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It doesn't matter how old you are, you can always feel depressed and suicidal. The first time I had attempted suicide, I was nine but my body had got so used to the amount of pills I put in it I still woke up. You need to get help, they wont judge you or lock you away or any crazy shit like that unless you leave it for too long. I left it for too long, I woke up every morning dissapointed that I was still alive, I still do and I never open up or tell anyone the truth about how I'm feeling- my fake smile is so good right now even I nearly believe it.
Don't try to deal with it on your own, it will spiral out of control and you won't be able to contain it. I'm 12 as well and I have royally fucked up my life, I take pills, I drink and I self harm. I have more attempted suicides than I dare to fucking count.

Please, please, PLEASE don't end up like me.
There is still hope for you.
Therapy might not help and the anti- depressants are addictive.
Find a release, art, music or writing.
Put it out there for the world to see.
Be exactly who and what the fuck you are and never let anyone tell you that you're wrong.
You deserve a good life.
Talk to a friend
Hell, even fucking talk to me! I will help you as much as humanly fucking possible because no one should have to live in such deep depression that they wish to end their lives.
If you don't feel you can tell your parents, then don't. I never have.
But tell SOMEONE.
They WILL be able to help you.
Parents can be scary and not understand that you can make decisions and have problems, even if you're not in your teens yet.
Just please tell someone
Reach out
We care
MCR care
Everybody around you cares, even if you can't see it.
I don't know you, but the world will be a much darker place if people like you aren't in it.
Remember this.
The MCRmy love you
The killjoys love you
Your family love you
MCR love you
It's okay to be fucked up
There are five guys just as fucked up as you


I hope this VERY long review helped (btw oh hot damn with the poetry! You could make a fucking career out of that shit!)

Jackie
xxx