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"I sure as hell don’t want to survive; I just want to feel alive." Feedback greatly appreciated. :)
Icy daggers stab straight at my heart,
Watching the bike-shed as lovers part.
Kids mounting bikes and sitting in cars,
I’m the dull knife and they the shining stars.
The pavement’s hard under my feet,
Lining the length of the bustling street.
Everyone going on as though it matters,
When we all just end up in rotting tatters.
The bell has long gone yet I’m still here,
My thoughts turning to what most fear.
The loneliness festering in my guts,
The cold climbing my ribs like ruts.
The whispers come chaste and kind,
Whirling, dancing, playing with my mind.
They tell me to break free of Hell,
And fall under Death’s dark sweet spell.
My shoes scuff slowly along the stones,
I don’t want to be the cause of their moans.
School buses dive past,
Each sight I see might be my last.
I don’t want smiles; only tears,
For the girl they ignored for fifteen years.
I want them to cut deep and hard,
When it’s them is it so easy to disregard?
The road’s calling me joyously on,
Telling me to cause a collision.
The curb holds me down,
In traffic I want to drown.
I hope that death will hurt,
And that the pain isn’t curt.
I sure as hell don’t want to survive;
I just want to feel alive.
I’m just a kid lusting for revenge,
My dead life I will avenge.
I hope my “friends” blame themselves,
When I’m just a picture on their shelves.
I want everyone in bright black,
I want to give them a heart-attack.
I want them to know I could have been saved,
I want them to know mine’s a road they paved.
A car beeps and I see my ride,
Faking a smile as towards it I stride.
Home to another night of lone sorrow,
Perhaps I’ll try again tomorrow.
A/N: Thank you very much for reading and I hope that it was alright. Sorry if it was crappy, it's just something that I needed to get out of my system. Anyway, thanks for reading and please let me know what you think! :)