Naruto is the way he is because...he watches Sasuke sleeping? Basically a run-through of things that make Naruto, Naruto! Warning: shounen-ai, not humour! m/m, NaruSasuNaru, ONESHOT
While You Were Sleeping
While You Were Sleeping
Naruto x Sasuke
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto but I DO own this story and whatever
happens in it!
You didn't know, did you
Sasuke-kun? That while you were asleep, I watched you carefully from your bedroom
I watch you slumber every night,
because I know that the next morning, you'll grumble at me for being late. It's
better than if you ignore me completely because I'll hear your voice directed
Isn't it nice, Sasuke-kun? To be
I've never been loved. Maybe by
Iruka, but he's my teacher so he has to love me. I watch you turn over in your
sleep, this time, you're facing me. I freeze on my position at your bedside
window and then relax when I realize that you're still snoozing.
Did you know, Sasuke-kun, that I
go to sleep late at night, or well into the morning, knowing I can be put to
rest now that you're asleep, safe and sound? Why do I do it? Why do I
recklessly force myself to stay awake until you're tucked underneath your covers
and running off into Lala-Land?
Am I worried that someone will
take you away? I laugh at myself, Sasuke-kun.
Why do I call you Sasuke-kun,
when during the daytime as you're fully awake, I call you Sasuke-teme? Why do I
shout at you for being a bastard, when at night I call you my love? Koibito?
We're not even proper friends yet, Sasuke-kun.
I respect you, yet you hate me.
Do you know how much it hurts, Sasuke-kun?
I shift into a more comfortable
position, drawing up the zipper of my jacket. I wear it all the time because at
night, it gets so cold whenever I'm watching you, snug and warm under your
You dig your head deeper into
your soft, plushy pillow, and for a moment, I yawn and nearly fall off the
ledge from sleepiness.
Do you know that I feel guilty,
Sasuke-kun, whenever I miss out on a day of watching you to catch up on missed
sleep? You call me dumb and stupid, dobe meaning dead last or usuratonkachi,
meaning morons of morons. You made that name especially for the baka that I am.
I'm such an idiot sometimes; do you realize that, Sasuke-kun? Maybe that's why
I'm always failing...
I fail because I can't
concentrate. You're always on my mind and distract me from what I should be
I lose much needed sleep just to
watch you at night, Sasuke-kun, making it hard for me to focus the next day.
I watch as you sigh, a small pout
on your cute lips. Dear God! What are you doing to me? You'd kill me if I told
you that you pout in your sleep. Wait, scratch that. You'd snort and walk away
because you wouldn't believe me. Uchiha's don't pout, do they, Sasuke-kun? You
should know, you are one.
I know that waking up will be
hell. I hardly have time for brushing my teeth, washing my face, combing my
hair. Maybe that's why it's always so unruly every time you see me. I feel so
Most of the time I miss
breakfast, which is why I'm always stuffing my face with ramen each chance I
get. It's the closest shop to your house, Sasuke-kun, which sells the tastiest
food. That means that I can conveniently get in a quick snack at Ichiraku's
before taking up my usual post near your window again, every night. I don't
mind eating it all the time, so long as it means that I can reach your house
just in time for you to sleep.
I get so frustrated sometimes.
You sleep at random intervals, sometimes early, sometimes so late that I don't
see you until the point that my body is protesting for me to give up and go to
bed. But I ignore it and watch and wait until you do.
I get the worst of it from the
changing weather and seasons.
I'll watch you whenever possible,
Sasuke-kun. Summer nights are horrible and sticky and I'd have to remove my
jacket just to be comfortable. Even worse than summer nights are winter nights.
The temperatures reach so cold that I'm shivering under the many layers that I
prepare. I wear a scarf around my neck and a beanie over my head and protecting
my ears. Then I'd just sit there and smile as you doze off.
I hate it the most when it rains
or snows. Thank God it never hails or else I'd be in big trouble, wouldn't I?
But it's worth it for me. It doesn't matter if I'm sick and down and out with a
petty common cold or influenza. I got to see what nobody else sees, right?
I got to see you sleeping.
You'd hate me so much if you
found out, wouldn't you, Sasuke-kun?
