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~ Chapter Four ~

Frank drove us to the bus, laughing all the way. I was on the back seat, alone, and Gerard was beside him, looking outside, trying to ignore him; but I was too impulsive to simply ignore him.
- Hey, Frank – I said, trying not to be too hard on him.
- Yes? – He asked, laughing.
- You saw what I’ve done to Brian yesterday, haven’t you? – I asked him, now with a threatening tone.
- Yes… - he replied, not laughing anymore.
- I can do worse than that. This was just… something I wanted you to know – I told him, getting to the front in the seat; meaning: my head was beside his.
- Okay… Good to know, then – he replied, and stopped the car. – We arrived… perverts! – He said, laughing, and ran from the car, slamming the door.
I rolled my eyes, and even laughed a bit; I’d never hurt him; he was too cute and funny. I got out of the car, and Gerard came with me to the trunk, to get our bags. After we had our bags, he held my hand, but I stopped him to walk towards the bus.
- I gotta tell you something… - I told him, and he looked worried at me.
- What’s up? – He asked, afraid of my answer.
- I’m in love – I said, and looked away. He left my hand, and stepped back.
- ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? I was just your little puppet, weren’t I? Well, great, you had what you wanted: sex with a fucking rock star. Are you happy, now? ARE YOU? – He asked, and started walking to the bus again, mad.
I grabbed his arm, stopping him with all the strength I had (I think I hurt him).
- NO! IT’S NOT THAT! – I screamed, and he turned to me, crying.
- What is it, then? What the fuck is it? – He asked, looking at my hand on his arm, and I took it off.
- I meant that… I’m in love… - I started, but he interrupted me.
- I understood that, Chloe – he was bored, but I continued.
- … with you.
He looked at me, but I decided I should give him some space, so, I started walking to the bus… That wasn’t exactly a good idea, ‘cause, the moment I got in, I saw Brian. I ignored him, and asked Frank to show me where I should leave my bag, since I didn’t know the bus, and they had already been looking around it.
- You’re not going to talk to him? – Frank asked when we were in the bunks.
I sat down on my bunk, the lower from the right side, and just looked at him, sad.
- Not yet. What he did yesterday… hurt me. It’s still hurting, Frank. I can’t face him right now – I told him, and he decided to change the subject.
- Where’s Gee? – He asked, thinking that would cheer me up, but it just torn me down.
- Well, I decided I should give him some space, since I just told him I think I’m in love with him… He didn’t seem pretty happy – I said, looking sadder than before.
- Well, probably he’s just confused on how to act… No one told him that, before – Frank replied, and then someone pulled him away from my bunk, and kissed me.
I got surprised by that, but the kiss was just like one second, then, I got up, and Gee hugged me.
- I think I’m in love with you, too, Cee. I fucking love you – he said, spinning me around, and making both me and Frank laugh.
- I told ya’ – he said, and left the room, leaving us alone.
- He told you what? – Gee asked, curious, still hugging me.
- Hum, that you should be thinking on how to react to what I told you – I replied, smiling. Then, I kissed him. – Hum, I really think I’m in love with you.
- So do I, baby. I love you – he said, looking deep in my eyes.
- I love you, Gee – I replied, smiling.
We kissed again, but got interrupted by a knock on the door.
- Chloe, I need to talk to you – I heard Brian say, but I wasn’t ready to face him yet. – Okay, you don’t want to open the door, I’ll talk anyway. I know I was a bastard last night, but I got hurt when you ran after Gerard. I didn’t want to tell you this from here, but…
I opened up my eyes the most I could, looking worried at Gee.
- I have a crush on him since I first heard about My Chemical Romance… I never told you this ‘cause I never had the courage to tell you that… But, yes, I’m gay. Since I’m a teenager I feel more attracted to boys than to girls, and I couldn’t control, yesterday. I’m so fucking sorry… But I’m okay. I already know you two spent the night together, don’t worry, I’m fine. Just, please, don’t tell him nothing, I don’t want him to think I’m a fucking stocker, or something. I realized that I don’t feel anything at all for him. I… okay, I might feel a little bit attracted to him, but it’s not a big deal. I just don’t want him to know, I don’t want him to be afraid of me – Brian continued, and I totally forgot what he had done, and went to open the door.
