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Title: Helsinki Taxia, please hold
Author: Ginseng
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: The following is a work of fiction. It did not happen.
This fiction in no way represents people mentioned within. I do not
profit from these stories.

(Paavo's POV)

All I really wanted was to unwind. That week had been hectic and I
needed to relax. I had worked more than 60 studio hours in pure
chaos and sweat. My stomach hurt due to all the coffee I had
consumed to be able to endure the hard work. I thought about taking
a sauna when Perttu knocked on my door. I really didn't want to go
outside at all but my begging and refusals didn't work on that
spoiled brat. Deep down inside I knew I could have said no if I
really wanted. It was hard to admit that I was lonely.

"Come on Paavo" he tried to charm me by talking in a silly Swedish
accent. "Do you really want to stay at home, watching lousy tv? I
bet those endorphins of yours are running wild in your system? I
understand if you don't want to party, but maybe you could do some
sport thingies that you like? You shouldn't stay inside. It's not
good for you. I'm just concerned you know..." He resorted to his
dreadful pout. "I'll buy you a beer... with alcohol."

"Where are we going?" I scratched my hair and put on a clean t-
shirt. "If you say Fellini I swear I'll kill myself."

"Don't be stupid," he giggled. "How about Pitchers? Close to the
town square, in the alley behind the old city hall, you know?"

"Never heard about it."

"Just opened, come on, let's go." Perttu jumped up and down in
excitement.

The place didn't surprise me a bit. It was a regular rockers pub. It
was loud and full of sweaty people. I couldn't understand how Perttu
could enjoy these places. I kind of liked them after about five
beers and he liked them even though he was sober. It was a total
mystery to me. It wasn't what I had in mind to make me relax. But an
empty apartment wasn't exactly heaven either. I would soon be done
recording and for once I thought about staying in the city. I needed
to meet people outside the band. I needed to feel connected to
another human being, badly.

I stood at the bar and drank the beer Perttu had bought me. He was
off talking to some younger guys from an upcoming band. He was a
great friend but not always that good at accepting that I wasn't
like him, I was old and needed my sleep. I wasn't one to say no to a
night out and to drinking but it had been a big mistake coming there
with him. All I wanted to do was to sleep. If I tried I would
probably enjoy myself but since I was totally exhausted most of the
people were just background noise to me. A big blur of bodies that
wouldn't make any sense. But in the middle of the large mass of hazy
shapes, a multi-coloured head of hair approached me and before I
knew it he kissed my cheek.

"Don't mope." The tone of his voice told me he had something on his
mind. "Paavo, I'm like leaving with Pasi here so... I'll ... see you
tomorrow, okay? Enjoy, and don't just sit here by the bar, okay? You
need to loosen up a bit and have a good time. Sitting at the bar
moping won't get you any..."

It was so totally like him and it wasn't the first time either. He
dragged me out of my cosy home and, about an hour later, he'd go
home with some guy and leave me at the bar, alone. Not that it
mattered that much. It had always been like that with Perttu and me,
but that night I felt somewhat disappointed. He had hauled me out of
my apartment, reluctantly, to get company and I hardly had the time
to finish my beer before he left. My bed seemed like my only friend
at that time and I prepared to leave.

"Dumped?"

I turned around, the voice sounded kind of familiar. I didn't really
know him but I sure knew who he was. The younger man had short spiky
hair and that night it was black and red. He wore glasses and was a
bit taller than me. He looked down at me as I put on my jacket. I
wasn't that interested in talking to him but he didn't notice or
maybe he didn't care.

"My date left me too," he continued. He handed me a beer. "Here..."

"Thanks!" I didn't want to waste good beer so I took it.

"Don't worry about it, I've had enough anyways. Shit, it's never
nice to be the one who's left at the bar..."

"Well, I'll enjoy the silence. I hadn't even thought about leaving
the apartment. I really need the sleep.."

"Yeah, I guess..." he finished his beer but not the sentence. "Time to
go then..."

When we got outside I realized how tired I was. I yawned, big time,
and decided that I was way too tired for the tram. I made my mind up
to take a cab. But my cell phone battery died while waiting for the
operator. I got annoyed and cussed my bad luck.

