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Normal P.O.V.
Kyler and Eliza sat in an uncomfortable silence at the kitchen table, each fidgeting; tapping their feet and twirling the cup of tea in their hands. Kyler opened and shut his mouth repeatedly, instantly thinking of something to say then quickly backed out, too nervous and scared to say anything to his mother. He really didn't want to cause an argument or say the wrong thing. This is ridiculous. She's your mom and you should be able to tell her what's on your mind and what you truly think. Kyler thought, trying to persuade himself to talk, to say anything that came to mind.
"Mom?" Kyler whispered, looking up slightly and moving his black hair from his eyes. His eyes quickly gazed down at his cup of tea, the white spiral of milk intriguing him and then he snapped his head up, staring at his mother from across the table. Eliza looked up, nodding for Kyler to continue whilst tucking small strands of brown hair behind her ears.
"Are you ok? ... I mean you are ok with my decisions, right?" Kyler asked nervously, his heart racing in his chest and he was afraid it would erupt any minute.
Eliza looked up, chewing on her lip nervously, obviously thinking and deciding about what to say and what final decision to make. He's my son. I love him no matter what so why is this so difficult? I mean I shouldn't care if he's gay and I won't...right? Eliza shook her head, her thoughts of not accepting Kyler was like a dagger piercing her heart. She took in a shaky breath.
"Look, Kyler. I'm really sorry about what I said. I was in total shock and I just didn't know what to do so I got angry and took it out on you." Eliza sighed, looking at Kyler's scared and sad eyes.
"I'm angry because you didn't tell me before!" Eliza whispered harshly, her jaw clenched as tight as a vice before she sucked in a deep breath through her mouth.
"How long have you been gay?" Eliza asked, eyeing Kyler as he fumbled with his hands and moved uncomfortably in his seat.
"For as long as I can remember. I wasn't positive about it till ..." Kyler stopped before he mentioned Gerard. "About a month ago." He finally muttered, sinking back into his chair.
"A month?! Why didn't you tell me Kyler? I'm your Mother and you should be able to trust me and confide in me about these things!" Eliza nearly shrieked but managed to contain herself. She was obviously mad but didn't want to cause anymore trouble between herself and Kyler. Kyler looked taken aback my his mothers response and cleared his throat before responding.
"Because I was afraid something like yesterday would happen. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I was just scared." Kyler stated, feeling more brave to stand up to his mom and say what he truly thought. "What you said to me ... do you know how much that hurt? It fucking killed me inside."
Eliza was wide eyed, Kyler had never sworn in front of her, the guilt was getting heavier and weighing her down. She knew she hurt him, she hurt herself. She didn't mean the disgusting and hurtful words that flew from her mouth yesterday and wished she could take them back.
"I-I'm sorry, ok?" Eliza choked out, tears trickling down her cheeks as she cried openly. Kyler now felt guilty, rushing over to his mom and wrapping his arms round her shoulder as she sobbed into his shoulder. "I didn't mean what I said, I love you for who you are."
"I know, I know. I'm sorry." Kyler comforted his mom as she apologized over and over.
About ten minutes later, after Eliza had stopped crying, Kyler was back in his seat and now smiling as his mom seemed a bit happier.
"So yeah, now for the next questions I guess." Eliza smiled and Kyler gave a nervous chuckle. Oh god, what's next? Kyler thought as he awaited Eliza's questions.
"You and Gerard?" Kyler nearly choked on air and he looked up nervously glancing at Eliza, grunting a 'yeah' whilst shrugging his shoulders. Shit. Shit. Fuck.
"How long have you two been erm together?"
"I-It was a month yesterday." Eliza let out a shocked 'oh' and Kyler nodded, feeling a bit more comfortable and thankful that Eliza didn't explode.
"I'm happy for you two." Kyler gave her a shocked look and a small chuckle escaped her lips. "I really am. But just be careful..."
"What do you mean, be careful?"
Gerard's P.O.V.
I sat there, tears running down my face, my whole body tense and shivering in shock and sadness. I looked up at Ray who was also crying and the guilt I felt was killing me.
