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WELCOME TO A.B.E
as adapted from ff.net
For clean HTML see "A Butterfly Effect":http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6008512/1/A_Butterfly_Effect

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Full Summary: A butterfly flaps its wings in Brazil and a tornado brews in Texas. A simple choice: Today or Tomorrow? Conceived a day earlier, the Boy Who Lived was never born. He wasn't even a glimmer in his parents' eyes.

But she was; Harriet Lily Potter... Harry; the girl that grew up in a cupboard; the girl with safety-pinned knickers; the girl that was never wanted by the only family she had left; the girl that would give anything for the slightest bit of love.

With a lightning bolt scar, her mother's face, and her father's messy hair, Harriet Potter has always been far less than welcome in the Dursley household. Ten years old, unloved, and uncared for, Harry has already seen more hardship than most will see in their entire lives. In fact, her life can't get much worse. Yet on July thirtieth, a strange letter is pushed through the Dursley's mail slot, turning her miserable world upside down. Discovering her magical heritage, Harry finally finds a place to belong and, after a chance meeting in a train station, she might have finally found someone to love her.

What happens when the shoes of a hero are filled by the feet of a heroine? How does the world change? How do relationships change? How important can one person possibly be?

Follow Harry down the familiar path. Follow her as she steps off it. Walk with her as she creates ripples of flux that grow and twist into massive tsunamis, changing the course of history as we know it... for better or for worse.

(Not a canon rehash. 'The Butterfly Effect' is a common trope in fiction when presenting scenarios involving time travel and 'what ifs' in which one storyline will diverge at the moment of a seemingly minor event. Change will build between the two storylines exponentially, eventually resulting in two significantly different outcomes.)

Rating: M for violence, gore, language, sexual situations (17+ in select chapters), and very sensitive themes (this story has some extreme dark bits as well as happy fluffy light bits)

Genre: Action/Adventure; Romance; Drama; Hurt & Comfort

Pairings: An overwhelming meal of H/G (Fem/) with a side-dish of H/R (Het), H/D (Het), H/L (Fem/), R/Hr, D/PP (main and final pairings are H/G, R/Hr, D/PP)

My problem with the term 'pairings' for this story: I'm all for realism. In reality, we don't have 'pairings.' The vast scale of human interaction goes far beyond a simple 'so and so has sex with so and so.' This story, even though fantastical in nature, is a realistic romance. There are multiple main characters, rather than just the two in the featured '/ship,' /and Harry's relationships with all of them are based on connections that run deeper than sex, attraction, or romance. When you reach the end of the second book, you'll see exactly what I mean.

If, however, you're the type of reader that immediately leaves a story when they don't see their favorite 'pairing,' or sees a 'pairing' that they don't like, then that's absolutely fine, but you'll miss out on what I've been told is a damn good story.

I love good reviews, but criticism is more helpful.

PS… Go read the Backwards with Purpose series by Deadwoodpecker and /Harry Potter and the Wastelands of Time /by Joe6991. These stories are filled with some serious imagination power which in turn sparked my own. They inspired me to pick up the pen and start writing after a year of dealing with some heavy shit. This story is nothing similar, but still, check them out. 'Shippers' of every type will appreciate them.

My profile avatar is Harry in 4th year. Fan-art for the story found on my Homepage. Some NSFW content.

BIG THANKS TO Osma77 and Baby-Summer-Gurl FOR BETA-ING

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A Butterfly Effect

-by SG

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Prologue 1: Today or Tomorrow

"And all the families of the families of the families of that one mouse! With a stamp of your foot, you annihilate first one, then a dozen, then a thousand, a million, a billion possible mice!"

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Lily stared up at him with disbelief on her face.

"So James, let me get this straight. You're telling me that on October thirtieth, one day before our first anniversary..." Her sharp green eyes narrowed and James instinctively took a step back, discreetly covering important parts of his anatomy. "... you want us to go out for a few pints with the boys?"

James gulped. They had been having a row for the past ten minutes and Lily was clearly losing her patience. He was going to have to pull out the big guns. "Lils, /sweetie/, it's just for an hour or two. We can try when we get back. It's been forever since we've been out. What's the point of life if we're too afraid to live it?"

The short redhead in front of him flared up to what could only be described as twice her original height.

"DON'T YOU DARE 'LILS, SWEETIE' ME, JAMES THEODORE POTTER! I KNOW ALL OF YOUR TRICKS AND I AM IMMUNE TO EACH AND EVERY ONE!"

"I'm telling you Worms, they have a chance at the cup, Chudley's keeper has been unstoppable. Didn't you see that-" Sirius and Peter, whom had just reentered the living room, froze in their tracks at the sight of the incensed woman and slightly cowering man before them. Peter gave Sirius a look and nodded back towards the kitchen. Sirius sighed, stuffed the pumpkin pasty he was holding into his mouth, gave Lily a military salute, winked at James, turned, and marched right back into the kitchen... in a near goose-step fashion. Peter rolled his eyes at Sirius and, smiling fondly at James and Lily, followed the taller man out of the room.

James looked back to his wife, relieved to see that the corners of her mouth had twitched upwards. He knew that the best way to diffuse the ticking time bomb that was Lily, was with a little bit of humor. It reeled her back in. She was thankfully, once again, not smoldering and towering over him. "Lils..." he said softly, "I'm sorry. I just… I feel like we're trapped in the house."

