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Aww, thank you! I think earlier I had a dream about the Breakfast Monkey! And yes, they match. :) I wanted the outfits to be the same ones they wore in the Helena video. I didn't do that great of a job at descibing them, but oh well.
My mom's been having hallucinations lately. I'm not sure why though. She never smells like booze and there isn't any around the house. Maybe she's using? That or she has more issues than the doctors knew about. She also started going into fits more often. She just will scream and scream and scream and will go all violent. But I'm still not cutting! That's one positive. I'm starting to worry about the baby though. He isn't big enough to go to school and we can't afford health care. I'm worried that she'll hurt him or he'll get hurt and my mom won't do anything. My mom needs help and I can't help her. Even when I try to, it just gets worse. She think she saw me when she didn't, she yells for hours about the fact I'm wearing pants, she goes outside wearing only pajamas, she forgets pracitcally everything, she tells my not to do homework and then grounds me for aceing tests! I'm worried that she'll hurt me or the other kids while we're sleeping. There's been sudden increases and then drops in the number of lighters around the house (like from one to six to two), and me mom doesn't even smoke. She's completely unpredictable and hides people's shoes! I go to the door to go to my bus stop and I can't find my effin' shoes! OMG she just woke up. G2G.
Love you lots! xoxo

P.S. Oops. I meant to say can't afford day care. My mom can't afford health care either, but that's irrelevant.