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1987

"To Tokyo!" Nikki and Tommy yelled in unison before throwing their heads back and downing about a whole bottle of Jack Daniels each. Tommy slammed the bottle onto the bar and gazed wonderingly at Nikki, who chugged the entire bottle. He ran his tongue over his dry, cracked lips when he saw a drop of Jack travel down Nikki's chin. He watched it trickle down his jaw and slide down his neck. His eyes fixed on Nikki's throat and he swallowed hard. How he wished his tongue could follow the same path as that drop. He roughly shook his head and tried to bring himself back to reality which didn't completely work. He couldn't help but wonder what that must taste like on Nikki's pale skin. "I say we get a couple of these for the road!" Nikki slurred before ordering two more bottles. Tommy nodded and started to think, 'Why the fuck do I keep thinking like this?!' He frowned and slid off the barstool. He quickly tapped on Nikki's shoulder, "Sixx, I'm gonna go see if I can score a chick or two." Tommy informed him before turning and walking away. He quickly fluffed up his hair and grabbed a smoke out of his pocket.

He couldn't feel Nikki's eyes boring holes into his back past all of the alcohol that he'd ingested. Nikki stared after him and ground his teeth together. He gripped the edge of the bar until his knuckles turned white. Why couldn't Tommy just want to be with him? Why did things have to be this way. Nikki snapped back into reality when the two bottles of Jack he'd ordered were slammed onto the bar in front of him. He regained his composure and sighed. He grabbed the bottles and and stormed over to Tommy who had found some slutty bottle blonde to play with. "T-Bone you ready to go?" he asked, his voice sounded strained and angered. "Hell yeah Sixx! I'm ready to move this party back to the hotel!" Tommy laughed as he wrapped an arm around his playmate's shoulders. Nikki handed him a bottle and started to walk out, eyes fixed on the ground.

They stumbled onto a train that would supposedly take them back to the hotel. Tommy, too drunk to even think, began making out with his playmate in hopes of getting rid of the thoughts that had bubbled up in his mind before. Nikki took another swig of Jack and hoped that all the booze would just wipe him memory out, even if only for a little while. He tried not to concentrate on what was going on around him when all of the sudden he heard moaning and giggling coming from over by Tommy. Nikki stood up, his face flushed with rage, and clenched his fist around the bottle. He hurled the half empty Jack Daniels straight through the window of the train. Glass shattered and fell on some unsuspecting Japanese businessmen who began yelling and calling the authorities. Tommy looked over at Nikki worriedly and practically fell out of his seat when the train stopped abruptly. He picked his head up and looked through the window to see officers waiting at the stop. When the doors opened they rushed in and tackled Nikki, who violently fought back. Tommy pushed his playmate off his lap and rushed over to try and help Nikki. "Leave him the fuck alone! I did it, throw me in jail assholes! I'll fuckin' kill you!" he screamed while he tried to pry Nikki away from them. Before he could chase after them, Tommy was knocked out. Nikki had thrown a punch at an officer and missed, hitting Tommy in the face instead. Nikki was dragged away and Tommy was left unconscious in the train station.

He had no recollection of getting there, but Nikki soon found himself sitting alone in a jail cell. He curled up in a ball and hugged his knees. He hated being in jail alone, even if it was only for a night. He wished Tommy was with him. His brow furrowed and he scowled at the ground. Tommy was too busy with that stupid whore. He felt warm tears streak down his cheeks as he thought of Tommy. Then he remembered something, something that confused him. Tommy had tried to take the blame and get thrown in jail. A faint smile painted Nikki's pale lips as he thought about how much Tommy cared for him, even if it was only in a brotherly sense. On that happy note Nikki drifted off to sleep on the cold floor.

