Long Chapter! It's my birthday so you get a big treat between Rose and Gerard. And a huge surprise between Rose and Brendon.
I had a peaceful sleep, full of amazing and passionate dreams. Where I finally got that kiss that Frank interrupted; and trust me, he would hear about that from me! Where Gerard kept me safe from Chad and all of the other burdens of life. A life where I was embraced in nothing but love.
Of course, I just had to wake up though. Although, it was my first morning of being Gerard's sweetheart. I knew all of the guys would already know about us. From either Frankie or Gerard, or both. So it wasn't a big surprise when Gerard wrapped me up in a big hug right infront of the guys and Lilly. That hug could NOT be misunderstood for a 'friendship hug'. Deffinitley more than that, and nobody is that stupid or clueless to not see that. Not even my nine year old sister. A huge smile krept onto her lips.
I continued toward the poptarts, my original destination. Gerard followed close behind me. I took a bite of my poptart. Gerard started talking to me in a tone I don't think I had ever been spoken to in. So sweet and loving, sigh... "Good morning, my little beautiful."
"Hey, Gee. I have a favor to ask." I looked up at him, straight into his hazel eyes.
"Go ahead," He stroked a piece of my hair behind my ear. Typical 'how-to-get-a-girl-in-10-seconds' kind of book romance.
"I had a song pop into my head this morning and well a theme for my album too. I haven't even tried playing or singing it yet but I have a feeling you could maybe help me with it. You know, since you're like my rock god." I did want his help with my ideas but I mostly wanted to have some alone time with him while doing something we're both so passionate in.
"Of course." Gerard took my hand and led me to my room. I heard snickers from behind me and saw Lilly sitting in between Mikey and Frank. Well, that's an understatement, she was practically sitting on Frank's lap. She kept motioning for me to go foward. I knew she was all for Gerard and me but I also knew she would be telling mom. I'm not sure how she would think of it. Either completely sweet and romantic or completely irresponsable behavior to be doing around my little sister. Probably a little of both. I know my mom wants me to be with someone like Gerard (like really bad). After Chad, I hadn't dated in two years and I know she's getting worried about me. She believes in getting married young. And here I am with my big 21st birthday coming up in less than two weeks and I have know intensions on dating. Let alone, getting married.
I sat on my bed and grabbed my baby, my red Fender Stratacaster. Although, when it came down to it my 'baby' shouldn't even be allowed to breathe. I've had her since I was 15 or 16 and it has endored much beatings. I'm in much need of a replacement. She still plays though so until I can't squeek a tune out of her she'll be my baby.
I started strumming an unfamiliar melody and surprised myself when it sounded exactly like how I would have dreamed for it to come out. I had absolutely no flaws in my creation and it all sounded so fluent. Vibrations were coming off of my amp, a sure sign of good music. I couldn't help but let a smile and sigh of relief fall out of my lips, so glad that I hadn't made a fool out of myself yet.
I mumbled something just loud enough for him to hear right before I began singing, "Don't laugh at me if it sounds like crap please. K?"
"Catching my back,
And every dead sin it leaves you!
Forget the breaking,
I'm not so lost an' confusing!
Stupid girl, you're no better than me!
Why are you letting me play with your life?
I've got nothing better to do,
But forget the games
Oh, let it go
Let it go (sorry)
Choose your words,
She'll twist them too
All she is, is wasting away
Like the Wicked Witch she is
Tainted heart, no emotion
Wicked Witch of the West
You're lost, no reason to go back
Just follow the yellow brick road
No one cares anymore
They all forgot,
About the past they used to have
It's all over, don't be ashamed.
Choose your words,
She'll twist them too
All she is, is wasting away
Like the Wicked Witch she is"
I sat my guitar down and looked up at Gerard. He had shock all over his face. Oh god. Was it that bad? "I'm sorry. I just wanted your imput. I see it was really bad. There goes that idea. I guess I'll just do the usual break up theme. You took all the good crazy ones."
"NO! It's amazing. I honestly never thought something could sound so beautiful yet so edgy at the same time. Then again, I see you every day and that's proof enough. Sorry, I love it. Please tell me more about this idea you're talking about." Gerard sounded generally interested and sincere about his words.
"Well, it's just an idea I really like. Tell me what you think. I want it to be like a fairytale theme but kind of twisted. Like Snow White, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Beauty and the Beast. Disney Classics. Or in this case, The Wizard of Ozz. I've started on the main song. It's called Twisted Princess and it's about Snow White. The album cover could me biting into the poisonous apple and the back could be like the Seven Dwarfs or something."
"Simply brilliant, my dear. Can I hear it?"
"Nope, I want that one to be perfect when you hear it because I think it's my best work and at least 10 times better than this one, Wicked Witch." After I said this amazement overcame in his eyes.
