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BABETTE

The police man followed me home and escorted me to the door. I felt like a teenager again, and not in a good way. He knocked on the door and to my horror Gerard answered it. I hung my head in shame as I felt his eyes stare me down. I hadn’t felt so embarrassed in my life.

“Does this belong to you?” the police man asked him. I peeked up at Gerard. He had his arms crossed and he was glaring at me and frowning. He looked like a shamed father.

“Yep.” Gerard said, glaring over me. I shot my head back down and stared at my feet. The police man handed me over and Gerard grabbed me by the collar and practically dragged me into the bedroom. We passed through the halls and passed everybody who was staring at me like I was a freak show.

Gerard tossed me into the room and I rubbed my neck which was sore from being dragged. I took a seat in a chair and Gerard paced the room, looking livid and sad at the same time.

“What is the matter with you?” Gerard started at me. I bit my lip. There was no way for me to defend myself on this one. “Answer me!” he snapped. I cringed and felt my eyes watering. His cheek was still red.

“Do you have ANY idea how worried I was about you? Do you? Look at me god damn it!” he shouted out at me as he paced. I forced myself to look up at him. I had never seen him so stressed before. I felt like I was being scolded by my mother or something, not Gerard. But I felt guilty none the less.

“Gerard, I’m sorry.” I said, my voice breaking. Gerard sighed as I shook out a small sob and looked back down. What was wrong with me? How could I have done this to him?

“Sorry isn’t good enough Babes! You can’t do that to me. You can’t just run off like that. I was so, so scared. You could’ve gotten hurt or you could’ve hurt yourself. You might have gotten in an accident or something. Do you know how worried I was? If something happened to you I just- I just don’t know…” Gerard said, his voice cracking terribly. I made myself look at him to see he was biting back tears. My heart gave out.

“Gerard, no, please don’t cry. I’m so, so sorry. I don’t know what I was doing I just- I just had to get out. I couldn’t-I don’t know. I’m sorry.” I said, the words fumbling dumbly out of my mouth. There was no excuse for my erratic behavior. Gerard deserved better than this. Hearing those worried words escape his mouth melted my resolve. I stood up and went over to him but he brushed me away just as I had done to him only an hour ago. I watched sadly as he wiped his eyes impatiently before turning to me again.

“Don’t ever do that to me again. You can never understand how scared I was.” Gerard said finally. He took a seat on the bed and cupped his face in his hands dejectedly. Not sure what I could do to make him feel any better, I careful sat next to him. I debated whether or not to touch his back for fear that he would shrug me off again. After a few seconds I thought I deduced to rub his back gingerly and to my surprise and relief he was still.

“Hey now…are you gonna be alright?” I asked very, very quietly. Gerard shook his head without looking up and I bit my lip attentively. After a moment’s contemplation I slowly wrapped my arms around Gerard, resting my head on the back of his shoulder. It was strange not having his hair in my face. I almost missed it.

“Gerard, you are the most empathic person on this earth. You’re too caring and kind for your own good. You want everybody to be happy but you forget about yourself sometimes. I know you want to make sure I’m alright. But you need to worry about yourself, okay? I’m a big girl; I can take care of myself. I tie my own shoes and everything.” I said, offering him a small smile. He looked up at me with wide hazel eyes that shimmered in the low light of the room and made my heart skip a beat.

“But I feel like it’s my job to look after you. You and Mikey, y’know? Like it’s my duty or some shit. I’m supposed to be there for you.” He said earnestly. My heart gave a little sigh and a little swoon. After all this time together he could still remind me of how he had stolen my heart.

“Baby, I know. And you do such a good job of looking out for us. You’ve done so much to protect me and Mikey. But promise me you’ll remember yourself.” I said with a smile, rubbing his lower back and squeezing him.

“You know this doesn’t get you off the hook.” He said sternly. I cursed under my breath and he laughed and sniffed. I kissed his slightly red nose.

“Hm…I wonder what will…” I said suggestively. Gerard chuckled and raised his eyebrows.

I pounced on him and threw him back on the bed. I kissed his face and his neck and stroked his chest. He let out breathy gasps as my hands moved southward. I pulled the buttons off his shirt and kissed him all the way down until my lips met his belt and his pants, which I undid and yanked open. I ran my lips over his inner thighs and the tip of my tongue over his arrection, teasing him. His hands grasped the sheets around them and he moaned loudly. I found myself getting turned on by the fact that I could turn him on like this. It made me feel like I had some sort of power and it was great. But of course, just as I had opened my mouth-

“I see you guys are back to normal-OH GOOD GOD!” Frank said as he entered the room without knocking. He saw us and made of face of disgust and hilarity before running out of the door. Gerard immediately went soft and I sat up again.

“Well, we tried.” He said, kissing my cheek. I grimaced and sighed. Trying wasn’t enough for me anymore.