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It's close to midnight and all the guys are in their rooms with the girls they had picked up at the clubs. All except Tommy who wanders up and down the dim hallway. His long hair bouncing as he makes his way to the end of the hall. He takes a long drag on his cigarette before he knocks on the door at the end of the hallway. This room is Nikki's.
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Tommy's POV
I have a feeling that Sixx isn't with any girls tonight, he just doesn't seem interested in groupies anymore. I wonder why that is. He's been acting kind of weird lately. Oh well, it's probably just the drugs. I really hope he has some blow and JD so we can hang out for a while. I loudly knock once before opening the door. It's not like it matters if I just barge in, we're practically brothers for christ's sake. Nikki lifts his head as I walk in. He is sitting on his bed, notebook and pen in hand. I wonder what he's writing.

Nikki's POV
I look up from my notebook and see Tommy, the picture of perfection, standing in my doorway. I panic and slam the book shut. "Whatcha writin' Sixx?" Tommy questions as he walks toward me. "Nothing special, just another song." I respond while trying to keep my voice from trembling. He sits at the end of the bed and hands me his cigarette. "You look like you could use this. You alright man?" he asks, eyes full of concern, as he slides over next to me. "Yeah T-Bone why wouldn't I be?" I ask him before taking a long drag on the smoke that was just held by his perfect lips. "I don't know Sixx, you seem kinda edgy lately." he shrugs and lays back on the bed.

Tommy's POV
Nikki laughs shakily, "Maybe I just need some JD to calm down." he stands up and grabs a bottle. "So what's the song called?" I ask as I steal the bottle from his hand and take a swig of Jack. "It's called Without You." he says, taking the bottle back. I watch as he drinks down almost half of the bottle. "Hey dude you got any blow?" I ask before he passes out drunk. He walks over to his suitcase and pulls out a vile and a blade. He hands me a straw while he makes the lines. "So who's the song for? It kinda sounds like a love song." I tease after doing a couple lines. He takes the straw and does a bump. "Uh... No one T-Bone. You know I'm kinda tired, see you tomorrow?" he asks, his face laced with worry. "Yeah um... sure Sixx. See ya." I shrug as I jam my hands into my pockets. I climb off the bed and make my way to the door. What the fuck was that all about?

Nikki's POV
I watch as Tommy slowly walks away. He moves so easily and beautifully that I have to stare. When he leaves I smash my head into my hands and pull my hair. What the fuck is wrong with me?! Why do I keep thinking like this? He's my best friend! I stumble over and pick up my notebook. I thumb through it until I find the page that I had been working on. I slowly run my fingers over the title.
'Without You (Tommy's song)'
Without you, there's no change
My nights and days are grey
If I reached out and touched the rain
It just wouldn't feel the same
Without you, I'd be lost
I'd slip down from the top
I'd slide down so low
Oh you'd never, never know...
Without you, without you
A sailor lost at sea
Without you, Tommy The world comes down on me
Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...
Without you, my hope is small
Let me be me all along
You let the fires rage inside
Knowing someday I'd grow strong Without you, without you
A sailor lost at sea
Without you, Tommy
The world comes down on me
Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...
I could face a mountain
But I could never climb alone
I could start another day
But how many, just don't know
You're the reason the sun shines down
And the nights, they don't grow cold
Only you that I'll hold when I'm young
Only you...as we grow old
Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...
I quickly cross out Tommy's name throughout the song and drain the bottle of Jack. If I showed that to Vince or Mick they'd kick me out of Crüe for sure. Ugh what the fuck is wrong with me?!
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The next day at rehearsals Nikki introduces his new song to the rest of the band. They think it's great and decide to start practicing it for their next gig.
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The next night
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Tommy's POV
I stare deeply into the mirror as I fix my hair and make up. I'm really worried that Nikki has gotten into some deep trouble. He was acting really weird the other night, like even weirder than when he shoots smack. I hope he's alright, I really care about him. "Five minutes you guys!" I hear Vince yell from down the hall. I put my hairspray down, grab my drumsticks and walk out. I have this weird feeling in my gut like something different is going to happen, something unexpected and out of the ordinary. Ordinary, I laugh a little, what the fuck do I know about ordinary? I grab a beer before I get behind my drums and try to calm myself down. "You guys look fuckin' awesome tonight! Are you ready to make some noise?!" Vince screams at the crowd. "Well we've got something a little different for you tonight! This is a brand new song written by our own Nikki Sixx!" Vince says as Nikki runs over and grabs the mic. "Hey, you guys are great! I want you to know that I wrote this song for someone who is really special to me." he tells the raving crowd. Wait a minute, I'm confused. He told me it wasn't for anyone. What is he hiding?