"I doubt that is even possible. It's amazing, really amazing actually. Later today will you show the guys your new song too?" I nodded my head in response to his question. Then he continued, "Maybe we can help speed up the recording process. If you don't have someone who is already pretty well known pushing to help you it can be pretty difficult and take up to a year and a half to even think about getting you recorded. But with us helping you could probably start recording this month." I smiled at his genorosity. I was so greatful to have someone on my side, helping me every inch of the way.
"You don't know what that means coming from you." I spoke.
"You don't know what you mean to me, my love." I couldn't understand why Gee found me so interesting or why he loved me or how he could be so romantic. All I knew, is that for once those stupid rats didn't have any part of this and that I wouldn't let them get in the way. "You need to start getting ready though because the bus is dropping us off in less than an hour. It's already half past noon."
"I don't know what to wear," I said shyly.
"Just dress casual but not too casual." He smiled at me before he whispered into my ear. "No matter what you wear you look amazing."
I smiled and grabbed his hand, leading him to the door, signaling that it was time for him to get out so I could get ready. When the door was only open a sliver of a crack I kissed his cheek. His skin was perfect and as smooth as it could get. I felt his pulse stop and then quicken, mine doing the same. I wanted to reach for his lips and kiss him with passion but I restrained myself, wanting to save that for later. I smirked at him, seeing how he was shocked and frozen in space. "Now go," Is all I said before pushing him out of the door, leaving him probably standing there and unable to move for some time.
My feet echoed while I walked to my suitcase. I pulled out a pair of black skinny jeans and a pink and black bustier top. Gerard told me to dress casually, for me it wasn't too casual but I also knew that I wanted to look really nice for Gee. I went to the bathroom and dashed a bit of powder on my face. I coated my eyes with a bit of eyeliner and mascara, finishing my eyes with a bit of light pink shadow, almost too little to see. I finished my rare look with a bit of red lip taint. I left my hair wavy for this once. Thinking that I may just start wearing it natural instead of flat ironing it each day.
After I chose my outfit and started thinking about the time of year and weather outside I began to reconsider my outfit. It was late October and getting pretty chilly. I had forgotten and only packed my yellow trench coat. I quickly decided to keep the outfit and just hope that the jacket would work. It would, I was sure of that. It would probably pull together or atleast make it look like my original style.
I checked my watch, 1:05. I had exceeded my usual time limit of 10 minutes. Then again I did actually dress up this time so no wonder it took me a little over 30 minutes. I finsihed right on time actually because just then I heard a knock on the door and the bus slowing down. I opened the door and found Gerard standing in front of me. He was also wearing black skinny jeans, but the differences in our outfits were that his actually matched. It completed with his usual band tee and a blue jean jacket. His long black hair just seemed to shine.
"I need some cake, Gerard." I gave him a puppy dog face.
"I'll see what I can do about that. Shall we?" He held out his hand for me to take and I glady took it. We probably looked like a perfect match. Both of our black hair shining and wavy, our matching black skinny jeans, his black boots and my black converse, my green eyes and his hazel.
"Do they know about us?" I looked at him for the answer and he nodded his head. "Thanks for telling me, buddy," I said sarcastically. We stepped off the bus and I ran after Frank, Mikey, Ray, and Lilly. Wait, where's Bob? Gerard acted as if he knew exactly what I was thinking when he whispered, "Bob likes to sleep for most parties."
"Party? I thought this was some boring music conference!"
"Sweetheart, we don't have boring music conferences." Why did he have to be so unbelievably charming and handsome? I couldn't even stay the smallest bit mad at him.
"Fine. Who's party?" I settled on.
"That's the surprise."
"Ugh! There better be cake there!" I felt a huge craving for my chocolate cake again.
"I'll do what I can." Just when he said that we entered the gates of a nice sized house. Gerard and the rest of the band were greeted by an assortment of people. Me on the other hand was a different story. I had the occasional, "Now, who is this, Gerard?" and he would tell them.
I recognized some of the people there, rock bands mostly. It was pretty cool, don't get me wrong but I wasn't really fazed. Especially when I saw someone that made everyone else I met feel like almost nothing. Katy Perry was standing maybe 15 feet away from me, walking towards us. The differerence in the way she greeted us from everyone else? She didn't automatically approach My Chem. In fact, she seemed like she was not the least bit interested in them. Instead she introduced herself to ME. "Oh my, you MUST be Rosemary Blake. I have been absolutely dying to meet you. I was really hoping you would show up. It's a pleasure to meet you."q
"Thanks. But please call me Rose."
She smiled and said, "Katy. Now boys, how about you leave us girls alone and let us chat. Bye." And at that everyone else except for Gerard dissapeared. But Gerard only squeezed my shoulder before he dissapeared with the rest.
"Hmm, now that you are here. I can finally stop hearing from my girlfriend. She's the one basically bouncing off of her feet wanting to meet you. She's who got me listening to some of your work. Really amazing, by the way. She better be where I left her." Katy talked A LOT. It suited her though.