Lily folded her arms, walked towards him, and leant her forehead on his chin. She wrapped her arms up and around his neck, sighing heavily. James took a finger and tilted her head upwards. Up close, her sparkling emerald-green eyes always took his breath away.

She spoke softly; sadly. "James, you know I want to go out and have fun for a change. You know I do. But this is our second to last chance to try before my ovulation cycle ends. It's either today or tomorrow that we make this happen. We both know for a fact that if we go out to the pub tonight, there is no way either of us will be able to manage anything more than a few kisses before we fall asleep."

She cupped his cheek and continued. "We're sleepy drunks, James; you know it, and I know it. And we also both know we're going to be tired tomorrow after dinner... and the match." James let out an indignant sputter and Lily smiled mischievously. "Yes, I know all about your wonderful surprise dinner in the top box at the Harpies game. Honestly… why you tell Remus anything secret is beyond me. He has the largest blabbermouth in the world… well, not including my wayward sister."

James grimaced. He was going to kill Remus. Then he would kill him once more for good measure.

Lily buried her nose into his shirt and breathed him in. "James, I want a baby. I want a baby so bad it hurts. I want your baby. Our baby. I want to see him stare up at me with those big chocolate brown eyes of yours and I want him as soon as possible. I don't want to wait another month to try and conceive. I want him before one of us gets fed up with cowering from Voldemort and goes off to do something stupid and brave for the war effort."

James looked down into the eyes of the love of his life and said huskily, "I want that too, Lils."

"Then please, let's stay in tonight." She raked her fingers across his shoulders and down his chest and he grunted softly, his body singing with want for this beautiful woman.

Lily leaned up and brushed her lips against his. "Let's make a baby together."

As they embraced to share a soft loving kiss, James grinned against her mouth and whispered "So... now I have you convinced that the Potter line only produces boys, eh?"

Swatting his arm playfully, she whispered against his mouth, "Well, if it is a girl, we're bloody well not naming our daughter Harold."

James laughed and replied in the most pompous imitation of Lucius Malfoy he could muster. "Harold is a most ancient and noble name for a young witch of pure-blood and upstanding… standing," he finished lamely.

Lily giggled and sighed into his neck. "Him, Her, what does it matter? As long as it's /ours/. We can pick any name you want, love."

James grinned. "Oh really? What about Petunia?"

Lily moaned miserably into his shirt.

"Kidding! I was only kidding!" he said with a laugh, pulling her chin up for another good sound snog. As their hands started to roam and their breath became heavy, Sirius, Peter, and Remus reentered the room.

"The battle has ended!" cried Sirius exuberantly, breaking their kiss by pulling them both into a one-armed hug. "Hoorah! Let's get going before the Death Eaters drink all the rum."

Lily tore herself from Sirius' embrace and flicked him squarely on the nose.

"Ouch! What was that for, you menacing woman?" asked Sirius indignantly, rubbing at the spot.

Remus put an arm around Sirius' shoulder and flicked him in the ear. "Probably for being a wise-arse, Padfoot."

Sirius swatted him away and retorted with his customary, "Get bent, Mooney."

James laughed and put his hand on Sirius' shoulder. "Sorry, mate, but we're staying in tonight."

Sirius looked unsurprised by the news. He let out a cough that purposely failed to disguise the sound of a whip-crack and shuffled resignedly towards the door of the cottage. "Redheads, Prongs. I warned you. I /warned you/."

Peter let out a snort and replied, "This coming from the man who is oh-so-desperate to get us out to the Three Broomsticks... which is obviously just an excuse to disguise his poor attempt at courting a certain rather... buxom… redheaded barmaid?"

Sirius Black rarely blushed, but on the rare occasions he did, it was usually forced by Peter's occasional bouts of lightning quick wit.

"Ah…yes…well, that's completely beside the point," stuttered Sirius.

Lily giggled and stepped around James, giving the three departing men a quick hug as they donned coats and walked out into the chilly autumn air.

Remus called back, "Have fun at the match, you two."

James pulled out his wand and thumbed it threateningly. "Honestly, Moony, you're a dead man."

Remus just laughed it off and waved.

Lily put on her sternest voice, implying that what she had to say next was not a request, but rather, a subtly disguised demand that would have serious consequences if not obeyed. "You three /will /come by for dinner on Tuesday, won't you? Frank and Alice are coming over. We can do a big sit down and catch up."

Sirius halted on the doorstep and gave Lily another quick hug. "Of course we will, Prongslette. There isn't a force on this earth that can keep me from your cooking. James' cooking... yeah... many forces. But yours? Not a one."

James adopted his best wounded puppy-dog face. "Oh come on, Padfoot... It isn't that bad!"

Sirius grimaced as if he were remembering a rather painful memory.

Lily cupped James' cheek and said overly sweetly, "I know you can make pancakes, Honey. It was entirely the pan's fault."

Sirius buttoned up his coat, and leaned forward to whisper into James' ear, before he marched his ridiculous goose step down the front steps. He caught up to Peter and Remus, who were briskly moving out towards the picket fence and past the wards.

Lily called out. "Be safe, boys!"

The three men raised their hands in parting and, with soft pops barely audible in the wind, they disapparated.

Lily shivered, patted James on the chest, and pulled him back inside.

"So, what departing words of wisdom did Mr. Padfoot have for you this time?" she asked curiously.

