, youre crazy.” I blurt out suddenly regretting my poor word choice.

“Elle, the only way I can get through it is with you.” He raises his voice up and I took a deep breath. I knew what he was talking about…

Will parents may have seemed normal on the outside but they were religious fanatics. Not the normal WWJD bumper sticker fanatics but more like the don’t drink the kool-aid kind.

It was where I met Will actually. In New Mexico. In a religious cult camp. Lia and I had accidentally signed up for. It was fucked up too you know… Traveling over a thousand miles away and meeting someone who only lives a few blocks from you…But more fucked up was how we accidentally ended up there. One night Lias dad caught her getting high. Really flew off the handle too cause we were only 14. Told her he was going to send her to rehab. But bankers daughters didn’t go to ‘rehab.’ What would the neighbors think?

So instead he came home with a bunch of flyers. Summer teen empowerment courses. Christian behavioral modification centers. Alternative medicine clinics, crap like that. She begged me to go with her and I did. The flyer looked nice. They had pictures of horses and happy faces around a camp fire. Didn’t mention anything about being a cult. We found that out the hard way…

But Will could not seriously think I was going to go back there with him… could he?

“Im not going back.” I repeat and Will tensed up.

“Well then we wont go to the camp. We’ll take that stack of bill from the bank and go somewhere else.” He starts to babble and I find myself shutting my eyes once more. When I opened them I saw Gerard was looking at us through the glass again, but this time I look away. I couldn’t fake another smile. Will didn’t seem to notice though. He was too busy running his finger ran along the lace ribbon tied on the front of my dress... He tugged it a little pulling me slightly closer to him... I bit down on my lip so hard I was sure it was bleeding...I looked back over at Gerard again. He knew... I know he knew...

Oh fuck. He was coming in...So was Brian. I saw them... Will did too...

"Fuck." Will mumbles and he drops the ribbon on my dress.

"No" I gasp a little holding my hand up as Gerard comes towards us hurriedly. "Stop!" I tell him trying to stop him from getting any closer.

Before Gerard could even speak Will grabs me and pulls me back against him.

"I'm sorry Elle. I warned you" He says pulling his gun out from his belt...