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You woke up screaming. Again. You immidiatly reached for the phone,but stopped before you dialed his number. You didn't need to wake Benji up. He had just gotten here. He was only staying for a few months while his band worked on their new Cd anyway.
Benji Madden was your only friend. Litterally. You refused to accociate with anyone else,and without you having to admit it,Benji knew it was because you were scared. You hadn't even met Benji's band,and that was sad. They had been togeather so long. But you didn't even want to trust them,even though they were his closest friends. You hardly left your room,let alone the house. Unless Benji was there with you the whole way.
You stumbled to the bathroom and opened the medicine cabnet. You looked at the label on one of the bottles. "Perscribed to:Rose Black, 2 Tablets, Sleeping Pills" It read. You took two with a glass of water and layed back down as the phone wrang. "Hello?" You asked,still wide awake. "Hey Rose,I thought you might be up." Benji had a smile in his voice. "Hey I miss you,you'll have to come over soon." You sat up on your bed. "Okey...but I want you to meet the guys tommarow,I promise nothing bad will happen." He said. "Where?" You asked,thinking about it,you weren't sure you wanted to be around three other complete strangers. (I am writing Chris out of this one,But I refuse to replace him !!!!!) Well,Joel wasn't a complete stranger,you had met him a few years back,he used to hang out with you and Benji all the time,then things changed. But that was another story.
"Where going to meet up at the mall. I'll pick you up in the range rover and we'll meet the guys there...look,your therepist said-" You cut him off there. "I know what she said. I just don't want to do this because she said to...I'll meet them because I want to,no one else. Okay?" You asked,you hated your voice shaking. "Okay.." Benji had a smile in his voice and he knew you were just testing that you could make your own desitions. You hung up the phone and fell asleep. Benji would pick you up in the morning,and you could feel safe with Benji. You always had.

~Benji's P.O.V~

I hung up the phone and walked into the other room of the recording studio. Joel was Sitting on the sofa,writing lyrics most likely,and Billy was looking at me. "What?" I asked. "Whats the story with that girl,Rose?" He asked. About time,I could tell Billy had always been interested in Rose,even though he had never met her,I talked about her all the time,he practically knew her already. I had been friends with Rose since ever. Probably around 10 years. Joel had met her at a few parties but that was all. "Why?" I asked Billy,sitting next to my brother. "Just woundering." Billy shrugged. He sat on one of the chairs,pretending to innoccently tune his guitar. "A couple years back,when I first met her,she was with this guy Darren. He wasn't exactly boyfriend of the year. The asshole kept Rose locked up,I didn't realize how bad it all was until I talked to her about two years later. She was a basket case. She wouldn't breath unless she cleared it with him first. I helped her get out,and got her help. She hasn't been the same since. I figured she should get to know some people I trust,to get her trust in people back. So I'm gonna take her to the mall with us tommarow." Billy nodded. Joel looked up smiling. "All Billy! Benji trusts us!" Then he went back to lyrics. I stared at my Brother. "Hilarys not coming." I said plainly,he looked pissed but didn't say anything. Billy saw an open end to my story. "What happened to Darren?" He asked. "They haven't found him. Thats why Rose is as bad as she is sometimes. She thinks she sees him everywhere. Its not helping that he could be." I looked at the ground and the phone wrang. "Hello?" I picked it up. Mistake. "Hey? Joel? Its Hil." This incredibly preppy voice almost squeeled into the phone. "No. I've told you a millon times,Joels the ones thats always carrying your purse." With that I handed the phone to Joel and walked upstairs.

~Back to your P.O.V~

You woke up the next morning and looked in the mirror. You were so pale. At least you were going to get out today. You put on a fishnet shirt and then a black 'SilverChair' Hoodie on over it. You decided on a pair of Bondadge pants Benji had bought you last time you guys went somewhere and Red and Black chucks. You looked in the mirrors again and fixed your eyeliner,making your icy blue eyes stand out even more. Your black,aqua tipped hair,you just threw back in a ponytail. You went into the kitchen and fixed yourself a bowl of cereal and waited for Benji. About and hour later someone knocked on you apartment door. "Benji!" You hugged him and then fallowed him out to the car. The range rover was the only car that you could get in without feeling like you were suffocating. Benji drove towards the mall,not saying anything. "Your awefully quiet." You whispered. "Are you mad at me?" You prayed he wasn't. He shook his head. "No Rose. Why would I be mad at you?" He smiled. "Sorry,I just was thinking about something." There went that suspicious smile again. "What is it?" I asked laughing at his stubburness. "Nothing,did you know that Joel was dating hilary duff?" He was trying to change the subject. You rolled your eyes and just about gave up on him. When he parked the car,something made you stay close to him like always,he grabbed you hand,like always. When you reached the food court he let your hand go as you both sat at a table with three other guys. "Guys this is rose." Benji introduced you and you tried to sink into your hoodie. You were hating this already. "Rose..you already met my brother Joel... A couple years back,remember?" He asked you and you nodded,half smiling at Benjis twin. You recongnized him a little. He smilied back. "This is Paul.." He introduced the guy sitting across from you. He seemed friendly enough. "And this is lover bo- I mean Billy" Benji grinned and the guy sitting next to him looked about ready to kill Benji. You couldn't help noticing how hot Billy was. Sorry. Chick moment. You were permeted. But you stopped yourself from thinking anything hopeless. You didn't plan on being with anyone else. Ever. You couldn't risk getting trapt again. Billy flashed a smile and you melted. He was Benjis friend. He was cool right? You guys walked around the mall,you stayed close to Benji the whole time,and the other guys seemed to be understanding. You noticed that you and Billy had a strange amount of things in common. No. You won't break me. I know how it goes. 'The most beautiful of Roses always have the sharpist thorns.' It was something your mom had always told you before she died. You found out what she had ment the hard way. You walked into a cd store and thought you saw him again. But it wasn't him,you were worrying yourself for nothing. "It wasn't him" Benji whispered. You realized you had grabbed his hand and let it go,blushing. You walked along a rack of Cd's,nothing cought your eye. Benji usually burned cd's for you. You had that feeling in the pit of your stomach again, Benji did everything for you. He let you borrow money like crazy. You got some government money,but that was almost useless. You owed Benji so much. You crossed your arms and waited for Benji to stop looking so you could leave. The guy you had met earlier,Billy,glanced over at you for about the zillionth time. You smiled and he looked away. This one confused you. "I don't bite you know." You heard benji laughing under his breath. "I didn't think so." Billy smirked. "Then why don't you stop looking away everytime I notice you staring at me and open your mouth and say something?" You hadn't said anything this out spoken in a long time. Benji seemed to have noticed. Billy laughed and shrugged. You knew why he was keeping his distance,You were willing to bet Benji had told the guys to back off.You weren't that easily broken,Were you?