This is exactly my life as well...I'm not the perfect girl that aces everything and has a good life goal. No, I'm the girl that can't stand her life, wants to be a singer, and somehow gets good grades because of the persona she puts up makes teachers like her. Unfortunately, I don't know how I can start to be myself around them. If they saw who I reall was, they'd disown me or kick me out. The other day, my dad basically warned me that if I turned out a lesbian, I wouldn't be his daughter anymore. First off, I'm straight, but that's cruel. That's what's wrong with this world. Closed minded people like him that don't accept less than 110%. He yelled at me for having a B+, because I usually get A's, A-'s, and A+'s.
I don't want to be in modern society. I want to sing. I want to inspire someone else to spare their life, just like MCR has for me. I want to be myself, and people like you give me the hope and courage to do so. Thank you, and you're not alone.