"No cab?" There he was again. He had a worn out jean-jacket and
shivered a bit from the cold. "They're always hard to get at this
time of night."

"Well, I wouldn't know," I answered with a smile. "My batteries died
and I never got to talk to the operator. Good thing I'm used to
hiking, it will probably take me an hour to walk home if I can't
catch a cab on my way."

"You can use my phone. I live just around the corner."

"I wouldn't want to bother you like that, I could probably..."

"Don't be silly, you're not bothering me. You might as well wait for
the cab indoors or you'll catch a cold." He laughed and tugged at
the sleeve of my jeans jacket. "It's hard work being a rock star but
dressing like one is even harder."

I laughed with him. I wasn't dressed for the walk and I wasn't up
for it either. He seemed really nice and in the back of my head
thoughts of getting a new acquaintance buzzed. I couldn't remember
the last time I'd talked to somebody outside the band, someone who
was an adult and not a fan, that is.

It said A. Hakala on the door and he let me inside with a smile. The
apartment was small but neat. The decorating was very tasteful and
typically Scandinavian with light colours. I thought about Perttu's
place. It was probably the same size but that was the only thing the
two apartments had in common.

"Nice place, I love your decorating."

"Thanks, I've actually done it myself." His face lit up and I could
see he was pleased that I had noticed the effort he had put into his
home.

"I know we've met but I believe we never got introduced properly.
I'm Aki."

"I'm Paavo."

"I really appreciate the help." I took off my jacket. "I only
realize how cold it is now that I'm inside. I like winter but enough
is enough..."

"I told you that it was too cold to walk. Would you like a cup of
coffee or tea to warm you up while you wait? The cab-company is
probably still busy."

"Tea would be nice. I've had enough coffee this week to last me for
a year."

"A lot of work?"

"No kidding, we're recording... and Eicca's totally stressed out."

"I know the feeling... The creative ones are hard to handle from time
to time, right?" Aki looked at me and I could tell that he truly
understood what I talked about. That was a new experience, having
someone to talk to. Someone who recognized my problems but wasn't
too close to them.

"Rhubarb-vanilla or English breakfast?" Aki held out two glass jars
with tea in front of him.

"Rhubarb-vanilla..." I answered with some hesitation. It sounded a bit
weird but better than breakfast tea. After all it was close to
midnight.

We finished the tea and I still hadn't reached the operator. Ten
minutes more and I got the computerized voice telling me there were
25 customers in line and that they would take my call as soon as
possible. I had enough and couldn't listen to that hideous back-
round music for a minute longer, so I hung up.

"Looks like I'll have to walk after all..."

"Shit, that's no picnic. It's late and it has gotten colder." Aki
looked over his shoulder at a door behind him. "I have an extra bed
in my office. It's yours if you want to."

"Thank you for your consideration but I've imposed on you enough
already..."

"Well, if you want to walk half across town in the freezing cold..."
He walked to a closet and took out a set of clean sheets. "You won't
bother me at all. I sleep like a log and you know I'm used to share
nightliners with lots of people so I'm not easily bothered..."

He went into the small room and started to make the bed. I followed,
stood in the doorway and watched him work. When he was done he
turned to me with a smile and patted the bed.

"All done... looks nice, doesn't it?"

"Shit, you're almost as stubborn as Perttu. You won't take no for an
answer..." I giggled and finished with an exaggerated sigh. How could
I say no to such hospitality? Aki seemed like a very nice and kind
person. The bed looked soft and tempting and I told him so. Aki gave
me another of his great smiles and asked.

"Are you a light sleeper?"

"I don't know, not really. Why?"

"Well, I'm not that tired so I'm thinking about watching a movie
that starts in a while, but if you're tired..."

"No! No, Aki, please... What movie is it?"

"Latest porn-flick on the movie-channel."

"Oh..."

"I'm just kidding Paavo," he laughed. "It's an American action. You
should have seen your face."

"Very funny!" I kind of exaggerated my hurt feelings but that only
made him laugh even more.

"The world lost a great comedian when you decided to play the drums."

