I'm not going to say I know what your going through because we all take loss of loved ones diffrent. Just take your time. Remember the good times and cherish them allways. Just think she's on the Next Great Adventure.
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The pain of a death is one of the hardest to overcome. Every day I think: "Wow! Marion would love to see...Damn!"
Most likely she's wreaking havoc in whatever comes after. She doesn't believe in heaven, but if she's there, then she and my mother are getting drunk, and laughing at all the memories. If not, well, I suppose she'll make do wherever she is.
Alorkin