I'm not your boss or whatever, so I'm not gonna try to convince you to continue this, esp. since I know how hard it can be to be enthusiastic about something you're not really into anymore, but I just want to say a few things.
Don't compare yourself to anyone else hun. I know this sounds extremely cliche but everyone's different. It's true. I just read this whole story in about an hour and in my opinion it's fucking brilliant. It really hits home for me. It's so much better than anything I could've done. I re-read what I've done and I compare it to you. And believe me, hun, I'm the one who sucks.
Just my opinion, tbh. I don't really care if it matters.