James turned to look at her, raised his hand, and tweaked her nose. Lily glared at him in mock outrage, growling playfully, as if she knew what he was going to say. He let his hand linger, trailing it down her neck and over the sensitive spot on her collarbone. The purring noise she made whenever his lips found that spot drove him absolutely wild. Lily closed her eyes and stepped closer to him, pressing her hips into his groin, brushing feather light kisses on his neck. His hand went down... thumb swirling around the tip of her breast; down... pausing at the small of her back to have her arch into him with a gasp; down... fingers finding the hem of her dress where silky fabric met the creamy skin of her thigh. He knew this body better than he knew his own. He slipped his hand inside the lining of her lingerie, pressing lightly at the flesh right behind her womanhood. Lily's knees gave out, as he knew they would. She slumped against him, green eyes half-closed in pleasure, moaning his name under her breath.

James' teeth found her earlobe as his free hand tangled into her sweet smelling red hair. He whispered into her neck, "Mr. Padfoot tells me that make-up sex… /is the best sex/." Chuckling, he dropped down, wrapped his arms around her upper thighs, and hoisted her up into a fireman's hold. Carrying a squealing Lily into the bedroom, he turned and used his foot to shut the door with an eager /SLAM/.

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Prologue 2: The Wreckage

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"No Goggy, I jus'… fed yah."

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"Lemm' sleep now tha's a good boy."

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"HAGRID! OPEN THE BLOODY DOOR," screamed a frantic voice.

silence

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"FOR GOD'S SAKE MAN HOW MUCH DID YOU HAVE?"

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He creaked opened a bleary eyelid. It took several moments for his vision to become clear enough for him to realize where he was. There was such a throbbing in his temples that he found it difficult to sit himself up from his bed. "Good grief, me `ead." With a tremendous grunt he lifted himself off the bed and stumbled through the dark, feeling his way along furniture towards the front room of the hut.

"OOMPH." He stumbled over something fleshy and round. There was a loud whine and a scuttling beneath his feet. "Oh sorry there Fang… didn' see yeh." The pup was small, a runt really, and he had spent many an hour trying to find the dog amongst the hidey holes around the hut. In the dark, it was nigh impossible to spot his tiny black body.

He moved slowly towards the door, careful of where he placed his feet so as to not stomp on the tails of any of the other pups from the liter.

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"HAGRID OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW OR I WILL BLOW THE DAMN THING DOWN!"

"MERLIN'S BEARD! I'M COMIN," Hagrid shouted back. He shuffled to the window ledge, picked up his umbrella and tapped it against the door frame. There was a faint shimmer and a soft hum. Hagrid grabbed the door bolt, slid it aside, and wrenched it open in a huff. It was stormy out and he couldn't quite tell who his visitor was.

They were both silent. The man didn't speak, merely stared at him from underneath his sopping wet hood. After several moments of this Hagrid gripped his umbrella in front of him and pointed it at the man's face. He opened his mouth to tell whoever this shady bugger was to shove off, when a brief lightning flash lit up the sky... and the visage under the hood.

"Si-Sirius? What'r yeh doin here? I though' yeh were supposed ter be in hidin wit' Remus and Emmeline up a' the castle?" Hagrid bustled aside and left a space in the doorframe wide enough for Sirius to squeeze past. Hagrid peered out into the rain. It was a typically small highland storm, wind blowing gently, only able to see through 10 or so meters through the fog and rain. He closed the door quietly and turned around. He immediately went cross-eyed, focusing in on the wand tip pressed right into the bridge of his nose.

Sirius spoke in a slow voice that dripped with a steely something... something that Hagrid had never heard before from the jaunty youth's mouth. "Hagrid?" Sirius asked tentatively. "Who did you catch me snogging in your pumpkin patch five years ago this exact night?" Hagrid was dumbfounded for a split second before realizing why there was a threatening piece of holly branch pointing at his face.

"Oh er…" Hagrid racked his brain. "Rosemerta wasn' it?" He let out a heaving guffaw. "Didn' she knee yeh in the bits in surprise? Right spooky sort o' place fer a Holloween kiss if yeh ask me." Hagrid grinned expecting to see a similar expression break out on the young man's face. However, he became extremely concerned when the only acknowledgement of his ribbing was a slump of the shoulders and a drop of the wand.

"Sirius," he whispered cautiously. "Wha's this-?"

"I need my bike, Hagrid… now."

Hagrid's eyes bulged. "Whaaa'? What'r yeh on about? Wha's happened?"

"Hagrid… where is it?" The anger bubbling in Sirius' voice shocked him. It was odd that a man half his size could chill him to the bone with naught but a few words.

"Ou' in the patch," said Hagrid apprehensively.

Without another word Sirius whirled around and threw open the door, stalking out into the rain. Hagrid followed closely behind him, all the while trying to glean why Sirius was so upset. As they made their way across the few hundred meters to the muddy patch of ground where Sirius' bike lay hidden, Hagrid could not help but feel an overwhelming sense of dread. He knew the Death Eaters had been very active as of late. "Sirius… Did summat happen at Hogsmeade? Did summat happen ter Rosie?"

Sirius growled and almost exploded a nearby pumpkin as he randomly disillusioned areas of the patch.

Hagrid's sense of dread deepened.

