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We sat next to each other on the bed silently. He just kept shaking his head. Finally he looked over at me. "Please don't say that ever again." he begged. "I hate myself enough without adding the knowledge of how much pain I've added to your life."
"Sorry to add to your distress but that's just how it is." I took a deep breath, "So bottom line is you can't off yourself." I had to be strong. I swiped at my tears and sat up straighter.
"I can't off myself,” he repeated. "God, you are the most unique person I've ever met."
"Thought I was random." I reminded him softly.
"That too." he agreed. He got up and lit another cigarette. This time he thought to light one for me too. Coming back to the bed he handed it to me then sat. "Did Ray say why he was there?"
I took a drag before answering, "Same reason as I was there. To protect you." I looked at him. "Who's blood was on the knife?"
Once more I got that shocked look, "There was still blood?'
"Ray said there were still flecks. I didn't look."
"Laura this doesn't just involve me. If it did I would tell you the whole fucking sick story but I can't."
My mind had come up with so many different scenarios it was unbelievable. "Look this is eating you alive. Something has to be done."
"That's what I was gonna do. End it." He grabbed an ashtray and put it on the bed between us.
As I always did when I was upset I tried to lessen the seriousness. "Well I've already explained, no off-ing yourself. So what other options do we have?"
"Laura, there are no other options. I live with the fucking torment everyday. If the truth ever came out others would have to live with it too. I can't let that happen."
"Oh well then I'll just have to live with a tormented husband I guess." I was lying of course; I would find a way to help him.
"You still want to go ahead with this marriage idea?" He asked softly.
"Would you stop asking that? Yeah, Gerard, I'm gonna marry you." I leaned over snuffed out my cigarette then cupped his face between my palms, "And I'm gonna keep you safe."
"God, I wish I could believe that you really could." He said piercing me with those beautiful eyes.
"Believe me." I whispered brushing his lips with mine. "Just believe."
He broke away from the sweet kiss, "We better get some sleep. We gotta meet everyone at the airport at 6:30"
I nodded. He watched as I undress leaving on only my tee shirt and then we both slipped back into bed. Gerard pulled me into his arms. "I’m sorry about calling you that."
"Forget it." I kissed his hand that was under my neck. "Just don't do it again, buddy."
He laughed softly, "Got it." His other hand stroked my arm. "Laura?"
"Yeah?"
"Promise you won't take off again like you did? I was so fucking scared something was gonna happen to you."
I snuggled closer to him, "I'll promise if you promise."
"Promise" he said his voice filled with sadness.

I awoke to the smell of coffee; it's a good thing. Gerard stood holding two Styrofoam cups when I opened my eyes. 'It's 4:30 I didn't know how early you wanted me to wake you."
"How long is it gonna take to get to the airport?" I asked with a yawn.
"Depends on the traffic."
I sat up slowly and reached out for my coffee. I noticed he was smiling. "What?"
"Well you know we never did get our last night of unmarried sex."
"Oh hell, sex at this hour of the morning?" I took a sip of coffee and noticed that part of his anatomy was definitely thinking about it. I laughed.
"What?"
I giggled, 'Pants kinda tight?"
He looked down, "That's what looking at you lying there did to me." He answered honestly.
I glanced over at the clock "Well we better get down to business." I scooted over to the edge of the bed sat my coffee down on the nightstand then took his and did the same. He was watching me questioningly. I reached out and put my arms around his hips pulling him to me. As I sat on the edge of the bed I unzipped his jeans. "Loose them" I said in a no-nonsense manner.
He smiled and got himself out of them in record time. He also shed his shirt. His sex was straining so hard against the fabric of his boxers I could see the outline of the head. I touched it, swirling it with the tip of my finger until he shuddered. He cupped my shoulders as I hooked my fingers under the elastic waistband and pulled the boxers down slowly.
On my way down my tongue flicked across the velvety tip. He jerked, his fingers digging into my shoulders. I took my time ridding him of the boxers so my tongue could work it's magic. Because the boxers were half way down his legs he couldn't move.
I heard him moan as he threaded his fingers through my hair. I drew his entire tip into my mouth and he uttered, "Fuck".
I took more of him into my mouth and he shuddered again. I began teasing with my tongue, swirling around until I reached the base. His penis was throbbing. I was so enjoying this. Suddenly he pushed on my shoulders making me fall back on the bed.
\ He pulled off my Tee and threw it across the room. Scooting me up further on the bed he knelt between my legs and I watched as his head dipped between my legs to kiss me. Then his fingers spread me open and he kissed me again, this time his tongue slid in. I arched my back and moaned. "Fuck, Gerard."
He looked up at me his eyes glassy and filled with passion. "Oh you want me to fuck you?" he asked already knowing the answer. He positioned himself and slid into me smoothly. It felt so good. "You're so hot and wet." he whispered in my ear.
"For you." I said breathlessly, "For you."
"Shit I wish we had more time, ” he said thrusting deeper and deeper.
"So good" I uttered, "Feels so good"
"Yeah" He quickened the pace.
My fingers pulled his head down and my tongue invaded his open mouth. I wrapped my legs around his back and pushed him as deeply as he could go. I caught myself before I could utter, "I love you."
A few moments more and I felt his wet hot cum fill me. It was just what I needed. I let go and the feeling washed over me.
"Fuck" he uttered as I unwrapped my legs and he rolled off me.
I smiled, "How ya gonna top that once we're married?" I teased as I reached over and pushed his damp hair out of his eyes.
"Got no fucking idea but I'm up to the challenge." He said returning my smile.