You'd hate me forever and think
I'm some sort of stalking creep that has a weird obsession with you, wouldn't
you? I freak out whenever you just so happen to wake up in the middle of the
night, just because you're uncomfortable, or need to go to the toilet.
Or if you had a bad dream. I
restrain the urge to open that window that I sit beside and cuddle you till you
sleep again, kissing the demons out of your dreams so that there are no more
I nearly faint and suppress a
squeal as you curl up into a tiny ball and gently bring your thumb into your
mouth. This is the first time ever! I wonder what you're dreaming about,
Oh wait...you don't have dreams, do
you? You told us yourself when our teacher asked for introductions.
Were you lying, Sasuke-kun? Your
lips are slightly parted as your thumb slips away from your mouth to rest
beside your head. The quilt covers have become tangled in your legs. I want to
pull those covers up again to your chin so that you stay warm on this cold,
winter night, and then kiss your forehead. Maybe I want to hug you and stay
like that forever, Sasuke-kun.
You wouldn't let me, though,
because you hate me. You said it so yourself the day my lips accidentally touched
yours. You said you'll kill me and that you hate me...I felt so sad that day,
I almost giggle when your tiny
nose scrunches up and sniffles before relaxing again. You look so adorable when
you're like this. I want to cuddle you and embrace you like a teddy-bear!
You look so much like one, did
you know that? People compare you to a cat, Sasuke-kun. But that's only when
you're awake. Nobody knows what you're like when you're asleep. I think you're
like a puppy or a kitten. Or even a baby that needs warmth. I want to come
closer to you to cuddle you like a child would do to a bear.
You just sneezed in your sleep,
Sasuke-kun. Did you forget to turn on the heater again? I glance over at the
heater in your room and notice that, yes, it is on, but you are still cold. Oh
how I want to right that wretched blanket of yours! Better yet, I want to hug
you and fall asleep in your arms so that we both wouldn't be cold.
I'm close to laughing,
Sasuke-kun, when I think about how your 'fan club' would react had they found
out about my nightly escapades to your house. Or even Sakura-chan, who would be
most probable to kick my butt to kingdom come and then hell and back and then
some! I wince, thinking about all the pain I went through watching as those girls
chased you everyday. Boys don't do that, Sasuke-kun. It's wrong, isn't it?
I don't see Kiba, or Shikamaru,
or Chouji, or Shino coming after you, so why is it that I do? I feel so lonely
since I love you so much yet I know that you wouldn't return it. Sakura-chan is
so beautiful so I use her as an excuse to cover up the feelings for you. Truth
be told, she is also a rival in love.
Would you laugh if you heard
this? No, you don't laugh. Hell, you don't even smile. You'd smirk on some
occasions and most of the time you'd scowl. If it were neither, you'd remain
impassive with not a trace of emotion on your face. I've never seen a kid our
age like you before, Sasuke-kun. You're such an impressive character!
Everyone is smiling and laughing!
Even when I was close to tears from not graduating, you, a graduate, didn't
smile. Didn't laugh. You just accepted it and went home. Did you celebrate it?
You don't have a family to celebrate it with, I noted.
You're alone like me. But if you
would accept me, then we wouldn't be alone anymore, would we, Sasuke-kun?
I see you shivering, Sasuke-kun.
I suppose it really is that cold. I'd know myself. It's freezing out here. I
glare at your bed, for it is something that you snuggle up upon every night and
keeps you warm. I feel like it's taking away my duties. I nearly laugh at that
one as well.
I freeze again as something cold
runs down the bridge of my nose. A snowdrop landed on my forehead and thawed
out from the warmth until it became a droplet of water. It's snowing now. It's
a beautiful view from your window, did you know that, Sasuke-kun?
Nobody else knows that, only you
and me, and I take pride in that too! My legs are getting sore from crouching
in this position, so I carefully shift so that my legs are hanging over the
I feel like a guardian, watching
over Konoha as the snow settles in white blankets over the village, casting
it's spell of beauty over everyone.
I look out at the Hokage Mountain,
a beautiful monument that has the four faces of the old and current leaders of
our village. My dream was to someday be up there, looking out over the village
sort of like I do now.
It's strange though. I understand
it because maybe it's because of my grades at school but people always glare at
me and sneer. They shout and me, scowling for no reason at all. Why? When I say
that someday I will become the Hokage and gain their acknowledgement, they
simply laugh and turn away, scowls on their faces again.