Sirius found and mounted his uncovered bike, pressing his wand to the ignition. The headlight blazed and the engine roared into life. As the bike began to pull away from the ground, Hagrid reached down and put a hand on the man's shoulder.

He composed himself and asked calmly, "Sirius… Wha's happened?"

Sirius looked down at the overly large hand holding him down on the ground. "He fou-" Sirius took a deep breath. "He found them.../he found them,/ Hagrid."

His hand slid off Sirius' shoulder to fall limply at his side. Hagrid mouthed like a fish, searching for words. "But… /no/. He can't `ave!"

"The wards fell. There's an eighty kilometer anti-apparition field in every direction around Godric's Hollow. Find Dumbledore, I'm sure he already knows." And with that last word the bike rose quickly from the earth. A good fifty meters it had risen, before a monstrous blast of dragon's flame erupted from the rear exhaust pipes. In a flash and a bang, Sirius and his black motorbike were gone.

Hagrid stood rooted to the spot. He didn't know what to think. What to do? He looked up at the castle and saw a silver flash rush out of a tower window overlooking the Great Hall. It sparkled against the paned glass, illuminating the many brilliant colors as it sped down the wall and towards the patch. When it finally reached him, he heard four words from the phoenix patronus that confirmed everything Sirius had said was true.

"Hagrid? My office, please."

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Sirius Black rode like a man possessed, pushing the piece of muggle junk metal to its absolute limit. He had run out of charges for the dragon's fire a few kilometers back. He was so close.

Ten kilometers.

Eight kilometers.

Three.

One... and then he saw it. The skull and the serpent, ghostly and shimmering in the rain.

No!

Sirius crash-landed the bike into the picket fence.

Please, God!

Throwing himself off the smoking machine, he raced across the yard to the front door, ripping his wand from its holster.

Sirius paused outside the door's frame as it had been torn from its hinges... and his Auror training went out the window.

He barreled into the living room, shouting so loudly that he thought his vocal chords would tear. "JAMES! LILY! WHERE ARE YOU?"

Scorch marks and spell burns lined the walls; furniture was missing and upturned; the lamps in the kitchen flickered from the ambient magic he could still taste in the air. The fight had taken place less than an hour ago. What frightened him most were the dead and bloodied corpses of animals strewn all over. Some were only half transfigured.

James...

He saw the bedroom door ajar, holes blasted all along its frame. As he stumbled towards it in the shaky light, his foot kicked something in the shadows.

It flew forward and Sirius gagged.

A severed hand… with a wedding ring. He stared at it numbly as it sat upon the red carpet… red carpet.

The carpet in this house is white.

Sirius reached the bedroom and lit his wand. What he saw inside that room made his heart break a thousand times and a thousand times again. The body lay propped against the dresser. Deep wounds were still bleeding all over; his eyes burned… /no/… gouged out; an arm was dripping blood from the severed wrist. Pain was on his face. His wand was at his side. The shattered glass from the dresser mirror was spread around him, each piece tinged red.

Sirius fell to his knees in front of the body. He dry-retched for a good five minutes before he could look again at James' still form.

Goodbye, my friend.

His knees weak, he stood up shakily. He said no words or prayers, but simply placed a hand on the shoulder of his best friend, his brother, and gripped tightly. Everything that needed to be said had been said already… before they went into hiding.

They... Lily! /She must have gotten away! This fight took enough time for her to run. But… the wards… and the baby./ No. Please be alive!

He picked up the wand next to the body, turned from James, and left the room behind. His eyes locked onto the ceiling above the living room. He didn't want to see it. He didn't want… but he had to.

Sirius slowly climbed the stairs, back against the wall, eyes darting frantically into every visible corner of the house. He reached the landing.

A solitary light shone from the farthest door in the hall. He couldn't yet see into the room, but he felt a cold breeze blowing down towards him. Maybe Lily had taken the baby and climbed out a window? Thoughts hammered through his skull at a million miles a minute. His heart beat loudly. He could feel the blood pulsing quickly through the arteries in his neck and chest. Sliding his back along the wall, he slowly crept all the way up to the door. Silence.

Wind was whistling through the room and out into the hall.

Sirius took a deep breath, trying to steady himself.

Three…

Two…

One…

Now!

He spun into the room, firing several Auror-grade wide-range stunners. When his eyes had adjusted to the light, the first thing he noticed about the room was that his spells kept right on going... and going, and going until they slammed into the side of Bathilda's. The entire back wall of the nursery was blown out.

The second thing he noticed... was an entire lack of the gore and havoc he had witnessed downstairs. The carpet and walls, apart from the missing one, were pristine.

The third thing he noticed was a long black cloak covering the prone form of a pale balding man. He was lying face down on the carpet. There were three rather large stag horns sticking out of his legs and shoulders. Well done, James old boy. You and Lily did what thousands have failed to do. You brought the fucker down.

Yet as soon as he spotted the other body in the room, half hidden behind the crib, the pride he felt for James and Lily vanished. Grief compared only to what he felt downstairs just a few minutes before surged through him.

Lils. Oh Prongslette.

Her eyes, a brilliant green, stared blankly up at him. Her full lips were slightly parted and a large green bruise rested on her left cheek. Her visage wasn't that of shock or terror... like many of the other victims of Voldemort's dreaded curse.

She looks… tranquil.

Sirius bent down and drew his fingers across her eyes, closing them forever. He stared at her still face.

I should have been here. I should have died with you.