Nikki's POV
As I walk back to my spot I look over my shoulder at Tommy and smile. I was hoping he wouldn't see, but he was staring straight at me with confusion dominating his face. Why the fuck did I just say that? Now he's gonna ask me about who it's for and I'm gonna have to lie to him... again! I wish I could just run off the stage right now and never have to see his beautiful face again. It's killing me that I can't tell him about what I've been feeling. It's been eating away at my insides and now it's just getting out of hand! Okay Sixx, focus. Now is not the time or place to think about this. I return my attention to the gig and begin to play.
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After the show
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Tommy's POV
I'm racing down the hallways looking for Nikki. I need to know what is going on with him. When I get to his dressing room he isn't there. There's only one place left to look. As I step into the bathroom I hear someone light a lighter. "Sixx is that you?" I ask even though I know it's him. He kicks open the stall and offers me one of his syringes. "Dude what's up with you lately? Did you meet a chick or something? You've been acting kinda weird. You better not end up like Mick is with Emi." I tell him as I take the needle. "Why does it matter T-Bone? It's not like it's two sided anyway." he says as he shoots up. I roll up my sleeve and do the same. "Well who the fuck is it? Why won't you just tell me?! I'm your best fucking friend remember?!" I yell as the dope starts to kick in. Before he can answer he passes out. Perfect, just perfect. I lift him into my arms and carry him to my car. When we get back to the hotel I carefully bring him back to his room. I lay him down on his bed and before I leave I get an idea. Maybe he wrote what's on his mind in his notebook. I run over to his bags and start looking for it and when I find it I immediately flip through it to find the last entry. When I find the last thing he wrote I am utterly shocked. The song was originally titled 'Without You (Tommy's Song). Not knowing what to do I rip out the page and run back to my room. When I am in the confines of my suite I grab a smoke and a match. My hands are shaking so badly I can barely light it. When I finally do I take a long drag in a vain attempt to steady my trembling fingers. I sit down on my bed with the paper still clutched in my hand. I open it and let the words take my breath away. It is absolutely beautiful.

Nikki's POV
I open my eyes and let everything come into focus. Where am I? What happened? How did I get back here? The same old questions I usually ask after a bad night run through my mind. The last thing I can remember is me and Tommy shooting up in the bathroom. What did I say to him? I rack my brain for the answers to these questions and then the memories start to flood my mind. Oh shit I admitted it was a love song! And on top of that I said that I was in love! Oh well, as long as I don't say anything else he won't know who the song was intended for. Feeling better about the situation I walk over to my bags. I pick up my notebook which had been lying on the floor and flip to my last entry. Where the fuck is the page? Oh no...

Tommy's POV
 The paper falls from my frozen fingers as my tears begin to drip onto it. The ink starts to run down the page and I wipe my tear stained cheeks. Why did he have to hide this? Why didn't he just tell me? I stand up and walk to the door. I let my forehead fall against the wood and try to think. What should I do? Should I go see him, or act like I never saw it? I step back and kick the door open. I start off walking but soon break into a sprint. I reach Nikki's room and slowly reach for the door knob. My fingers are trembling so badly, I'm not sure if I can do this.