All the laughing seemed to push my fatigue away. So I went to the
corner shop and got some chips and soda. When I got back the movie
had just started. I usually enjoyed watching movies but that night
not even half a bottle of coke could keep me awake. I couldn't
concentrate on the story and my thoughts drifted. I thought about
work and the things I was supposed to do the rest of the week.

A feather light touch on the inside of my thigh made me return to
reality. My first reaction was to tense up and twitch backwards.
When Aki saw my reaction he jerked backwards too. I was surprised
and my jaw dropped. Aki sank down in the corner of the couch. He
buried his face in his hands.

"Oh no, Paavo, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to..." His voice cracked
and he began to tremble. "I didn't think... I didn't mean to..."

I was rather chocked and didn't know what to say so I just listened
to Aki's excuses. A part of me wanted to grab my jacket and walk out
the door but I couldn't deny that I felt sympathy for him, or maybe
something more. So I sat down beside him and tried to comfort him.

"It's okay Aki..." I placed my hand on his shoulder but he didn't look
as if he was listening.

"Maybe you could try to get a cab now... it's late and..."

"Calm down... it's alright." I was at his place, watching his tv, on
his couch and still I felt like I had to protect him. I didn't want
to hurt him.

"Are you sure?" It finally started to get to him that I wasn't
upset. He gave me an attempting smile which I returned. Somehow his
smile made me breathe more easily.

"Yeah I'm sure. Sorry for being so jumpy but I wasn't prepared,
that's all. I was just surprised." I had to do something to calm him
down so my hand found his cheek. I felt the stubble on his
chin. "Maybe if you had told me that you were... I didn't know... that's
all."

"Of course, I understand. Can you forgive me?" He smiled again and I
discovered that I liked his smile, a lot.

I reached out and wiped off a stray tear from his cheek and took my
time to look at him. He had a nice face with a great bone structure.
I was totally interrupted by his beautiful smile, it caught me off
guard. Had he realized that I was staring? I looked away and tried
to get my posture back. What was going on? I had thought about it
but not actually really thought about it.

Perttu had told me to have fun but I wasn't sure if this was what he
had in mind. I pictured a very surprised Perttu in my head and that
made me giggled. I spilled a small amount of coke.

"What? What's wrong?" Aki looked anxious. Maybe he thought I had
laughed at him.

"No, nothing, I'm sorry, it's just me..." I couldn't believe how rude
I was. "I was laughing at myself." Perttu's words were ringing in my
head and without much further pondering I decided to act up on them.
One thing was for sure, no one could accuse me for being a coward. I
would try everything once but this wasn't exactly bungy jumping. "I
did overreact didn't I? Maybe if you had given me a hint I might not
have pulled away..."

"You mean that or are you just trying to make me feel better?" His
blue eyes lit up and he leaned back on the couch, relaxing a bit.

I couldn't really tell myself, my feelings were messed up. Did I
want this or were my words just a way to make him feel better? I
really didn't know. I didn't understand why in the world I felt like
I had to protect the guy from all harm? Sure he was younger and all
but he seemed mature and I knew that he'd been around. Touring makes
you grow up fast.

"I mean it..." I took his hands in mine. They were strong and lean. He
had calluses just like me but on totally different places. Typically
drummer places, I'd seen it on Mikko too. It was a pity that his
hands had the hardened skin on almost all his fingers. He had such
nice hands. I also knew why the skin hardened. If it didn't you
would have blisters instead and they hurt like hell. I let my
fingers run over his. "I mean... if you want to..."

That killer smile of his appeared again and all my hesitations were
gone. Everything felt just right and the mini-Perttu in my head blew
me a kiss and disappeared.

Aki turned off the tv and placed the remote on the table. Slowly and
with some reluctance he stroked my cheek. I leaned into his soft
touch and he let his arm slide behind my back. Without even thinking
about it I pulled him closer and we met in a soft kiss. I looked
into his eyes and for a brief moment I was lost. I gave in to his
tentative tongue. The kiss was overwhelming. The sensation of
closeness was so strong it made me whimper. That made Aki more
confident in his actions.

