I got about half way through and started crying, now I can't stop crying, it doesn't help that I'm depressed and suicidal, and the sad thing was that I same, "no, please don't kill uncle Mikey, he's all whoever cared for me, not mom nor step-daddy Gerard. Why is it always uncle Mikey?" and I'm not every related to them. I'm stuck in my own world, and I can't get out to stop crying first.