Nikki's POV
I race over to the door, sweat running down my face. I need to get that paper before someone reads it. I pull the door open and almost fall backwards. Tommy is standing less than a foot from me with his hand reaching for the doorknob. He looks like he's been crying, I reach out and put my hand on his shoulder. I open my mouth to say something but before I can he leaps into my arms and kisses me. This kiss is heated and passionate. Tommy literally forces his tongue into my mouth and knocks me backwards onto the bed. My brain must have exploded because I don't know what else to do except kiss back. I tangle my fingers in his hair as he sucks my bottom lip into his mouth. I whimper when I feel his tongue glide over mine. This can't be real. This is too fucking amazing to be real.

Tommy's POV
I pull back to gauge Nikki's reaction. He looks almost confused. Uh oh, did I make a mistake? What if I took this too far? I climb off of him and turn to leave feeling absolutely horrible. Suddenly he grabs my hand and stops me, "This is a dream right? This has to be a fucking dream." he says to my amazement. "Why would you think this is a dream Sixx?" I ask him with genuine curiosity. "This is too good to be true. I must still be passed out or something." he mumbles. I sit down next to him and pull out the diary entry with the song on it. "This is the most beautiful thing I've ever read. Thank you." I say, handing him the paper. I get up to leave again but he stops me. I feel his arms wrap around my waist and his forehead rest on my shoulder. "Do you hate me?" he asks, his voice cracking. I feel his warm tears soak the back of my shirt and I turn around and hold his face. "If I hated you do you think I would have just stormed in here and kissed you like that?" I question him rhetorically. He drops his gaze to the floor while I wipe the tears from his cheeks. I softly kiss his forehead and cradle his head to my chest. "Shhhh everything is gonna be okay Nikki, I promise."

Nikki's POV
I raise my eyes to see his beautiful face again. I lean into his chest and inhale his scent. "Gardenias?" I mumble without thinking. "Yeah why?" he asks. "They're my favorite flower." I say as I get on my toes to kiss his sweet lips again. His hands drop to my hips and I wrap my arms around his neck. I kiss him passionately and begin to whimper as he backs me into a wall. I moan against his mouth while he grinds against me. My pants are getting so tight, "Nggggh T-Tommy..." I groan as he palms my dick. It feels so fucking good, I feel like I'm gonna cum in my pants like some teenager. He giggles and steps back. Now it's my turn.

Tommy's POV
It take a step back to take in the sight of Nikki. He's so beautiful, his face, his body, everything about him is just amazing. Before I can fully comprehend what's happening he pushes me to the wall and drops to his knees. His long fingers start to undo my pants and he pulls them around my ankles. I hear a soft gasp leave his throat when he catches sight of the monster I've been hiding in my pants. I can't help but snicker at his wide eyed expression. My laughing comes to an abrupt halt when he wraps his hand around the base of my cock. "Mmmm Nikki..." I moan as he wraps his lips around the head. My breath comes in short gasps as he slides my cock in and out of his mouth. I'm so fucking close, "Oh fuck...S-Stop!" I choke out past the pleasure. It's not gonna end like this. I need to fuck him.

Nikki's POV
I pull away feeling confused and he gets to his knees. He kisses my neck roughly and moves his soft lips up to my ear, "I wanna fuck you so bad Nikki, you have no fucking idea." he raggedly whispers. A shiver runs down my spine, "Fuck Tommy, I want you inside of me." I growl as he kisses my neck again. At that, he scoops me up into his arms and carries me to the bed. He lays me down and takes off his shirt, "Strip." he commands me. I do as I'm told and blush as I feel him watching my every move, his eyes ablaze. He climbs onto the bed and slowly crawls over my body. He brings his lips to mine again and kisses me softly. Our lips move in total unison and so do our bodies. The friction of our bare skin causes me to whimper and moan into the kiss. When our lips part Tommy takes three fingers and puts them in my mouth. I suck on each of them and when he pulls them out I lean back into the pillow. He let's out a deep sigh as I splay my legs for him, "Oh fuck Nikki...". I blush and without warning he plunges the first finger inside of me. I grip the sheets and bite my lip hard enough to draw blood. I moan loudly as he stretches me open. I nearly scream when he puts all three fingers in at once. Fuck this is so good.