When he could bare no more, he turned towards the crib. A flicker of hope flared within him. Had the baby died first? If not…

He stepped slowly towards the small wooden crib he himself had helped James build. And as he looked down into it... that little spark of hope died, snuffed out like a doused candle flame. Blood was cascading from the child's head.

Sirius knelt down, fingers running through his hair.

All gone. They're all gone.

Resting his head against the side of the crib, Sirius cried. He cried for James; cried for Lily; cried for every last man, woman, and child killed in this hellish war. He cried for himself. He had lost his only family; a brother, a sister, and a godchild. And then he cried for Harriet. She was innocent; helpless. Little Harry, murdered in her crib, would never know the joys of life.

He let the sobs wrack his body as every bit of grief hit him like a freight train. His sobs echoed loudly in the quiet nursery. He couldn't have been sitting there for more than a few minutes, but it felt like days. Even though he was still wallowing in his misery, his breathing evened, and his choking sobs slowed.

A fitting silence reigned over the small cottage.

Gurgle

Sirius jumped a foot in the air, hitting his head hard on the sharp end of the crib. Cursing and gripping his forehead in his hands, he stood.

Coogurglebb

His eyes widened as he gazed once more into the crib. Blood was still everywhere, all over the child, but two bright green eyes stared back at him! The green orbs were moving, following him as he swayed unsteadily over the bed. Sirius beheld Harriet Lily Potter alive and seemingly well... albeit in a pool of her own blood.

She was the spitting image of her mother, same green eyes, same little nose, same petite mouth… well she had the trademark Potter hair; jet black and sticking up every which way. Sirius remembered the last time he had seen her. Just a tiny, fat, pink, hairless… ball. She had gurgled and grasped at his fingers as her father had held her for all to see for the first time. He had fallen completely in love with that tiny ball of pudge when she had reached for his pinky. The fact that she was lying here in her crib, frail, blood-spattered, parentless, looking exactly like Lily and James, and grasping once again for his pinky, shattered the last little bit of his already broken heart.

She was cuddling something. It was...

He choked out a noise that was both a sob of misery and a bark of laughter.

It was the tiny plush broomstick Sirius had gotten her at the small store in St Mungo's. It looked thoroughly chewed on. He picked up one of the nappie cloths beside the crib and wiped the blood from her beautiful little face.

When he saw it, he almost screamed.

A jagged cut ran down the left side of her forehead, beginning to ooze a fresh coat of blood into her eye.

It was not just any cut though. The edges of the skin around it were bruised a green as vivid as her eyes; the very same green that rested upon Lily's cheek.

Sirius looked back to Lily. He knew as an Auror and former Unspeakable, the true nature of the Killing curse. It was the aura of the spell that and kills you, not the direct hit. A killing curse that contacts skin will leave a dark green bruise on the body for several days. A hit on your hair or your clothing still kills you, but you don't bruise.

He switched his gaze back and forth between the two with incredulity. No. That's impossible. How is that possible? He glanced at the man on the floor and wondered... No... that's... absolutely impossible!

The little girl in the crib let go of his pinky and lay back on the coverlet of her crib, waving her feet in the air and gurgling happily. The blood from her cut looked like it was clotting. It was a deep wound and would be a horrible scar, even if a healer could get at it right away. Dark magic wounds could never be fully healed.

He reached into the crib and picked Harry up, cradling her in one arm. She gurgled in protest and began to cry.

Hmmm... aha!

Reaching into the crib, he pulled out the chewed-up broomstick and dangled it in front of her. The crying slowed and a little chubby arm reached out for it. He let her hand close around it and the tattered plush twigs of the toy promptly found themselves in her mouth.

"/Oh Harry/... I'm so sorry." As he rocked her slowly, she let out a little yawn and fell asleep in his arms. He brushed his thumb across her cheek and her head turned into his touch. "You'll stay with me now. When you're older, I'll... I'll tell you all about them." Bending down, he picked up Lily's wand, shot the most powerful stunner he could muster into the obviously dead body of Lord Voldemort, and left the nursery.

Through the windows, he could see lights moving outside the house.

Aurors must be setting up the perimeter. /Took them bloody well long enough./

Sirrius walked down the steps and out through the front door. Several things happened at once. Shouts from every corner of the yard echoed against the house. Shadows flanked him. Impediment jinxes flew from every direction. Standard aftermath procedure after a Dark Mark site becomes secured. Freeze anyone not in a hood and mask. Cutters, stunners, and bone breakers for everyone else.

"IT'S JUST BLACK! STAND DOWN!" Dawlish strode forward and unfroze him, letting his wand linger. "Sirius, you brewed me a love potion in our fourth year. Who did I administer it to?"

Sirius would have grinned on any other day, but today... on this horrible night... he found that he could not. "Narcissa Black," he wheezed in a tired voice.

Dawlish looked him up and down for several moments before speaking, "What are you doing here? I thought you were stationed at Hogwarts."

"I felt the wards fall. I'm keyed in."

Dawlish gave him an apprehensive glance, "James? Lily?"

Sirius shook his head.

Dawlish looked down at the sleeping girl in Sirius' arms. "You got here in time to drive them off then?"

"No."

"What? What do you mean 'no?' How is the child alive?"

"I didn't…. I didn't get here in time. Voldemort himself did the job." At this Dawlish and the ten other Aurors in his brigade stormed into action, racing for the house, forming shields and flanking positions. Sirius called out, "There's no need. He's gone."