"Ray I'm so sorry." I choked out, getting up and throwing my arms over his shoulders, hugging him tightly and nuzzling into his neck as we both cried. I rubbed circles on Ray's back, trying to sooth him whilst I took big intakes of breath trying to calm myself.
"She just... she went to fast and it was so unexpected." Ray choked out.
"How did she, you know?" I whispered and let go of Ray, wiping my tears away and looked up into his heart broken eyes.
"Heart attack. She was still young, I mean... god why her?" Ray sniffled. I shook my head and wrapped my arms around him once again, lightly kissing his neck.
"I don't know, she didn't deserve it. I'm so sorry."
Normal P.O.V.
The clock in the bedroom turned to 6:00pm and Gerard lay in bed, sniffling as thoughts of Ray's mom came flooding back. He loved her like his own mother and she thought of him like a son. Gerard let his heavy eye lids close shut, now he was in complete darkness and drifted off into a deep sleep.
A few minutes later, Kyler was walking up the path to Gerard's. He shoved his hand into his pocket and pulled out the key that Gerard had given him two weeks ago then quickly unlocked the door. After he had shut it behind him, he toed his shoes off and wondered why it was so quiet.
"He might be in bed." Kyler muttered to himself and climbed the stairs to Gerard's room. He peeked in and saw that Gerard was in fact sleeping and Kyler smiled at how peaceful the singer looked but then it disappeared as he got closer and realized he had been crying. Tissues were scattered beside Gerard and Kyler instantly worried but couldn't bring himself to wake Gerard up. Kyler quietly walked over to the left side of the bed, lifting the sheet up and slowly easing himself down onto the bed. Kyler turned on his side and wrapped his arm around Gerard's waist, making the other man jump and stir from his sleep slightly.
"Mmm Kyler?"
"Yeah it's me, what's up?" Gerard sighed and brought his hand to Kyler's which was resting on his stomach and entwined their fingers.
"Ray came round." Kyler let out a worried 'oh' and Gerard squeezed his hand, shaking his head. "Not in that way, don't worry. But he had bad news, his mom passed away."
"I'm so sorry, is he ok?" Kyler asked, nuzzling into Gerard's neck and placed small kisses along his neck.
"He's doing ok, really upset as you can imagine but he's good." Gerard sighed, moving around on the bed till he was finally facing Kyler. His hand rested on Kyler's waist and he snuck his hand beneath the fabric, lightly caressing the soft skin.
"How did things with your mom go?" Gerard groggily asked whilst rubbing his eyes.
"They went really good. I'm just glad I'm back here with you, I missed you."
"I missed you too." Gerard smiled, leaning closer and placing his soft lips onto Kyler's who moaned in delight. Kyler wasn't up for being slow and steady tonight, Gerard let out a shocked moan and Kyler forced his tongue into the others mouth. For the next few minutes, they laid there kissing, each one getting more passionate with the last. Gerard released Kyler's mouth and attacked his neck, leaving wet kisses from his chin down to his collar bone. He bit gently down on the flesh, lightly sucking and the younger man let out a moan of pleasure. Kyler's hands wandered up underneath Gerard's shirt and tugged at the hem, the other man understood and got up, sitting on his knees whilst lifting his arms up. Kyler sat up, slowly removing Gerard's shirt then almost instantly his tongue was running down the older mans chest and stomach. Kyler quickly removed his shirt then lunged himself at Gerard, their lips meeting in a sloppy but passionate kiss. Gerard's erection was very visible as was Kyler's. Gerard traced his hand down the younger mans stomach then began to massage his bulge through the denim of his jeans. Kyler's lips ripped from Gerard's, his head flung back as he released a needy moan then realization hit him.. this was going further then either of them had gone, I mean they went a bit further but Kyler was starting to panic and Gerard could sense this.
"Babe, we don't have to do anything you don't want to." Gerard whispered, caressing Kyler's flushed cheeks but Kyler shook his head.
"N-No. I want too."
"Are you sure?" Gerard asked.