When we parted, both of us had to catch our breath and we did so
without taking our eyes off each other. Aki stood up and almost
playfully he pulled my arm. I followed him into the bedroom. It was
a bedroom fit for two with a king-size bed and with matching
nightstands on each side. It was like he read my mind.

"Haven't changed much since I separated with my boyfriend..."

"Oh... That must have been tough."

"It wasn't a difficult separation. But... you know, you get kind of
lonely... sometimes."

I sure knew the feeling, all too well. "But you're not alone
tonight." I turned to him and kissed him softly on the cheek. "Aki..."

He lay down on his back on the bed and I sat down beside him.
Suddenly I was very hot so I took off my glasses and pulled off my
sweater. My t-shirt slipped up a bit when I'd gotten the shirt
halfway over my head and I felt Aki's hands continuing that motion.
He slipped the t-shirt the same way the sweater was going. Soon my
pants came off too and I lay naked on his bed.

"You look so good..." he whispered and stroked my stomach. "So hot..."

It was amazing the way he looked at me. His eyes were filled with
hunger. It almost scared me but it was so exciting at the same time.
No one had looked at me in that way before.

"Go easy..." I said with a soft voice. "I've never... you know..."

"Don't worry, I'll play nicely..." he pulled off his shirt and placed
his glasses on the nightstand. "I promise."

He was leaner than me, and taller. I could tell by looking at his
body that he was much younger than me. The way he moved was so
different. I move in short but powered sets of motions. Actually I
don't know why I do, but I think it's a habit I picked up from
mountain climbing. It's a kind of energy preserving way of moving
about. Aki, on the other hand, his motions were easy and flowing,
almost like an animal. He was very graceful and lithe. It turned me
on. He must have noticed because he smiled naughtily and his hands
travelled down, past my stomach. I didn't need any persuasion to
return the favour. He was hard as a rock and the sensation was
almost intoxicating. His cock was smooth as velvet yet exceptionally
firm. The way he touched me was extraordinary, something I'd
experienced before. It was just too much for me to handle.

I came with a disappointed sigh. Aki remained still for a while,
then he glanced at me and he saw the frustration on my face.

"Don't worry Paavo. We'll have you up and going again in no time..."
He just couldn't stop joking. But I welcomed his attempt to make me
feel less stupid in a perfectly miserable situation. But the joke
demanded revenge so I pulled my hand tighter around his cock, just a
little too tight. He squirmed and his cock twitched in my hand. He
panted hard and I changed my tactics. I kissed him softly on the
lips. Then I planted small and gentle kisses down his body. I still
had a firm grip around his hardness and I could tell he was running
out of willpower as he lay back on the bed. His eyes were closed and
both of his hands were in my hair. I stopped and kissed his nipple.
I could feel how he drew a deep breath. My fingers stayed at the
nipple but my lips moved downward.

I've always liked a good and long foreplay, preferably with lots of
kissing. I was rather surprised how little it mattered that it was a
man I was kissing. I reached the end of his stomach and his scent
overpowered me. It was heavy and my immediate association was sex,
pure lust and sex. I sat up but had to brace myself. I was so turned
on that I was light-headed and almost dizzy. Slowly I placed myself
between his legs and kissed the tip of his cock. He tasted exactly
the way he smelled. It was a startling sensation. I hadn't expected
that. Women smell different from how they taste. I couldn't help but
moaning with pleasure when I took him in my mouth. I could feel his
pulse between my lips and how it increased as I slightly began to
suck. His breathing became short and strained and he whispered my
name.

I kissed the throbbing cock and stroked it. The lovely taste grew
stronger as tiny, clear drops emerged from opening at the top. I
found a perfect pace and moved up and down his length. I let my
tongue trace the outline of the head. One of my hands held down his
hip, keeping him steady, while the other fondled his balls. I was
rewarded with a muffled cry and his hands tugged at my hair trying
to pull me back.

"Paavo... wait... so close... don't!"