Dawlish looked at him blankly and said, "Gone? He just left without killing the daughter? He was hell bent on killing every last Potter. Merlin knows why."

"No, Dawlish. Gone. Dead. Upstairs, third door on the right." Sirius gestured absentmindedly, his eyes returning to the scar on Harry's forehead. Dawlish spluttered incoherently before his thoughts seemed to form rational patterns.

"But Black, how can he be… if you got here too late… Did James and Lily wound him?"

Sirius considered the child in his arms before he spoke. "Well, James managed to puncture flesh... but nothing that seemed fatal. Lily… I couldn't tell you. It almost looks like she went quietly in the nursery. Dawlish, this might sound crazy, but I think she did it."

Dawlish looked at him strangely and asked, "Who? Lily?"

"No... Harry. Dawlish, look at the bruise around the cut. It's a curse scar. I'm sure of it."

Dawlish was a smart man; not a powerful man, but definitely a smart one. You had to be the slightest bit brilliant to become an Auror Captain. What Sirius was trying to convey was not lost on him. "Black what you're suggesting here is absolutely impossible. No one survives it. It can't be done. The spell is literally death. Death in corporeal form. It can't be stopped, it won't stop until the wizard's energy from the spell dissipates or it absorbs enough life. It even kills those little germs floating in the air that the muggles are so fond of. You're actually telling me that You-know-who's Avada Kedavra bounced off the forehead of a girl in diapers and hit him instead?"

"Yes. I actually think I am," he said slowly, trying to convince himself as well. "Maybe this was it. The prophecy. Maybe it said she could end him. I knew he was after them due to a prophecy I mean, but I was never told what it said." Pacing back and forth with Harry in his arms, Sirius tried to make sense of it all. "What I really want to know is how the Fidelius broke in the first place. The keeper was totally secure."

Dawlish gave him no support in answering his questions. He was looking nervously at the house. "Black, are you sure he's dead? There isn't some kind of a trap waiting for us up there is there? Because if he's gone… well, if he's gone, we can… we can all be free from this war. It means we've won." Dawlish's voice got lighter and more energetic as he spoke.

"We didn't win, Dawlish." A surge of violent anger coursed through him and he wanted bloody revenge for this atrocity. "And if that monster isn't dead then he's sure as hell in a coma after the stunner I…" Sirius trailed off as a shadowy figure a few streets down skittered around a corner.

"Oi, Sirius!" Hagrid came barreling down the road as fast as a broomstick could fly. "Dumbledore is ou'side the Apparition wards tryin to take em down. He told me to come and find yeh. Not let yeh out of me sight he says."

Sirius was paying little attention to Hagrid, however. His eyes were fixated on the corner. /Oh no... Please, tell me you didn't. /When his attention snapped back to the present situation, he realized he would not be able to do anything with Harry still in his arms. "Hagrid. Harry survived. I need you to take her to Dumbledore. Use my bike. Dawlish can fix it for you. I'll be back." Sirius shrugged off the sleeping child into one of Hagrid's enormous arms and ran off toward the street down which he had seen the shadow disappear.

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"Survived… Sirius! Wai' come back!" But the Auror had already sprinted around the street corner at full speed. Hagrid could do nothing but watch him sprint away. He looked down at the sleeping girl with amazement. She survived!

Walking over to Dawlish, they got the bike standing and repaired for travel. Dawlish barked orders to his brigade about clean-up and containment. "Abbot, McMillan, go after Black. He must've been on to something. They'll watch him. Hagrid, you can assure Dumbledore. I imagine the Headmaster thinks he might do something rash." The two fittest Aurors of the bunch went jogging off in the direction Sirius had taken. "Well Hagrid, best get on your way back to the Headmaster."

"Aye," Hagrid sighed deeply, "tha' I should." The giant man straddled the bike, the seat magically expanding to fit his overly large size. He shifted the small girl from one arm to the other so he could fit her properly in the sidecar. As he had pulled away, her tiny hand had tried to wrap around one of his fingers. When she could not wrap her fingers around the massive digits that were Hagrid's fingers, she grunted unhappily and her bright emerald eyes flew open. She stared at Hagrid unrelentingly, as if he had done her some great personal wrong. As Hagrid stared intently back into those big green orbs, a small plush broomstick made its way into the girls mouth. Hagrid threw back his head with a great bark of laughter. Harry withdrew the broomstick from her mouth, smiled a wide three toothed smile, wiggled her feet, and let out a gurgle that could not be understood by adult ears. Hagrid found her smile to be infectious. Grinning at her, he said gently, "Hullo, `Arry... or should I say Lily? I'm Hagrid."

She blew a raspberry and made a loud happy squawk as the bike lifted off the ground.

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Sirius threw himself down an alley, chasing after the short man that had just dodged into it. He was running as fast as he could and was gaining on his prey. Sirius' legs were long and he was quite fit, while the man running from him... was quite a different story. Sirius could tell he was slowing, losing his energy. Yet the slightly pudgy man could still run bloody fast, the fear of being caught driving and pushing his adrenaline levels to their limit.

It was always the case back at school. Whenever they were about to get caught performing some late night prank, this boy would always be the first one back to the common room.

