Geez Lornaigh, I am so sorry and fuck, I know you hate sympathy, (I can understand, I'm not a fan either), and you're probably several worlds happier now that you're with God but I really am so sorry. I'm hurting like hell again for you after reading that, the tears came in the middle of that chapter knowing it was based off the real deal. Similar to what I felt with your suicide note. I am so sorry. I can't cry at fiction but this was real pain from a real person and it rips my heart out for you. There is a big difference between wanting to be alive and not wanting to die and you definitely explained it when departed this world. From the note above this chapter, I suppose this was goodbye. Well, now I'm rambling but sheesh, this chapter hurts and the tears definitely came. Not for me, but for you, for your suffering.
-Adnarim Smada