- You shouldn’t have said that – I told him, alarmed. Then, Gee appeared behind me, and Brian was chocked.
- Fuck! – He said, flushing, looking like a tomato.
- Don’t worry, dude. It’s okay. It happened before with me, no worries. But I really hope you don’t get hurt if I’m with your sister – Gee told him, surprising me.
Brian looked at his feet, and I could understand he wasn’t flushing anymore; he even laughed a bit.
- It’s okay, Gerard. I’m okay, I promise – Brian told him, looking up. – Do you think we could talk a bit, sis? – He asked me, looking sad.
I turned to Gee, and kissed his cheek (I didn’t want to hurt Brian’s feelings).
- Hey, you can kiss him, I don’t mind – Brian said, laughing.
I kissed Gee on his lips, slightly, and then, he left, and Brian got in.
- Cee, I’m so sorry… I don’t know what’s gotten into me, last night. I guess I was just confused and shit. I’m really sorry; I never meant to hurt you. I don’t even know why I drank, that shit tasted bad as… shit – Brian said, sitting on his bunk.
I wasn’t a person to give second chances… I always thought it was useless; but I couldn’t be like this with my own twin, he was just too important.
- Bry, just promise you’ll never drink again – I asked, sad.
- Cee, I promise I’ll never hurt you again – he replied, and I sat on his lap, hugging him and crying. – It’s okay, Cee. We’re okay.
- I know, but I can’t stop thinking of mom and dad, after last night… They’re images appear to me… I miss them so much, Bry…
- I miss them too, Cee. But we have to keep moving on, or we’ll just die. We can’t be always down; we have to face this from the positive side, Chloe.
- Which is…? – I asked, confused.
- We still have each other – he replied, and I hugged him so tightly I forgot my strength.
- You’re suffocating me, Cee – he said, laughing smoothly, and I stopped hugging him.
- Sorry, Bry. Sometimes I just forget how strong I am – I replied, crying.
- Yeah, you do. And on times like that you cut yourself… What’s the use of that, Chloe? You just hurt yourself even more – Brian told me, and I looked away.
- I rather feel physical pain than emotional – I told him. – It’s too hard to handle with all the heartaches, all this shit is just too much, Bry. At least, when I feel some physical pain, I’m able to forget the emotional one…
Brian turned my head to him, and saw me crying.
- I’ll never let anyone hurt you again, Cee.
Brian said, and then hugged me, like he was going to protect me from anything. I cried on his shoulder, and started to feel sleepy. I was just about to fall asleep when a knock on the door woke me up.
- Yes? – I asked, sleepy, which made Brian laugh.
- It’s Frank. We’re going to get something to eat, are you guys coming? – He asked, opening the door and laughing when he saw me almost sleeping on Brian’s shoulder.
- Sure – I replied, and then remembered something. – Oh, Frank, wait, I need to tell you something.
I got up, and Frank looked confused when I got closer to him. I moved slowly, and, when I was just one feet away, I started tickling him, just because I had to make him pay for what he said on the car.
I didn’t stop until he was curled on the floor, laughing.
- What was that about? – He asked, trying to control his giggles.
- Well, since you’re too cute to hurt, I thought on another way to make you pay for what you said when we arrived, and this was what I came with – I replied, smiling and getting him up.
- Oh, fine… Never do that again. Next time I’m forced to do the same to you – he replied, smiling too.
- Well, if you don’t say a thing about my personal life, nothing happens to you – I answered, trying to stay serious, but failing.
- Okay, we have a deal.
- Yep, a deal – I replied, and shook his hand.
After that, we met the rest of the guys, and Gee came to me.
- So, are you good with Bry? – He asked, smiling and holding my hands.
- Yep. We’re fine – I replied, and kissed him.
I was on heaven; that was the only explanation I could find to all of my happiness.