"Positive."
Kyler and Eliza sat in an uncomfortable silence at the kitchen table, each fidgeting; tapping their feet and twirling the cup of tea in their hands. Kyler opened and shut his mouth repeatedly, instantly thinking of something to say then quickly backed out, too nervous and scared to say anything to his mother. He really didn't want to cause an argument or say the wrong thing. This is ridiculous. She's your mom and you should be able to tell her what's on your mind and what you truly think. Kyler thought, trying to persuade himself to talk, to say anything that came to mind.
"Mom?" Kyler whispered, looking up slightly and moving his black hair from his eyes. His eyes quickly gazed down at his cup of tea, the white spiral of milk intriguing him and then he snapped his head up, staring at his mother from across the table. Eliza looked up, nodding for Kyler to continue whilst tucking small strands of brown hair behind her ears.
"Are you ok? ... I mean you are ok with my decisions, right?" Kyler asked nervously, his heart racing in his chest and he was afraid it would erupt any minute.
Eliza looked up, chewing on her lip nervously, obviously thinking and deciding about what to say and what final decision to make. He's my son. I love him no matter what so why is this so difficult? I mean I shouldn't care if he's gay and I won't...right? Eliza shook her head, her thoughts of not accepting Kyler was like a dagger piercing her heart. She took in a shaky breath.
"Look, Kyler. I'm really sorry about what I said. I was in total shock and I just didn't know what to do so I got angry and took it out on you." Eliza sighed, looking at Kyler's scared and sad eyes.
"I'm angry because you didn't tell me before!" Eliza whispered harshly, her jaw clenched as tight as a vice before she sucked in a deep breath through her mouth.
"How long have you been gay?" Eliza asked, eyeing Kyler as he fumbled with his hands and moved uncomfortably in his seat.
"For as long as I can remember. I wasn't positive about it till ..." Kyler stopped before he mentioned Gerard. "About a month ago." He finally muttered, sinking back into his chair.
"A month?! Why didn't you tell me Kyler? I'm your Mother and you should be able to trust me and confide in me about these things!" Eliza nearly shrieked but managed to contain herself. She was obviously mad but didn't want to cause anymore trouble between herself and Kyler. Kyler looked taken aback my his mothers response and cleared his throat before responding.
"Because I was afraid something like yesterday would happen. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I was just scared." Kyler stated, feeling more brave to stand up to his mom and say what he truly thought. "What you said to me ... do you know how much that hurt? It fucking killed me inside."
Eliza was wide eyed, Kyler had never sworn in front of her, the guilt was getting heavier and weighing her down. She knew she hurt him, she hurt herself. She didn't mean the disgusting and hurtful words that flew from her mouth yesterday and wished she could take them back.
"I-I'm sorry, ok?" Eliza choked out, tears trickling down her cheeks as she cried openly. Kyler now felt guilty, rushing over to his mom and wrapping his arms round her shoulder as she sobbed into his shoulder. "I didn't mean what I said, I love you for who you are."
"I know, I know. I'm sorry." Kyler comforted his mom as she apologized over and over.
About ten minutes later, after Eliza had stopped crying, Kyler was back in his seat and now smiling as his mom seemed a bit happier.
"So yeah, now for the next questions I guess." Eliza smiled and Kyler gave a nervous chuckle. Oh god, what's next? Kyler thought as he awaited Eliza's questions.
"You and Gerard?" Kyler nearly choked on air and he looked up nervously glancing at Eliza, grunting a 'yeah' whilst shrugging his shoulders. Shit. Shit. Fuck.
"How long have you two been erm together?"
"I-It was a month yesterday." Eliza let out a shocked 'oh' and Kyler nodded, feeling a bit more comfortable and thankful that Eliza didn't explode.
"I'm happy for you two." Kyler gave her a shocked look and a small chuckle escaped her lips. "I really am. But just be careful..."
"What do you mean, be careful?"
Gerard's P.O.V.
I sat there, tears running down my face, my whole body tense and shivering in shock and sadness. I looked up at Ray who was also crying and the guilt I felt was killing me.
