I'm so sorry...
First of all, I'm sorry that I haven't reviewed your last couple chapters and author's notes like I usually do . I've been on "vacation" (more like forced participation) in the Philippines since April 1 and won't be back until Sunday. There isn't any wireless internet and I have to write this quickly because we all have to share this internet box-thingy. (My mom thinks I like it here, but honestly it is a living hell. No running water, no wireless internet, bugs EVERYWHERE. Damn, I sound like a spoiled bitch... Sorry)
Secondly, I'm sorry that the world has to be such a fucking mess. Life is tough and, hey! No one gets out alive anyway! We just have to stay strong with the things we believe in because it is the only way to stay sane.
Breaking Edge is nothing to be proud of, but there are worse things in the world. Don't hate yourself over it. You just have to walk the path of true change, and hold your convictions to the grave! (Yeah, I totally just quoted Strife. What you gonna do about it? ;) ) We are damn proud to be Striaght Edge and nothing can change that! Atleast you have been making an effort to prevent yourself from contaminating your body. Most people just don't care about keeping their body in control and fall prey to society's vices. You, however, are still in control and should be fucking proud of yourself =)
“People who cease to believe in God or goodness altogether still believe in the devil. I don't know why. No, I do indeed know why. Evil is always possible. And goodness is eternally difficult.”
-Anne Rice
"I walk the path of true change, commitment sworn in the name of those who walk the Straight Edge, Convictions held to my grave."
-Strife
"...Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win..."
-Stephen King
“If for one minute you think you're better than a sixteen year old girl in a Green Day t-shirt, you are sorely mistaken. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favorite band. You wore their shirt, and sang every word. You didn't know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about.”
-Gerard Way (I don't know what this one has to do with anything, but it just made me feel better. What about you?)
You are special. No, you are very special! You may be feeling down, but eventually the dark clouds will pass and you will see the light. You are an amazing author and a phenominal friend, so I don't see any reason for you to deserve any kind of bad thoughts or feelings.
I shall continue to be the regular reader and reviewer that I should be!
-Maria
sXe
P.S.,
Recomended listening: You're Gonna Go Far Kid by The Offspring
Recomended reading: http://www.mychemicalromance.com/blog/xmydearmotherwarx/society-suicide-and-puppets