Beautiful--
"Am I the only one who thinks this is going to end with a semen filled condom and a convoluted heart."
That quote seemed dark and sick and lovely. I enjoyed reading that.
As well as the rest of the chapter. I found that this chapter showed Ryan's emotions well. As if everything is falling apart and there is nothing left to hope for, anymore. It's as though, this were a blog, that Ryan had written himself. It felt real, and I love that. It was amazing.
I'm glad you found time to update. :]
Cuz' this chapter was marvelous.
Update soon. :]