Lol chocolate balls, reminds me of chef from south park lmao.
Anyways that was some deep dark shit you wrote. That must have been damn hard to get through for Gerard. The last bit about the xanax and shit reminded me of my old best friend she was always switching depression medications and shit because one wouldnt work so she'd have to change to another. I get this story from the Mikey perspective. My old best friend was really sick and shit at one point bad health issues and major mental issues, and it fucking kills you to see them go through that.
This whole getting clean thing is like a massive mix of both because of the physical withdrawl symptoms, you want to give in get rid of the pain and shit while on the other hand your head is telling you not to give up and to keep trying or its telling you the complete opposite like your conscience, you know like when on The Simpsons one one shoulder is angel homer on the others devil homer (lol I am evil homer lol).
Love the moment your doing, I enjoy emotional stuff the drama and angst of everything I thrive on this stuff. This is fan-fucking-tastic so far.
Cant wait for Day 3
XO CaT
Author's response
Your friend isn't the only one who's been through the whole pill carousel. I think for many people the anti-depressants or anti-anxiety meds STOP working ... and because they don't know any better or because they're just NEED something they get a new prescription ... and so on. It's fucked really. I know a lot of you are are in England or Australia or whatever, but here in the U.S. "big pharma" is a force to be reckoned with. They've got a pill out for fucking everything and they hand them out like candy. I barely even pop an Advil for a headache now. I'm really happy I was able to sever the pill umbilical cord.
And you're right about the conflicting emotions going on and between those and the actual withdraw symptoms, it really can be hell.
Thanks for reading and for the review, Cat.
xD