I walked to school with a damn plan. I’m pretty sure I ran to school because I was there before the buses even got there. I sat in our usual spot outside on the stairs. I just waited for her to walk by. I was just daring her, in my mind, to say a word to me. The guys all showed up. “Gerard you look fucking scary” Frank said sitting next to me “are you alright dude?” “Yea I’m just peachy. Thanks for asking.” “Where’s Mike?” “I don’t know, I left pretty early.” Frankie started laughing “It’s usually the other way around.” “Not today good friend.”
Where the fuck is she? I sat there and just waited forever. She never came. Lunch rolled around and I looked around for her everywhere. I sat on the stairs like we normally do. Everyone was already there. “Where have you been?” Mikey asked. “Around…Where is Benji?” “I don’t know, she’s probably with her friends.” Bob spoke up. I don’t know why he’s been trying to defend her. Those two never even talked. So I know they haven’t talked, she probably spent the night at everyone’s house but mine. I couldn’t help but text her “Where are you?” she took forever to reply. “With the guys. They’re getting ready to get on their plane back home.” That’s the best she could come with?
I hugged on to Zack so tight. “I love you babe. We’ll be back in no time.” “I love you too.” “I’m glad to see that you guys finally did this.” Jimmy smiled. I turned pink. “Me too” Zack spoke up. “Well we’re gonna miss you more now…” Matt hugged me. That turned into a big group hug. I couldn’t help but cry again. I love these guys. Everyone got in the taxi but Zack “So this is it. Love you babe.” “Zacky…What does this mean with us?” “We can’t be together just yet. The distance is too much.” Those words pierced my heart. “No Benji, don’t be upset. Wait for me baby. You only have a few months until you turn 18. Then you can live with us again and we’ll be together forever and ever.” I just nodded and kissed him “I love you.” “I love you too, please cheer up. I never want to see a single sad tear fall out of those eyes.” I just nodded and kissed him again “Good-bye” “Bye babe…” I turned around and walked back inside.
I walked back to my bed and just cried. I don’t understand why we can’t just have each other now. What is a few thousand miles? If he can call me and text me, it’s almost like he’s right here. I cried all night, then cried more once I realized I probably had no friends at school now. I just felt really alone in the world.