Oh darling, I know what you're going through. I know it's painful, I know it just feels like an empty void, a place that used to be warm and filled with sunshine; but you need to remember that sometimes these things happen.
I've dealt with the loss of a friend more times than most people my age (cancer, suicide, murder) and it sucks. It really truly does.
I get the feeling of loseing your better half, it's an awful feeling, and I really hate to hear when it happens to other people.
You just have to remember that you're not alone. Sure the future looks bleak, and everything feels empty, but you have to keep carrying on.
Bad things happen, it's part of living. And it's a fact that takes a while to accept. I still have a hard time accepting it. But there are always people out there that will want you to keep living.
When you think of the people who have passed; cry, remember, think of how they lived life, do something they loved in remembrance, and just keep living for both you, and the person who passed.
I don't know if that helped any, but I really hope it did. Life is to short to spend it in a sorrow filled state.
And you only have one to live.
Feel better soon.
-xoxo Pansy.
Author's response
Thank you so much, that made me feel alot better:). It helped alot. I just don't know what I'm going to do without her, but eventually I hope I'll be able to accept it. It's going to be really hard though not being able to hear her laugh or see her smile. Again thank you, it really helped alot:)