We continued walking until we entered the back door and I spotted someone's very familiar, impossible not to recognize, back of there head. The red hair could belong to no other than, Haley Williams. I should have known that's who Katy was talking about. They're practically best friends. When Haley turned around her smile turned up 5 notches and her eyes 10. She ran over to us, escaping the conversation she was having with Spencer Smith. Wait, Spencer??? Does that mean Brendon's here too? Maybe I'll get to find out what was about that weird behavior last night.
"OH MY GOD! IT'S YOU!!! Rosemary Blake! I'm sorry, Hayley Williams. I can't wait to be best friends."
I couldn't help but smile, knowing this is my kind of girl. Actually, both Hayley and Katy are. All I could think to say was, "Me too. Do you have any cake?"
The girls both laughed but shook there head. Ugh, Gerard! We talked for about a hour and by the time we were finished talking about the stupidest things (yet, they were very funny) we were really good friends. I only left to go find Gerard and then I would meet up with them again.
I started gliding through the crowd, trying to spot Gerard but I had no luck. I couldn't see any of My Chem. I did see Brendon though. I was about to chicken out of confronting him about last night because I knew my temper would get the best of me but he also saw me and started walking my way. I took a chill pill and put on my big girl panties before I began to talk. "Hello, Brendon. We meet again." Ok, so maybe it wasn't exactly what I expected or wanted to come out of my mouth but I was trying!
"I guess we do." Brendon began walking out of the crowd, toward a row of cars.
"So, what was last night about?" I stood with my hand on my hip, accusingly.
"I had an impulsion." He acted as if that was all he wanted to say but I just shook my head, no. "Fine. It embarrases me to be seen acting like that."
"So jealous of what you and Gerard have together." He seemed like he was getting shy.
"I'm sorry I'm lost. Jealous? What?" I was so confused.
"I know you two have something going. I'm not stupid. It makes me jealous and you know what, nevermind. Forget it all."
"No. I want to hear everything," I demanded.
"Fine. You want to hear everything? You want to hear everything that goes through my mind when I see you. When I'm with you I feel like nothing could ever stop me. I feel amazing and happy. I know I don't have a chance though." He stopped long enough to see the confused look on my face. "You don't get it do you? I've fallen for you, Rosemary. Though I've only known you for several short days I've fallen for you. From the first time we exchanged words. You're different than everbody else. You're fun to be around, you're impossible not to love. Well, I guess you can see that. Those beautiful green eyes could pull anyone in. I don't care how long or how hard I have to fight Gerard for you. I'm atleast going to try to win you."
"I.. I don't know what to say. Thanks?"
"How about we just escape this conversation. Now that you know my deepest feelings..." His voice trailed off, seeming like he was ashamed of himself for telling me. "I have a surprise for you. I think you're going to like it very much." We walked by the row of cars, stopping at a familiar escalade. He opened the back door and pulled something out. He turned back around with a cake in his hands.
A huge smile played onto my lips. "How'd you know?"
"Well, I saw how much you liked cake and how could I forget anything about you? I thought you would enjoy it."
"I do. Thank you so much. I was just telling Gerard how much I wanted some cake." I smiled hugely.
"You're too adorable, Rosie." Instead of doing what I usually would have done I hugged him tightly and he returned the hug while he threaded his fingers through my hair. We didn't let go for a good 30 seconds but before we did Brendon kissed my forehead. After we finally did seperate we stared into each other's eyes.
Well, untill I saw Gerard out of the corner of my eye. I broke away from Brendon's gaze and started shifting back and forth, like I had been caught red handed. Brendon and Gerard shot each other several looks before Brendon turned to leave, saying over his shoulder, "Think about what I told you." He didn't even stay long enough to hear if I was going to respond. So instead, I looked at Gerard. He was smiling down at me and I gave him a hug. Our faces were just inches apart. I knew I wanted to do this. I checked left and right as much as I could without physically having to move my head, I didn't see Brendon. I continued to lean toward his lips while he leaned toward mine until they finally touched. A spark of energy flew. Something I had never felt. Not with my first kiss when I was 13, not with teenage crushes, deffinitley not with Chad. I know it sounds so stereotypical, but it seemed better than any kiss could ever be. Time was frozen, everything around us a blur. Our lips mingling with one another.
His lips were smooth and moist. His kisses gentle, sweet, and passionate being careful not to hurt me. My arms wrapped against his neck, grabbing a hold of his hair. Our kisses began to get rougher, he started to lose his caution. Before we got too far Gerard pulled away and whispered in my ear, "More when there aren't so many people around, love." We stepped away from each other and I turned around only to see Brendon in the distance. I had a ping in my stomach overcome me. A look of pure dissapointment was clearly displayed on his face, even from afar.