"Ray I'm so sorry." I choked out, getting up and throwing my arms over his shoulders, hugging him tightly and nuzzling into his neck as we both cried. I rubbed circles on Ray's back, trying to sooth him whilst I took big intakes of breath trying to calm myself.
"She just... she went to fast and it was so unexpected." Ray choked out.
"How did she, you know?" I whispered and let go of Ray, wiping my tears away and looked up into his heart broken eyes.
"Heart attack. She was still young, I mean... god why her?" Ray sniffled. I shook my head and wrapped my arms around him once again, lightly kissing his neck.
"I don't know, she didn't deserve it. I'm so sorry."
Normal P.O.V.
The clock in the bedroom turned to 6:00pm and Gerard lay in bed, sniffling as thoughts of Ray's mom came flooding back. He loved her like his own mother and she thought of him like a son. Gerard let his heavy eye lids close shut, now he was in complete darkness and drifted off into a deep sleep.
A few minutes later, Kyler was walking up the path to Gerard's. He shoved his hand into his pocket and pulled out the key that Gerard had given him two weeks ago then quickly unlocked the door. After he had shut it behind him, he toed his shoes off and wondered why it was so quiet.
"He might be in bed." Kyler muttered to himself and climbed the stairs to Gerard's room. He peeked in and saw that Gerard was in fact sleeping and Kyler smiled at how peaceful the singer looked but then it disappeared as he got closer and realized he had been crying. Tissues were scattered beside Gerard and Kyler instantly worried but couldn't bring himself to wake Gerard up. Kyler quietly walked over to the left side of the bed, lifting the sheet up and slowly easing himself down onto the bed. Kyler turned on his side and wrapped his arm around Gerard's waist, making the other man jump and stir from his sleep slightly.
"Mmm Kyler?"
"Yeah it's me, what's up?" Gerard sighed and brought his hand to Kyler's which was resting on his stomach and entwined their fingers.
"Ray came round." Kyler let out a worried 'oh' and Gerard squeezed his hand, shaking his head. "Not in that way, don't worry. But he had bad news, his mom passed away."
"I'm so sorry, is he ok?" Kyler asked, nuzzling into Gerard's neck and placed small kisses along his neck.
"He's doing ok, really upset as you can imagine but he's good." Gerard sighed, moving around on the bed till he was finally facing Kyler. His hand rested on Kyler's waist and he snuck his hand beneath the fabric, lightly caressing the soft skin.
"How did things with your mom go?" Gerard groggily asked whilst rubbing his eyes.
"They went really good. I'm just glad I'm back here with you, I missed you."
"I missed you too." Gerard smiled, leaning closer and placing his soft lips onto Kyler's who moaned in delight. Kyler wasn't up for being slow and steady tonight, Gerard let out a shocked moan and Kyler forced his tongue into the others mouth. For the next few minutes, they laid there kissing, each one getting more passionate with the last. Gerard released Kyler's mouth and attacked his neck, leaving wet kisses from his chin down to his collar bone. He bit gently down on the flesh, lightly sucking and the younger man let out a moan of pleasure. Kyler's hands wandered up underneath Gerard's shirt and tugged at the hem, the other man understood and got up, sitting on his knees whilst lifting his arms up. Kyler sat up, slowly removing Gerard's shirt then almost instantly his tongue was running down the older mans chest and stomach. Kyler quickly removed his shirt then lunged himself at Gerard, their lips meeting in a sloppy but passionate kiss. Gerard's erection was very visible as was Kyler's. Gerard traced his hand down the younger mans stomach then began to massage his bulge through the denim of his jeans. Kyler's lips ripped from Gerard's, his head flung back as he released a needy moan then realization hit him.. this was going further then either of them had gone, I mean they went a bit further but Kyler was starting to panic and Gerard could sense this.
"Babe, we don't have to do anything you don't want to." Gerard whispered, caressing Kyler's flushed cheeks but Kyler shook his head.
"N-No. I want too."
"Are you sure?" Gerard asked.
"Positive."
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