I lowered my mouth all the way down and buried my nose in his hair.
I held my mouth still but moved my tongue ruthlessly up and down the
shaft. Soon I felt a warm and wet saltiness pouring into my mouth.
He sat up, but stopped midway and fell back on the bed again. His
whole body was trembling. I didn't notice the flavour until he had
relaxed and the last drops had left his body. I had expected it to
be gross but it wasn't. It was mild and salty but kind of sweet. I
wouldn't describe it as delicious but it was the flavour of utter
satisfaction and I knew I'd want to feel that taste on my tongue
again.

I moved up and brushed my lips against his. He didn't respond at
first and I wondered if he had fallen asleep. But then he parted his
lips and claimed my tongue in a very awake way.

"Are you absolutely sure you haven't done this before?" he asked me
with a huge grin on his face. "That was... intense."

"Are you calling me a liar or a slut?" I poked his nose and he
snatched my finger into his mouth and bit it gently. "I won't deny
that I've thought about it though. How it would be like..."

"And how was it...?"

"I'm not complaining..." I kissed him quickly and giggled. "It was...
great. Really hot!"

"Yeah, I can tell..." he giggled even more than I did.

I blushed and moved my hip away from him, realizing that my hard on
was pressing against his thigh. Aki pushed me down on the mattress
and kissed the tip of my cock. I sighed but he left me in
anticipation and got off the bed. He rumbled around a drawer and
when he came back to bed he handed me a small package.

"Here..." he said and rolled over on his stomach.

"Are you sure?" I asked as I tore the rapping and rolled on the
condom.

"Hey, I thought you were new at this but you sure behaving like you
know what you're doing." He laughed. I just couldn't get enough of
that laughter. "I've changed my mind - I am calling you a slut!"

"Okay, I get the picture, I'm the one who should be hesitating,
right..."

"Yes, that's right. But remember, slow and easy. Okay, Paavo?"

"Yes I promise..."

I lined myself up, licked my fingers and stroked his entrance. Once
again his breathing was shallow and strained. He got up on his knees
and I leaned in and kissed his neck. My hand drifted down his back
and I could feel the outline of his muscles. I had never recognised
how beautiful the back of a man was before. Aki looked over his
shoulder and his eyes were burning with need. I entered him with one
finger and he let his head down and sighed. I didn't know what to do
and how much preparation that would be necessary. Cautiously I used
two digits, moving slowly in and out if his body.

"Paavo... please..." Aki begged.

I pulled back my hand and placed my swollen and aching cock at his
opening. I thrust carefully forward and Aki whimpered with
anticipation. The tip of my cock slipped inside of him and he pushed
back, arching into my movement. He made a small noise and at first I
didn't understand it. It might have been made out of pleasure but
maybe it was out of pain. If I hadn't come once already I would have
come right then and there. It was about the sexiest sound I had ever
heard. I wanted him to do it again so I drove my hardness to the
bottom. His muscle squeezed my shaft. I concentrated on the way he
felt as I slowly pulled out. He was so hot and tight. Then he made
that noise again and I could barely control myself. It was going to
be over far too quickly.

I leaned in to distract myself and kissed his neck. My hands reached
around him and found his cock. He was hard again and I began to
stroke him in the same beat that I was thrusting. Very soon I
discovered that it was totally wrong way of going about. The feeling
of Aki's body close to mine and his solid cock in my hand made me
even more exited. I felt my orgasm build up in my groin. Aki let go
and whimpered under my touch. The seconds that passed was
outstanding and that thrill was something I would always remember.
Aki shivered underneath me. He contracted around my cock as he came
and the sensation pushed me over the top. Our simultaneous release
was hard and long. I'm not sure but I think I might have cried out
loud. The pulsating pleasure felt like it would go on forever. Aki
turned his head and kissed me but it was as if the ability to
apprehend his touch on my skin was concentrated to my cock.

Finally I had nothing more to give and I collapsed on the bed taking
Aki with me. We stayed like that for a long time. I let my hands
drift all over his smooth chest and stomach. We kissed. When I
pulled out he turned to face me.

"Paavo... that was amazing."

I only managed to hum an answer. I was exhausted. Before I finally
fell asleep, I heard Aki's lovely laughter as he said, "Thank God
for poor taxi services".

The end