Nikki was rudely awakened by vigorous shaking the next morning. He rolled over on the hard concrete he'd slept on and grumbled. He felt like shit and really didn't want to get up. "Go the fuck away, I don't feel like moving yet." he muttered angrily. "Dude get up!" a familiar voice made his pulse quicken. He lifted his head and saw Tommy staring back at him. "What the fuck happened last night T-bone?" he said, rubbing his eyes with the back of his hand. "You got totally smashed and threw a bottle of JD through the train's window!" he said worriedly. "What the fuck was that all about anyway?" Tommy asked, his eyebrows coming together in confusion and frustration. Nikki looked away and didn't answer.

Eventually they got up and left the police station. They walked to Tommy's rental car and climbed in. Neither of them were speaking and the silence was beginning to get uncomfortable. Nikki looked at Tommy and observed him closely. Tommy had a huge bruise around his right eye. "Where'd you get the black eye?" Nikki asked quietly. "You punched me asshole!" Tommy laughed, almost angrily. "Why did you try to take the blame last night?" Nikki asked as he stared out his window, avoiding Tommy's gaze. Tommy just turned and faced the road, "I don't know why..." he lied. He wasn't about to let his feelings slip. They drove back to the hotel in silence and dropped the subject completely.

1998

It was three a.m. and Nikki was finally getting close to sleep. As he was closing his eyes the phone rang and made him jump. He groaned and sat at the edge of the bed, his hair sticking to his face. He picked up the phone and held it to his ear, "Hello?" he asked groggily and obviously irritated. He heard muffled sobs from the other line and he immediately knew who it was. "Tommy what's wrong! What the fuck happened?!" he yelled trying to keep the panic in his voice from being heard. Tommy let out another heart wrenching sob, "I...I hurt Pam..." he sounded like he was choking on his tears. "She just c-called the police.." upon hearing this Nikki jumped out of bed and grabbed his keys. "I'm on my way Tommy..." was all he said before throwing his phone and climbing into his car.

He raced down the winding roads until he reached Tommy's house. There were police cars surrounding the house when he pulled up. He jumped out of his car and saw Tommy being restrained by the police. He watched as one of the officers punched Tommy in the jaw. He ran at them and punched the officer in the nose. Tommy broke free and ran into Nikki's arms. "Take me too assholes!" Nikki shouted at the officers as he held Tommy close. Soon an officer stepped in and held Nikki back while Tommy was pried from his protective arms. "Nikki!" Tommy screamed, tears streaming down his cheeks. Nikki fought to get back to Tommy relentlessly but it was no use. "Tommy!" he screamed as he watched his best friend get shoved into a police car. An officer kneed Nikki in the face and spit on him. Nikki lay there on the cold ground, unconsciousness sweeping over him.

Tommy watched helplessly from the cop car as Nikki was beat up. He tried to compose himself and not let the cops see how emotionally weak he really was. He exhaled shakily and tried to collect his thoughts. 'What just happened?' He thought to himself. Nikki had just tried to get into jail with him. Why? Nikki had said, 'Take me too assholes!' These words resounded in Tommy's head all the way to the police station. They were oddly calming and made him think that maybe there was more between him and Nikki than he had thought. Or maybe it was just wishful thinking...

The next morning Nikki woke up on the sidewalk in front of Tommy's house. He winced in pain and grabbed his nose which was covered in dried blood. He groaned as he remembered a cop kneeing him square in the face. He slowly made his way to his car which had been left in the middle of the road with the keys in the ignition. He climbed in and started the engine. Tears trickled down his face the whole way home and he occasionally let out a small sob. When he got to his house he sat alone in his car hunched over he steering wheel. His tears mixed with the blood on his face and his feelings for Tommy came bubbling up again. He had tried to just be Tommy's friend ever since the Japan incident. He came too close to letting his feeling slip that day and if Tommy ever found out their friendship would be over. Or at least that's what Nikki thought. Now he couldn't even see Tommy. He let the tears pour from his eyes as he slowly made his way into the house. While he washed his blood stained face, grief overwhelmed Nikki and he ran out of his house. A burst of pure adrenaline ran through him and wearing nothing but jeans and a blood stained shirt, he quickly drove to the police station.