Sirius thanked his lucky stars that Voldemort had put up anti-animagus wards laced through the anti-apparition barrier. It was both a stag trap... and a rat trap. The rat would have gotten away long since had this not been the case.

Sirius screamed furiously at the man in front of him, accentuating his screams with stunners and bone-breakers. "GIVE IT UP, PETER! YOU CAN'T GET AWAY WHILE THE WARDS ARE UP! IT'S AT LEAST FORTY KILOMETERS TO THE BARRIER'S EDGE. SLOW DOWN, MY FRIEND! I JUST... WANT... TO... TALK!"

Peter yelled nothing back, just dodged into alley after alley, using his magic to thrust debris into Sirius' path and block the oncoming spells.

Peter, somewhat like Dawlish, didn't have the power to throw high powered stunners and curses around like baseballs. He had to rely on shield charms, conjuring, hexes, and his own resourcefulness. Peter was the type of duelist that would notice that you were dodging most of the spells that he sent towards you, so he would freeze the floor with a household freezing charm, throw a mass of nonverbal jelly-leg jinxes that you couldn't distinguish from stunners, and then conjure ropes to bind you after you had slipped on the ice while trying to dodge his spells. He didn't need to overpower you. He was just more aware of his surroundings than other people were. Peter seemed to have a very strong survival drive that always gave him the edge. Of all the Marauders, only Remus, with his vast knowledge of spells, could best him consistently.

But tonight, of all nights, Peter wasn't going to best him or use a bit of cunning to slip from his fingers. Sirius was driven by the rage and grief of a betrayal.

"PETER!" They rounded the edge of a building and came out into a large, clear, suburban street. "I. SAID. SLOW. DOWN!" Four bone breakers left his wand. The first two were wide by a foot or so and went sailing into a red tank that sat propped against the nearest house.

But the second two...

The second two hit home.

Peter screamed in agony as his wrist and shin shattered. Tripping over his feet, he dropped his wand, landed flat on his face, and rolled nastily across the hard concrete.

Before Peter could recover, Sirius caught up with him. He stomped down on the black-ash wand the smaller man was scrambling for and was rewarded with a sharp /CRACK/.

Peter moaned in despair.

Smiling in satisfaction, Sirius pulled back his leg and, with an angry grunt, kicked Peter in the stomach. He kicked out again and again, breaking down in anguished sobs as he did so.

Peter curled himself into a ball, trying to shield himself from Sirius' blows. Eventually, he was able to grab onto a leg and hold it in place to his chest.

Losing his footing, Sirius fell on top of the smaller man with a /thwump/. They struggled, but he managed to free his arm. Pulling it back, he punched Peter in the jaw as hard as he could and felt two of his fingers break. Ignoring the pain, he pulled back and slugged the little rat again while Peter groaned and cowered beneath him.

Sirius was about to let loose the next strike, when he heard the man's quivering voice say, "Padfoot… please."

He grasped Peter's collar roughly and screamed venomously, "PLEASE? PLEASE? WE ALL SPENT A YEAR LOCKED UP JUST SO YOU COULD MAKE THE WRONG CHOICE! YOU DON'T GET A SECOND CHANCE YOU LITTLE SLIMY BASTARD!"

Sirius pressed on Peter's windpipe and the small man's face started to swell and turn blue.

"Prongs… /gasp …/wouldn't-"

Sirius roared, dragged Peter upwards, and slammed him into the nearest lamppost. "YOU DON'T EVER GET TO SAY THAT NAME AGAIN! YOU LOST YOUR GODDAMNED RIGHT! YOU'RE NOT WORMTAIL! YOU'RE A BLOODY DEATH EATER. YOU DESERVE WHAT YOU DEAL OUT!/TRAITOR!/ He screamed that last word as loud as he could.

Lights flickered on in many of the nearby houses, but neither man noticed.

Sirius threw Peter down to the ground and collapsed next to him, wiping the sweat and tears from his own cheeks.

Peter grunted as he arranged his broken body into a position in which he would feel the least amount of pain.

"Why?" Sirius asked with sob.

Peter looked at him contemplatively, but said nothing.

"WHY?" he screamed. "How... How could you do it?"

Peter remained silent.

"How could you do it to James? To me? We treated you like a brother the second you stood up next to us when Malfoy called you a Mudblood on the train. How could you do it to Lily? The one person who would listen to your problems because she knew exactly what it was like? To Remus? The man who taught you everything you know about magic. We both know you're dyslexic and can't read a textbook to save your damned life. He spent months sitting with you in the common room, dictating descriptions of spell after spell, potion after potion. His kindness and patience is the reason you're not the equivalent of a squib! How could you do it to Harry? You're her uncle! Not in blood but by bond. You killed your own brother, your own sister. You betrayed us all and you deserve to /burn/!"

Gazing at him demurely, Peter whispered, "Yes... I do/." He gave a small chuckle and continued. "I never told you that the hat wanted to put me in Ravenclaw first, did I? It saw my intelligence, my desire to learn, to succeed in this world of magic. Yet it also saw my disorder. I would never be welcomed in Rowena's house. Don't you remember how long it took the Hat to decide? I had traits that three of the four houses prized, yet the Hat could not decide for me. Finally it asked me where I'd /like to go. I saw you sitting at the Gryffindor table; I saw James behind me in line and I knew he would be sitting there soon."

