This was nice and all but I hope you don't kill your self. I was there and I still am but I'm getting help. There is hope. If you want private help like I did call 1-800-SUICIDE it helps. Think about your future. Don't leave everyone wondering what could have been and losers gossiping about how weak you were. Live long and leave an amazing legecy. The legecy doesn't have to be meant for the world it could be for just one person. Suicide is just showing the problem that it won. You are not a loser.