i don't think you're a sorry excuse for a human being. you may have your reasons for feeling like this but self pity won't get you anywhere. you're busy torturing yourself while you could be working on getting better.
now i sound like an idiot. don't get me wrong, i mean what i say, but somehow i can't really express it and i also know how it's hard to understand.
so please keep being yourself.
you'll be happy you did once you've solved all problems-or at least leanred how to deal with them. that takes ages, but pays off, so please keep being your wonderful fucking self.
and you really don't burden me. feel fres to vent anytime^-^