Meanwhile in Tommy's cell a cold shivering man laid on the floor. Tommy was curled into a ball, hugging his knees to his chest. He hadn't slept all night and kept thinking about Nikki. Fresh tears hit the concrete as he wished to see him. All of the sudden the sound of a door slamming made him jump. He sat up and moved closer to where he heard the noise. "Where the fuck is he?! How much do I have to pay you motherfuckers to let him go?!" he heard a familiar voice yell. He stood up when he heard someone running toward him. Nikki ran to his cell and held him through the iron bars. "Nikki..." Tommy whimpered as his tears soaked Nikki's shirt. Nikki's warmth was soon replaced with empty space as the officers dragged him outside. Tommy grabbed at the air and screamed, "Leave him alone!" but he was already gone. Eventually the emotional stress and turmoil was too much for Tommy and he gave in to unconsciousness.

When he woke, Tommy felt someone stroking his hair. He leaned into the touch and heard a small gasp. "Tommy?" He heard someone whisper worriedly. He immediately opened his eyes and sat up, almost falling off the edge of the bed. Nikki grabbed his arm and pulled him into an embrace. Before he could think of what he was doing Tommy pulled Nikki's head back and kissed him. When his brain was functioning again Tommy practically went into shock, not because he just kissed Nikki, but because Nikki was kissing back. The kiss was borderline rough, but it was sweet nonetheless. Nikki was the first to pull away and he rested his forehead on Tommy's. They sat there panting for what seemed like forever until Tommy broke the silence. "What h-happened at the s-station?" Tommy stammered as he tried desperately to catch his breath. "I bailed you out and when I came to pick you up you were passed out..." Nikki mumbled as he caressed Tommy's cheek. "Why did you kiss me back?" Tommy asked his eyebrows furrowing. "Tommy... I've been in love with you for over ten years now... Remember the Japan incident? When I got thrown in jail for breaking that window?" Nikki explained, a faint blush painting his pale cheeks. "Yeah... I remember." Tommy murmured. "I threw that bottle because I couldn't stand seeing you with that stupid little slut." Nikki went on, gritting his teeth at the memory. "I was only with that chick to get my mind off of you..." Tommy said as he placed his hand on top of Nikki's. "Why did you try to get thrown in jail with me the other day?" Tommy questioned him, pulling back to look into Nikki's eyes. "You tried to do the same for me..." Nikki smiled and leaned in to kiss Tommy again. This kiss was much gentler and it stopped as soon as the tears started. Tommy began to sob and Nikki held him against his chest. He rubbed up and down his back while he whispered soothing words to him. "D-Do you know why I h-hurt Pam?" Tommy asked after a while, but didn't wait for an answer. "She found a journal of mine and the whole thing was filled with entries about you. She got really pissed and started talking trash about you... I-I just got so angry... I didn't know what else to do..." another sob ripped from Tommy's throat and Nikki brushed their lips together and began to cry. They pulled back and wiped away each others tears, "I love you Nikki... I just wish I could've told you that eleven years ago." Tommy said as he stared into Nikki's pale green eyes. "I love you too Tommy. I wish you'd told me too, but better now than never." Nikki smiled taking Tommy into his arms again. "So what do you wanna do now?" Nikki whispered in Tommy's ear. "Something we should have been doing since 1987." Tommy smiled seductively.

