This is so sad :( like the person before me said, beautifully written. Really amazing. Is this how you really feel? No one should feel like that. It's not right.
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It's how I feel a lot of the time, but life's started getting better, so hopefully I won't be feeling like this for much longer. I agree with you that it's not right, but it's whats happened, and I've been barely dealing with it... I'm slowly getting happier, thanks to my friends and family, without most of them realising. :) letting it out here was quite helpful too :):)