Peter gave him a sad smile. "So, I asked the hat to put me there as well. It yelled 'Gyrffindor'… even when I didn't have an ounce of bravery in my body. I knew I had no place there, but I chose to stay. You know the story after that. We all became great friends. You know, I had even convinced myself that you were my real friends, not just protectors and benefactors."

"We were your friends, Peter! We always were!"

Peter ignored him. "When you asked me to be the secret-keeper instead of yourself, I was so incredibly honored. Imagine that for once, the three great Marauders needed the fourth for more than just an extra body on prank quests. So, I took that honor and held it to the best of my ability. I hid in the Shack. I was going to wait out the war. Sit and wait until Dumbledore finished him off for good. But he found me... well, Snape found me really. He and the Dark Lord were looking for ways into the school. Snape remembered the Shack and he noticed my rat form as I slept."

Peter shivered. "Snape summoned the Dark Lord. God... Sirius, he's terrifying. He ripped the knowledge of the Fidelious from my mind, yet he could only learn James and Lily's exact location if I told him willingly. They tortured me for hours and hours. I knew I would die if I didn't give them what they wanted. When the time came to either speak or die... I gave in. The Fidelious broke and I knew James, Lily, and Harry would be dead within the hour. I am... I am glad the girl survived... and I am so glad he is gone."

Sirius growled at him.

Peter winced and continued. "At that moment, I knew that I deserved to die. I'm a weak man, Sirius. I cared not for my friends in that moment. I cared only about the pain inflicted upon my body. I cared only about continuing to live my meager existence. It was always about me surviving. I chose Gryffindor that day because I wanted to be safe from thugs like Malfoy and his band of goons. But I'm not a Gryffindor. I'm not a brave man, Sirius. I couldn't be brave enough to face my death. I don't belong in any one of the houses. I am not worthy of the magic I own. The only reason I appeared here tonight was to make sure Voldemort would not come after me had the Potters not been there."

Monologue over, Peter gazed hollowly at him.

Sirius raked his eyes over the bloody man and whispered fiercely, "Y/ou should have died!/ Had it been you in their place I would've... we would've... well, I think you should know that for a short time on this earth /Peter/, there were four people that would have risked their lives to save your own."

He glared at the man, stood slowly, and looked down the narrow street. Muggles were crowding at their living room windows to see what the commotion outside had been all about. Seeing two men out alone in the middle of the night wearing shabby and strange clothes usually meant a pair of quarreling vagrants. Many turned off the lights, yet a few lingered, peering out through their curtains.

"That sounded much like something you would say at a eulogy, Sirius."

Sirius bent down and pushed the wand tip into Peter's throat. "I should do it/, you little rat!/"

Peter nodded. "You should. Although, I don't want you to. All I live for is the ability to live. But maybe... maybe I wouldn't feel so scared if it was you that did it."

He killed James. He killed Lily. He killed our family. He as good as killed himself.

Sirius' eyes hardened. "The ability to live? Spoken like a true /Death Eater/, Peter."

"Then do it. Kill me. I'm a man that kills to survive and I'm going to keep right on doing it. I will keep destroying families and lives if I must." Peter spat blood from his mouth onto the concrete. "I am ready. Are you?"

Sirius moved closer to his once friend. He leaned down and spoke softly into Peter's ear, "I would never."

"Then we're at an impasse."

"No. You have two choices. One: stay here under my wand tip and wait for the Aurors, who are sure to be closing in on us. You will be taken to a Ministry holding cell, await trial, be tried as a willing accomplice to murder, and receive a minimum sentence of forty years. Two: I let you leave. Completely walk away. You leave the country. In two weeks without James and Lily, I will change my mind, hunt you down, and you'll go through step one anyway. In that time on the run... you might be able to find some peace of mind."

"Those don't sound like very good options to me, Sirius."

"The deepest circles of hell, Peter, are reserved for those that betray their family. Your options are already severely limited."

"But what about choice three, Sirius? I like my chances with choice three much better." Peter had caught sight of the winking lit wand tips rushing down the road from the distance. His grey eyes narrowed, and then he grimaced. "The wards fell. You knew I was stalling. You should have killed me, Sirius, and I'm sorry for this."

Before Sirius could even think to cast a spell, Peter hurled one of the broken pieces of his wand at the red tank several feet behind them. Nothing happened. He looked back at Peter who was glaring at him, face full of anger, blood dripping down his hand. The Aurors chose that exact moment to apparate to Sirius' side.

"JAMES! LILY! SIRIUS, HOW COULD YOU?"

Realizing what Peter was doing, he raised his wand. His lips opened. His wand tip flicked upward to form the rudimentary stunner... and the world itself exploded around him. It was if he was the conductor and the destruction of the entire street was his symphony's opening chord. Knocked off his feet, he landed on his back with his ears and temples pounding from the blast.

Sirius groaned and tried to piece together what had just happened. He was... he was waiting for enough gas to rise out of that tank you smashed! His wand core is Firecrab tail, he was waiting for the wards to fall, and waiting for witnesses. He framed you. He played you. A repeat performance of your schoolyard duels. You slipped on his household freezing charm, and he bound you tight with ropes.

Rat: one. //Dog: zero.

Even with his entire life crashing down around him, even with the wands he felt pressing into the nape of his neck, Sirius threw back his head and laughed uproariously. Peter Pettigrew had just pulled the greatest prank in the history of the Marauders. It was really too bad that only he and Peter were in on the joke.

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