Tommy's POV
I feel him clench around my fingers as I start to pump them in and out. He pushes back on my hand and I feel something in my stomach tighten. It's the most amazing thing I've ever seen; he's losing control and not for some stripper, but for me. I love him so much it almost hurts. "Tommy!" he screams as I brush against his prostate. I smirk and continue to hit that one spot repeatedly. He arches up off of the bed and screams in ecstasy, "Ooh fuck Tommy!" I fucking love it when he screams my name.

Nikki's POV
I pant raggedly, sweat dripping down my forehead. "S-Stop...I'm c-close..." I manage to get out. He pulls his fingers out and I whimper at the emptiness. I sit up and grab his shoulders while I kiss his neck sweetly. I flip him onto his back and straddle him. I can feel his broad hands rubbing my chest and shoulders. I move my lips up to his ear and whisper, "I love you Tommy. You're the reason I'm alive." He moves one hand to the back of my head and pulls our lips together. His tongue licks over mine in a way that is much more affectionate and a lot less needy than before. He pulls back and puts both hands on either side of my face, "Without you, I'd be lost Nikki. I'd slip down from the top." he says before kissing me again. While he kisses me I grab the lube that's the edge of the bed and slick it over his cock. I slowly raise my hips and aline myself with his enormous cock. Foreplay is over.

Tommy's POV
I shiver as Nikki's long fingers slick the lube over my dick. Our lips part and he pushes himself down onto me. "H-Holy fuck Nikki! You're s-so fucking tight!" I groan. He cries out in ecstasy and begins to ride me slowly. The way he lifts and drops his hips is making me lose all fucking sense and control. I grab his cock and start to stroke him roughly. He throws his head back and moans, "Mmmm fuck me Tommy!" and that's when I completely lose it. I flip us around so that Nikki is on all fours beneath me. I plant a small kiss on his shoulder as I push back in and begin to thrust into him. "Oh Tommy...harder!" he groans and I can't help but comply. Now I'm starting to see stars as I slam into him so I reach around and grab his cock. I roughly jerk him off, pumping his length in time with my thrusts. Suddenly I feel him clench around me as I hit his prostate again, "Ngggh T-Tommy!" he screams as he orgasms, his cum hot and sticky in my hand. I continue to thrust into him as I lick my fingers clean. I'm so fucking close. A few more thrusts and I'm digging my nails into his shoulders. My orgasm washes over me like a hurricane as I scream his name. He moans as I pump him full of my cum. We collapse in a sweaty heap on the bed and I pull out of him. I can't believe how amazing that was. Wow.

Nikki's POV
Holy fucking shit. That was the best sex I've ever had in my entire life. I look over to see Tommy lying next to me looking worried. "You okay T-Bone?" I ask him as I drape one arm over his stomach. "I'm way better than okay Nikki." he says smiling. "I was just worried about you." he says as he cuddles me. I feel him kiss the top of my head and I say, "I love you Tommy. That was amazing." I mean every word of it. "You mean so much to me. I don't know what I'd do without you." I mumble as I slowly drift off to sleep. "I'll never leave you Nikki, because I can't live without you by my side." he murmurs into my hair. "I love you." I say as I pull back and look into his eyes. "I love you too." he says as he brushes his sweet lips against mine one last time. He wraps his arms around me and I settle into the curve of his body. We seem to fit together perfectly in every way. We are so intertwined that even the beating of our hearts has synchronized. This has to be love.