You decide who you wanna make me...
My name's Faye and I'm a guitarist. Is that important? My favorite band is Nirvana, I won't lie and say MCR is better than them, but MCR's still great. They're way more inspirational for me than Kurt Cobain, Kurt was just a better...somethingist. Something about Nirvana just blows me away. Anyway...
I tend to be sort of blunt...straightforward. I'm not very concerned with what people think of me. I hate social situations and I'm not that pretty but people flock around me like termites. I don't know why, and it annoys me. Everyone who hangs out with me is so superficial. I have only two or three people I can call friends, and I'm fine with that. I hate people who have to act different around everyone they meet, instead of just being themselves. I hate people who make shallow stereotypes and give in to false idols. I like to be on my own, just with my music. I like to listen to the lyrics and cry, or laugh, or smile, or grit my teeth while singing alone.
I have (dyed) black hair, blue eyes. Like Bert McCracken, who is my singing idol (he is just fucking amazing!) I'm really short, almost underweight. I smoke, it's a nasty habit. And I also curse a lot. I'm kinda a little perverted. And I have a steadily dropping self esteem. But everyone has their flaws. And I'm a little bicurious... ;D
I waste my time all day, just dreaming and watching people live their life. I hear people like My Chemical Romance, and I think will I ever get there? I hope to, but I doubt it. And that just makes me cry. I cry and think about that a lot,on my free time.
I don't dress unique or anything. T-shirt, jeans. Simple. I hate people who go overboard, just to attract attention. It's so fake.
I love Gerard for a lot of reasons. He's, first of all, an amazing thinker. More than his lyrics, I like the things he says. They're thought provoking, and they're just really deep. I can always count on him to make me feel small and insignificant. His lyrics are great too, they make me feel like I belong somewhere...I dunno where, but somewhere. Another thing, he's been through so much and he makes me feel so lucky. My life's been so easy, and I think I used to take it for granted.
Because of him, I decided not to give up on my surpluss rock n' roll dreams that I'm sure half the teenagers in America have. But I also want to add that I'm not gonna say Gerard's my hero. He's not, I've never met him, I only know what I hear in his music. A hero is someone you know and want to be JUST like, and I don't want to be just like him. Because, I'm sure he has many, many, many flaws like any other human being. He's not God, I hate it when people idolize some random rockstar.
While his lyrics have changed me, they didn't save me. What saved me was just knowing that this band was there. This band that's so fucking different. They're so...HONEST. Bert's absolutely right, there's nothing worse than dishonest music. Honesty is what I love in music and in life.
But I do let a few white lies pass, every now and then. Cause I sometimes gotta lie to get my way.
My favorite bands (cause this part is the most important): Nirvana, MCR, The Used, Led Zeppelin, Judas Priest, Misfits, Marilyn Manson (yeah, I like him, believe it or not), Guns N Roses, Pearl Jam, Mudhoney, AC/DC, The Who, Iron Maiden, Pink Floyd, Rise Against, Tokio Hotel, 30STM, The Cure, Rolling Stones, The White Stripes, etc. I HATE BLACK FLAG! No offense to Frankie.