You aren't one of them,
Sasuke-kun. Because you don't laugh nor smile. You don't tell me that I'll fail
but in your mind I know that you think I'm destined for such a horrible fate. I
feel like weeping at that thought, Sasuke-kun. It hurts, you know? It really,
You call me dobe, usuratonkachi,
baka/bakero whilst others call me monster and keep their children away from me.
Why is it that I'm only affected by what you say? Why are you always so
Is it because I care for you?
Is it because I love you?
I see movement in your face and
realize that you're waking up, Sasuke-kun! It's just a little before three in
the morning and your obsidian eyes slowly open. I don't know what to do. I urge
myself to move but my eyes are locked onto yours, my breath is taken away. You
stand up and move to the bathroom and I let out a sigh of relief when I realize
that your grogginess probably told you that you were hallucinating. Or perhaps
something along those lines.
I turn back to look at the
village, watching the snowfall again. I hear the distinct sound of the toilet
flushing and rustling as you head back to bed.
Why do I always watch you
sleeping, Sasuke-kun? Nobody else gives up their time to do what I do, and I
feel special for that even though I receive nothing in return, I feel as if I
have gained everything I need just by seeing something that I can keep for
You look so angelic.
I almost fall off your window
ledge when the glass behind me slides open, only to have your hand grip my arm.
Why is it that I watch you
"What are you doing here, dobe?
Aren't you cold?"
I smile. I don't care if it's
cold. Just as long as I can see you. I think I know why I watch you sleep,
Sasuke-kun. Whenever you're awake, you act so cold and distant. You glare at anything
that lives and breathes and stray away from people that care for you so much.
You scoff, thinking that they like you only for your looks. It makes sense,
after all. What else could they know about you, Sasuke-kun? You never give away
anything about you.
I feel so much close to you when
you're sleeping, Sasuke-kun. You never yell at me and I almost see a faint
smile on your face when you sleep. On some rare occasions, even your cheeks
will flush pink in a light blush and I can't help but feel jealous at what
could cause such a beautiful reaction from you.
I'm now seated on your bedroom
floor, staring up at you in disbelief that now, of all times, you have finally
caught me in the act.
"Aren't you cold, dobe?" you
repeat softly, coming closer to me as you shut the window absently with your
free hand. I can practically feel your hand burning through all the fabrics
that are layered upon me.
Funny. I would have at least
expected you to glare and kick me out of your house. I didn't even expect you
to prevent me from falling. I'm so happy, do you realize that, Sasuke-kun? Only
you can cause such feelings to rise from me.
And I'm the only one who sees you
in such a state when you're sleeping, Sasuke-kun. You're always on the alert
but when you're sleeping, you seem like a small child, scared and vulnerable. I
want to cuddle and snuggle against you because you look so cute!
It's so special to me and I feel
my heart thump harder and race quickly in my chest as you pull me to your bed
and crawl under the covers. I sit there, dumbly and not knowing what to do. I'm
finally beside you, Sasuke-kun, and I feel like such an idiot!
"I'm cold," you simply say. I
would have never expected you to admit that, Sasuke-kun. But I guess even you
could be like this...affectionate, almost. I take the hint and take off my
jacket, pushing off my sandals and climbing in beside you. Draping my jacket
over your tiny, lithe frame, I pull the covers up to your chin and come closer
to you. I've never seen you like this before! Or act like this before, rather.
"You watch me every night," you
state, looking at me rather oddly. Then I feel you push yourself into my neck
and let out a small breath of air. "Thank you."
I let out a strangled sound and
realize that I'm crying, from tears of joy that all my time watching over you
has paid off. Although this was highly unlikely for you to do, I appreciate it
very much, Sasuke-kun. Watching you was my greatest pleasure and pride for only
I could see the emotion that flitted across your face as you slumbered on.
Holding you closer to me, I note
this time that you stop shivering and return to sleep. Placing a tender kiss
upon your forehead, I'm elated that only you and I could share this moment
together, while it lasts. And no matter what happens today, or tomorrow, or
later on from now in a week, month or year...it doesn't really matter to me.
I don't mind if I suffer from the
elements watching you sleep. Because everything benefited me, Sasuke-kun...
While you were sleeping...
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(sounds creepy, ne?)