Nikki giggled and brought their lips together again. His tongue licked over Tommy's bottom lip, asking for entrance and it was granted. Tommy shivered and moaned into Nikki's mouth when he felt their tongues slide over one another. Nikki placed his hands on the small of Tommy's back. His hands slipped under the drummer's shirt and Tommy parted their lips to remove it. When it was off Nikki moved his mouth to Tommy's neck and began to nip and kiss at the sensitive skin. "Mmmm Nikki..." Tommy moaned softly as his long fingers worked on the buttons of Nikki's shirt. Tommy felt the bassist's teeth scrape against his collar bone causing his breath to hitch and his pulse to quicken. Suddenly Nikki pulled away and got more comfortable on the bed. He sat up against the head board and motioned for Tommy to come sit on his lap. The drummer straddled Nikki and tangled his fingers in the bassist's hair. "I love you Nikki..." Tommy said before attacking Nikki's mouth. As the kisses heated up so did their bodies and soon they both realized that they were wearing too much clothing. Tommy's hands ran down Nikki's torso until they finally reached his jeans. When he began go tug on them Nikki smiled into the kiss and quickly got off the bed to take them off. Tommy did the same and soon they were completely naked. Tommy stretched out over the bed and blushed when he saw Nikki staring at him. "You are so fucking gorgeous." Nikki murmured as he climbed in between Tommy's legs. They were both extremely hard and Nikki could barely hold himself back, but he knew that Tommy would need some prep time. "I'm just gonna guess and say this is a first for you too?" Nikki smirked and Tommy looked away, his cheeks burning. He bit his lip and nodded. Nikki touched the drummer's cheek and smiled reassuringly, "I guess we'll just have to figure this out as we go along." Tommy brought himself up to Nikki's ear and whispered, "You know you're gonna have to stretch me first right?" a small giggle followed these words that he never in a million years thought he would say. "Maybe I want you to stretch yourself a little first." Nikki countered. The bassist leaned away toward the nightstand and grabbed some lube. He took Tommy's hand and kissed it gently before slicking the lube over three of the drummer's fingers. Nikki backed away and crossed his arms over his chest smiling at his dominance. Tommy, still blushing madly, began to trace circles around his hole. He had done this multiple times in the shower, but he wasn't about to let Nikki know that. He slowly slid one finger inside of himself and whimpered. He bit his lip as he added another finger. Soon all three fingers were in and Tommy was fucking himself on his own hand. "Oh fuck Nikki..." he groaned in pleasure. Seconds later Nikki who had been watching, mouth agape at how amazing this was, grabbed Tommy's hand and removed his fingers. Tommy opened his eyes and kissed Nikki softly. Their lips parted and they stared at each other for what seemed like forever. "Are you sure this is what you want?" Nikki asked, even though he already knew the answer. Tommy nodded, eyes ablaze. Nikki smiled down at him as he lined up his extremely hard cock with Tommy's hole. "Fuck me Nikki. I want to feel you inside of me." Tommy spit through his teeth. He was getting impatient from the anticipation. That was all Nikki needed to hear to lose control. He slowly pushed into Tommy with a long, drawn out groan. Tommy screamed in ecstasy and dug his nails into Nikki's shoulders. Nikki planted a hot and messy kiss on Tommy as he began to pick up his pace. "Mmm harder Nikki!" Tommy yelled when their lips parted. Nikki began slamming into the drummer and when he knew he was getting close he grabbed Tommy's cock and began to stroke him roughly. They were moaning and groaning each other's names when Nikki hit something inside of Tommy that caused him to see stars. The drummer screamed and arched off the bed. "Holy fucking shit Nikki!" he yelled as he grabbed fistfuls of sheets. Nikki continued to hit that spot and Tommy was getting close, fast. One more thrust and one more stroke pushed Tommy over the edge. His cum spilled out, hot and sticky in Nikki's hand. The bassist licked his fingers clean as he thrusted into Tommy a few more times. Soon Nikki screamed in pleasure and pumped Tommy full of his cum. The drummer moaned at the warmth and fullness he felt inside. 

Nikki pulled out and laid down next to Tommy who gently nuzzled his neck. "That was fucking awesome Nikki." the drummer smiled and placed a soft kiss on the bassist's neck. "I love you so fucking much Tommy." Nikki mumbled as he wrapped his arms around his lover's waist. He buried his face in Tommy's hair and kissed his head. "Pam didn't deserve you, but then again who am I to talk." he mumbled into the half-sleeping drummers hair. "I wish I'd told you all those years ago how I felt. We could've been together already." Tommy said as he regretted not saying anything sooner. "Don't worry T-bone. We've got the rest of our lives to make up for the lost years." Nikki brought his face down to Tommy's and kissed him again. They laid there in each others arms, the smell of sex still heavy in the air, and drifted into a peaceful sleep.